54. The World is a Mirror

1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:13,000 So the big question is this, how do young men like us who didn't listen to society who are on our own, how do we grow and improve ourselves so that we can live a better tomorrow? 2 00:00:16,000 --> 00:00:19,000 That is the question and the show will give you the answers. 3 00:00:19,000 --> 00:00:32,000 My name is James Radzinski and welcome to the Ascend Momentum Show. Welcome back. 4 00:00:33,000 --> 00:00:36,000 So let's get things started off. 5 00:00:37,000 --> 00:00:42,000 Over the past week, I actually may be even more than a week. 6 00:00:42,000 --> 00:00:53,000 I haven't really been thinking about my goal. I've kind of just been undirected. 7 00:00:54,000 --> 00:00:58,000 Just going through the motions basically. 8 00:00:59,000 --> 00:01:06,000 And I wasn't really focusing on my goal much. I was just kind of trying to get through the days. 9 00:01:06,000 --> 00:01:19,000 But then today, my friend brought it to my attention that I'm losing focus and I'm distracting myself. 10 00:01:20,000 --> 00:01:25,000 And he's true. It's true. He's right. 11 00:01:25,000 --> 00:01:38,000 I haven't even thought of my target slide, which is my goal. Me visualizing my goal, I have not even thought of it in weeks. 12 00:01:41,000 --> 00:01:48,000 So honestly, that's the number one thing for Transurfing. 13 00:01:48,000 --> 00:02:09,000 There are a bunch of different exercises to do in Transurfing. But Vadam Zalin said that the most important exercise is like there are two exercises where you should actually pay the most attention to and actually stress or not stress, but actually do the most. 14 00:02:09,000 --> 00:02:21,000 So the two most important exercises in Transurfing are running your target slide and visualizing the process in your current link. 15 00:02:24,000 --> 00:02:37,000 And that is, honestly, I realized I've just been learning, learning, learning, studying, studying, studying, but I haven't really been applying much of this stuff. 16 00:02:37,000 --> 00:02:46,000 I have been applying a lot of this stuff, but I haven't been applying the big movers, the things that will actually move me towards my goal. 17 00:02:47,000 --> 00:02:52,000 Running the target slide and going with the flow. I haven't even been applying that. 18 00:02:53,000 --> 00:03:01,000 I've just been kind of waiting for something to happen. But as Vadam Zalin said, the yarn of postponement can go on all of your life. 19 00:03:01,000 --> 00:03:09,000 And that's true. I kept on postponing things and it lasted a couple weeks and I barely got anywhere. 20 00:03:10,000 --> 00:03:25,000 But with that said, I created my target slide. I remade my new target slide and I ran it today a bunch and I was actually thinking about it a lot. 21 00:03:25,000 --> 00:03:36,000 So I was thinking about my goal a lot. And my goal is to have it in my background, like have it in the background of my thinking all the time. 22 00:03:37,000 --> 00:03:38,000 So always have it in the background. 23 00:03:40,000 --> 00:03:49,000 And basically, you're guaranteed success. Like you're the only person that can prevent you from getting success. 24 00:03:49,000 --> 00:03:56,000 Like you, me, I'm the only person who can prevent myself from achieving my goals. 25 00:04:02,000 --> 00:04:08,000 So with that said, I am working towards actually doing that. 26 00:04:09,000 --> 00:04:12,000 And I don't know my door. I don't even know what my next step is. 27 00:04:12,000 --> 00:04:24,000 I'm basically focusing on visualizing my goal and then just waiting for the path to present itself. 28 00:04:25,000 --> 00:04:27,000 That's basically what you're supposed to do. 29 00:04:28,000 --> 00:04:35,000 But I want to talk about over the past week or so, I've really been talking a lot. 30 00:04:35,000 --> 00:04:51,000 I think it was two weeks actually, I've really been talking a lot about this one article, or not even just this one article, this topic, and it's the gateway process. 31 00:04:51,000 --> 00:05:11,000 So about two weeks ago, a little over two weeks ago, actually, I found this document called, it's a declassified CIA document, and it's called the Analysis and Assessment of the Gateway Process. 32 00:05:11,000 --> 00:05:25,000 Now, this is basically a document of one of the commanders of the army in the 80s, basically analyzing from a scientific perspective the gateway process. 33 00:05:26,000 --> 00:05:37,000 And the gateway process is a process of meditation that was developed by Monroe Institute. 34 00:05:37,000 --> 00:05:43,000 And what it is, is they use a technology called Hemi-Sync. 35 00:05:44,000 --> 00:05:51,000 And what this Hemi-Sync does is, you basically wear headphones and then listen to a tape. 36 00:05:52,000 --> 00:06:01,000 And on this tape has like pink noise, waves crashing, just the classic meditation noises. 37 00:06:01,000 --> 00:06:11,000 But then it also has a narrator, like Bob Monroe narrates the first couple of ones. 38 00:06:12,000 --> 00:06:14,000 And it tells you like what to do. 39 00:06:15,000 --> 00:06:17,000 And he basically guides you through the journey. 40 00:06:17,000 --> 00:06:38,000 But the Hemi-Sync is basically where you're, I don't know exactly what it is, but my best understanding of it as what I have right now, and I haven't really looked into the Hemi-Sync specifically much. 41 00:06:38,000 --> 00:06:50,000 But it's basically where you have your left ear and the right ear, so you know how when you're listening to things, sometimes it plays in your left ear and sometimes it plays in your right ear. 42 00:06:51,000 --> 00:06:57,000 So Hemi-Sync is basically where it plays two noises, like a noise in both ears. 43 00:06:58,000 --> 00:07:02,000 But one side is 100 and then the other side is like 104. 44 00:07:02,000 --> 00:07:07,000 And then that means that your right ear will hear it. 45 00:07:08,000 --> 00:07:09,000 So you basically hear the difference. 46 00:07:10,000 --> 00:07:17,000 So since it's 100 on both sides, but there's that extra four on the right ear, your right ear will hear four. 47 00:07:18,000 --> 00:07:19,000 I'm pretty sure that's how it works. 48 00:07:20,000 --> 00:07:30,000 And so it's like you hear the difference and then it helps like synchronize your left hemisphere and your right hemisphere of your brains. 49 00:07:30,000 --> 00:07:33,000 So it like helps unify your heart and mind. 50 00:07:34,000 --> 00:07:38,000 So that's basically like what Hemi-Sync is. 51 00:07:43,000 --> 00:07:49,000 And Hemi-Sync, alright, so let me explain this. 52 00:07:49,000 --> 00:07:59,000 The gateway process is a process to get into meditation that's so deep eventually you can get into an out of body experience and then you can do a bunch of other stuff. 53 00:08:00,000 --> 00:08:05,000 But the first, there's stages to it. 54 00:08:06,000 --> 00:08:14,000 So focus one is what we're at right now, just normal waking, normal consciousness, normal waking reality. 55 00:08:14,000 --> 00:08:24,000 Focus one is where you're in a meditation so deep, your body is basically asleep. 56 00:08:25,000 --> 00:08:32,000 And I like to think of it as you're basically paralyzed, your body is basically paralyzed. 57 00:08:32,000 --> 00:08:44,000 So when you are in REM sleep, your body sends out chemicals or something to paralyze your body or else you will enact your dreams. 58 00:08:45,000 --> 00:08:47,000 And that's where sleep paralysis comes in. 59 00:08:48,000 --> 00:08:59,000 Some people every once in a while when they wake up, like normally when you wake up, the body times it perfectly to end the sleep paralysis. 60 00:08:59,000 --> 00:09:07,000 As you're waking up, but sometimes it messes up and you're still paralyzed while you're awake. 61 00:09:08,000 --> 00:09:10,000 So that's where sleep paralysis comes in. 62 00:09:11,000 --> 00:09:21,000 But meditation, the focus 10 is basically where you're meditating so deep that you're like, you basically put your body to sleep. 63 00:09:22,000 --> 00:09:23,000 So it's kind of like paralyzed. 64 00:09:23,000 --> 00:09:28,000 Except once you start thinking of it, you're able to move it. 65 00:09:31,000 --> 00:09:43,000 So for example, I've been practicing this and I don't have the hemisync tapes yet, but I've still been practicing trying to get into focus 10 just on my own. 66 00:09:44,000 --> 00:09:45,000 And I've gotten close. 67 00:09:45,000 --> 00:09:53,000 I was able to put my hand, my right hand fully to sleep and it was a crazy sensation. 68 00:09:54,000 --> 00:09:59,000 It's like I lost my hand and then I was able to move it once I started thinking of it. 69 00:10:02,000 --> 00:10:09,000 It's basically where your body is so relaxed, so calm that you like lose your sense of it. 70 00:10:10,000 --> 00:10:11,000 Kind of, I don't know. 71 00:10:11,000 --> 00:10:23,000 Now, I haven't gotten to focus 10 yet, but I haven't gotten the hemisync tapes yet, but I'm trying to get to, I'm trying to practice as much as I can because the tape is supposed to come. 72 00:10:24,000 --> 00:10:27,000 I bought the first wave, which is like the first three CDs. 73 00:10:28,000 --> 00:10:34,000 So there are eight waves and wave one just focuses on getting to focus 10. 74 00:10:34,000 --> 00:10:44,000 And so I bought wave one and it's supposed to come either anywhere between tomorrow and over the next like three days. 75 00:10:45,000 --> 00:10:49,000 So tomorrow is Monday and it should come either between Monday or Wednesday. 76 00:10:50,000 --> 00:11:01,000 And I bought on Amazon and it was actually, I went and checked like right before this episode to see if like when it will come. 77 00:11:01,000 --> 00:11:04,000 And it actually said it was delayed at customs. 78 00:11:05,000 --> 00:11:07,000 So we'll see how that turns out. 79 00:11:09,000 --> 00:11:11,000 It was delayed at customs. 80 00:11:12,000 --> 00:11:21,000 So I don't know, it might get delayed, but I went to the website like because it wasn't, I bought it through Amazon, but it wasn't shipped through Amazon. 81 00:11:22,000 --> 00:11:23,000 It was shipped through DHL. 82 00:11:23,000 --> 00:11:32,000 So I went onto their website and they said it should still be, it should still arrive by tomorrow night. 83 00:11:33,000 --> 00:11:34,000 So it's looking good. 84 00:11:35,000 --> 00:11:50,000 And over the past couple of days, I've actually been so excited about this tape to come that I've been doing some research on the customer reviews and what other people, like other people's experience and how they've been doing it. 85 00:11:50,000 --> 00:11:59,000 And I came across this one post on Reddit, I think it was where this one guy is basically like married. 86 00:12:00,000 --> 00:12:02,000 He is a full time job. 87 00:12:02,000 --> 00:12:05,000 He's a student and he's got a bunch of kids. 88 00:12:05,000 --> 00:12:17,000 So if you can imagine that situation, he's probably got no time and he said he's got no time and he, but he somehow found the time to practice the wave one. 89 00:12:17,000 --> 00:12:25,000 And for contacts, he had never done any meditating or any like consciousness stuff beforehand. 90 00:12:25,000 --> 00:12:38,000 So he's got no experience and he was able to reach focus 10 and get to it consistently. 91 00:12:38,000 --> 00:12:47,000 Even without the tapes, he was able to reach that within a week of practice. 92 00:12:47,000 --> 00:12:54,000 So I'm looking forward to it because I know that I'm almost able to get it without the tape. 93 00:12:55,000 --> 00:12:57,000 And he said the tape was a game changer. 94 00:12:57,000 --> 00:13:08,000 So there was someone commented on that post saying like, how do you get into focus 10? Like I have done all the exercises. 95 00:13:08,000 --> 00:13:09,000 I don't really know how to do it. 96 00:13:10,000 --> 00:13:17,000 And then they found out that he wasn't the guy who commented wasn't using the tapes. 97 00:13:17,000 --> 00:13:31,000 And so the original post, the owner of the original post responded to that guy and said, you're missing the tapes, the actual audio file, the hemisync. 98 00:13:31,000 --> 00:13:34,000 And he said that those were game changers. 99 00:13:34,000 --> 00:13:38,000 Like he was able to do it so easily with the tapes. 100 00:13:38,000 --> 00:13:55,000 And so I'm looking forward to it and I also saw another YouTube video a couple of days ago and the guy was able to reach focus 21 in eight months of practice. 101 00:13:55,000 --> 00:14:00,000 And he said that that was actually a long amount of time and it was because he was enjoying the process. 102 00:14:01,000 --> 00:14:06,000 He wasn't trying to rush it, but many people reach focus 21 quicker than eight months. 103 00:14:06,000 --> 00:14:11,000 And he also said he reached focus 15 in one month. 104 00:14:11,000 --> 00:14:27,000 So that is very encouraging because focus, honestly, the one that I'm looking most forward to is focus 12 because I'm pretty sure it's focus 12. 105 00:14:27,000 --> 00:14:29,000 But I read that. 106 00:14:29,000 --> 00:14:40,000 But before I explain this, for context, I cannot visualize so I can't visualize, but it takes a lot of focus. 107 00:14:40,000 --> 00:14:49,000 So I can only visualize if I actually sit down and close my eyes, sit down and imagine it and it takes a decent amount of time. 108 00:14:49,000 --> 00:14:53,000 And even then it's still not a picture. 109 00:14:53,000 --> 00:14:55,000 It's kind of like I feel things around. 110 00:14:55,000 --> 00:14:58,000 I can't really see it. 111 00:14:58,000 --> 00:15:13,000 So I can't really visualize it, but I was reading about focus 12 and Monroe Institute said that some of their participants were able to some of their non visualizers. 112 00:15:13,000 --> 00:15:23,000 So some of the people that were not able to visualize or didn't visualize were actually able to visualize normally in focus 12. 113 00:15:23,000 --> 00:15:25,000 So that's huge. 114 00:15:25,000 --> 00:15:31,000 I'm like really looking forward to that because I've never like I'm not able to visualize. 115 00:15:31,000 --> 00:15:36,000 So imagine being blind all your life and then being able to see finally. 116 00:15:36,000 --> 00:15:39,000 That's basically for me when I close my eyes, it's always dark. 117 00:15:39,000 --> 00:15:41,000 It's always just black. 118 00:15:41,000 --> 00:15:43,000 I can't necessarily see things. 119 00:15:43,000 --> 00:15:55,000 And then even the other day I was able like in my meditation I was meditating and I saw this like orange thing. 120 00:15:55,000 --> 00:16:04,000 There was like this orange thing of light in my like that I was seeing and my eyes were closed, but I was seeing this orange thing. 121 00:16:04,000 --> 00:16:10,000 And it was like making a bunch of different shapes and it was like transforming into many different shapes. 122 00:16:10,000 --> 00:16:16,000 I couldn't control it, but I was just watching it and I was watching it in awe because that was awesome. 123 00:16:16,000 --> 00:16:29,000 So if I was excited about that tiny that that like orange thing that was just making different shapes like it was transforming between a like a circle and a square like different basic things. 124 00:16:29,000 --> 00:16:37,000 If I was excited for that, once I get to focus 12 and I can visualize that's that's like what I'm really looking forward to. 125 00:16:37,000 --> 00:16:42,000 And I don't think focus 12 actually happens until like wave three. 126 00:16:42,000 --> 00:16:58,000 So I bought wave one and I'm pretty sure I it's been like a couple days since I looked at the waves like all the different set like what's the topics of different seed the different CDs. 127 00:16:58,000 --> 00:17:05,000 But I'm pretty sure that focus 12 isn't till like wave three or four. 128 00:17:05,000 --> 00:17:11,000 Because I remember seeing that focus 10 was all about wave one. 129 00:17:11,000 --> 00:17:15,000 But I'm pretty sure I saw focus 10 in wave two as well. 130 00:17:15,000 --> 00:17:20,000 Maybe maybe wave two is the intro to focus 12 also. I don't know. 131 00:17:20,000 --> 00:17:26,000 But I'm even excited to get to focus 10 because that is going to be an awesome thing as well. 132 00:17:26,000 --> 00:17:34,000 Being so relaxed that like I'm just conscious and I'm just laying there. 133 00:17:34,000 --> 00:17:37,000 So that's cool. 134 00:17:37,000 --> 00:17:45,000 That's basically where I'm at with that and the headphones that I bought and the CD player I bought already came. 135 00:17:45,000 --> 00:17:51,000 So I'm basically all set up all I just all I need basically is the CD. 136 00:17:51,000 --> 00:17:53,000 That's all I need to start. 137 00:17:53,000 --> 00:18:03,000 But I have been practicing every morning and every night and I've even been practicing after the gym often because my gym. 138 00:18:03,000 --> 00:18:13,000 My gym has a it's got a balcony on top of it where you can like it's like a Sunday. 139 00:18:13,000 --> 00:18:15,000 So people go up there to tan. 140 00:18:15,000 --> 00:18:18,000 And so I just go up there and tan but also meditate. 141 00:18:18,000 --> 00:18:20,000 So I lay down and meditate. 142 00:18:20,000 --> 00:18:27,000 And I've so far I've only been able to like the best that I've done was a couple days ago. 143 00:18:27,000 --> 00:18:31,000 And I just put my right hand completely to sleep. 144 00:18:31,000 --> 00:18:33,000 That's the best I've done. 145 00:18:33,000 --> 00:18:40,000 But yesterday I was able to put just a few fingers to sleep like my pinky and my ring finger. 146 00:18:40,000 --> 00:18:42,000 I don't even know if I'm doing it right. 147 00:18:42,000 --> 00:18:49,000 All I'm doing is focusing on the visualizer. 148 00:18:49,000 --> 00:18:57,000 The exercise the technique of I'm pretty sure it's called resonant breathing but I could be wrong. 149 00:18:57,000 --> 00:19:01,000 It's basically where you lay down. 150 00:19:01,000 --> 00:19:02,000 So this is here. 151 00:19:02,000 --> 00:19:04,000 I'll just tell you everything I do. 152 00:19:04,000 --> 00:19:07,000 I lay down in an extremely comfortable position. 153 00:19:07,000 --> 00:19:12,000 Lay down on my back and then I just lay there and then close my eyes. 154 00:19:12,000 --> 00:19:15,000 Relax my body as much as possible. 155 00:19:15,000 --> 00:19:20,000 Imagine myself like imagine my body just getting so relaxed. 156 00:19:20,000 --> 00:19:24,000 And then once I can't really relax myself any further. 157 00:19:24,000 --> 00:19:32,000 I start breathing or well I've been breathing this whole time but I start breathing when I breathe in. 158 00:19:32,000 --> 00:19:39,000 I visualize or I imagine what I feel because you can actually feel it. 159 00:19:39,000 --> 00:19:43,000 I feel all of the energy flowing up my body. 160 00:19:43,000 --> 00:19:53,000 So up my feet up my hands all the way up my arms up my legs up my like abdomen up all the way through my neck up to my head and then into my brain. 161 00:19:53,000 --> 00:20:17,000 I imagine all the energy on my inhale flowing up to my brain and then I hold my breath a little bit on that inhale and then you're supposed to like run around that energy in your brain and then exhale and then imagine all the energy flowing down your body and then exiting through your feet. 162 00:20:17,000 --> 00:20:22,000 So you are like getting rid of the old energy and then you repeat. 163 00:20:22,000 --> 00:20:33,000 Inhale you imagine all that energy coming up your feet up your hands up your body up your into your brain and then that's like fresh new energy. 164 00:20:33,000 --> 00:20:38,000 And so you just repeat that constantly but I missed a part. 165 00:20:38,000 --> 00:20:45,000 And then once you exhale you imagine all that energy going down your feet out of your feet. 166 00:20:45,000 --> 00:20:56,000 But once you're at the bottom of the exhale you say two and then you repeat inhale exhale and then you say three and then four and then all the way so on so forth to ten. 167 00:20:56,000 --> 00:21:11,000 And they said if you're if you're not satisfied with your like level of depth of relaxation level of relaxation then you should like restart. 168 00:21:11,000 --> 00:21:22,000 So once you get to ten you should either start back at two or start back at five or just like start at some number and then just try and keep going back. 169 00:21:22,000 --> 00:21:33,000 And basically when you say that number so when you say to you just feel yourself getting even deeper like falling even deeper to to rest even deeper to rest. 170 00:21:33,000 --> 00:21:48,000 That's basically that's basically all I've done so far and sometimes I like to feel the energy in my hands because I can like feel that my hands are falling asleep so I kind of like to feel the energy in my hands. 171 00:21:48,000 --> 00:21:58,000 It's cool because I never knew that there was like energy flowing through us until a couple months ago and. 172 00:21:58,000 --> 00:22:06,000 And like in the beginning when I first learned about this I was like skeptical I thought I thought like oh that's not real. 173 00:22:06,000 --> 00:22:14,000 But now that I can actually feel it like I can actually feel the energy flowing and that's just an awesome feeling. 174 00:22:14,000 --> 00:22:21,000 And I have only been meditating normally with no headphones so. 175 00:22:21,000 --> 00:22:28,000 I'm just really excited to get into the Hemi sink because they're basically. 176 00:22:28,000 --> 00:22:33,000 So you can achieve all of the things that. 177 00:22:33,000 --> 00:22:47,000 Is in the gateway program without the Hemi sink but it would take like years of practice like years of Tai Chi or all the years of like different things. 178 00:22:47,000 --> 00:22:51,000 Years of meditating practice. 179 00:22:51,000 --> 00:23:00,000 But with the Hemi sink it allows you to achieve it like extremely quick like that one guy got focused 21 in eight months. 180 00:23:00,000 --> 00:23:11,000 Now that probably would have taken like at least eight years maybe even more to get normally without the help of the Hemi sink. 181 00:23:11,000 --> 00:23:18,000 So many people like people that are completely new to meditating were able to get. 182 00:23:18,000 --> 00:23:24,000 Focus 10 focus 12 like fairly easily. 183 00:23:24,000 --> 00:23:32,000 And I've been practicing like this specific thing for a few weeks non probably. 184 00:23:32,000 --> 00:23:40,000 One week maybe one or two one or two weeks but I've been meditating consistently for the past like. 185 00:23:40,000 --> 00:23:44,000 Three or four months and so. 186 00:23:44,000 --> 00:23:55,000 That is that maybe not three or four maybe like two to three but I've been meditating for like a year not consistently though. 187 00:23:55,000 --> 00:24:02,000 I'm I'm I'm not new to meditation but I am new to consciousness stuff because. 188 00:24:02,000 --> 00:24:08,000 When I'm in meditation all I all I did for since I started was. 189 00:24:08,000 --> 00:24:17,000 I basically just focused on my breath and I didn't really do any like exercises like energy stuff or consciousness expanding. 190 00:24:17,000 --> 00:24:21,000 All I did was just focus on my breath inhale exhale. 191 00:24:21,000 --> 00:24:29,000 And now I am brand new to like for the past week and a half I've been brand new to. 192 00:24:29,000 --> 00:24:34,000 Like focusing on energy while you're meditating and all that stuff but. 193 00:24:34,000 --> 00:24:39,000 It's definitely like something worth looking into because. 194 00:24:39,000 --> 00:24:49,000 I can I definitely feel it like while meditating and throughout the day I can like I can actually feel my energy right now in my hands and. 195 00:24:49,000 --> 00:25:03,000 That's another thing a lot of the people after they were trained in the gateway process their lives like we're so much better and they were like they felt way more calm they felt higher energy. 196 00:25:03,000 --> 00:25:12,000 And they actually like ended up quitting like bad habits a lot of things so. 197 00:25:12,000 --> 00:25:18,000 I'm definitely going to get I'm definitely getting into this stuff and. 198 00:25:18,000 --> 00:25:28,000 I'm but I'm not going to rush it I'm just going to enjoy the ride enjoy the experience because it truly is an awesome experience like. 199 00:25:28,000 --> 00:25:36,000 Even now with no hemisync I'm not even able to get to focus 10 and it still feels amazing. 200 00:25:36,000 --> 00:25:54,000 Let me get some water. 201 00:25:54,000 --> 00:25:58,000 Alright so. 202 00:25:58,000 --> 00:26:01,000 Let's talk about school. 203 00:26:01,000 --> 00:26:04,000 I'm in school. 204 00:26:04,000 --> 00:26:09,000 And it's a waste of time like I've always known that school is a waste of time but. 205 00:26:09,000 --> 00:26:11,000 Now especially. 206 00:26:11,000 --> 00:26:14,000 Now that I have all my purpose and. 207 00:26:14,000 --> 00:26:18,000 I'm like actually breaking free from. 208 00:26:18,000 --> 00:26:23,000 The confines of society actually let's talk about that. 209 00:26:23,000 --> 00:26:31,000 So all of our lives are mind has been shaped like everyone knows this like. 210 00:26:31,000 --> 00:26:35,000 Our minds are shaped and formed and molded into. 211 00:26:35,000 --> 00:26:39,000 Exactly what society wants it to be. 212 00:26:39,000 --> 00:26:44,000 And that limits us so if you're born in a poor. 213 00:26:44,000 --> 00:26:52,000 House your mind was shaped in a certain way if you were born in a middle class house your mind was shaped in a certain way. 214 00:26:52,000 --> 00:26:58,000 And if you were born in a rich a rich house your mind was also shaped in a certain way. 215 00:26:58,000 --> 00:27:00,000 So. 216 00:27:00,000 --> 00:27:06,000 You're all that you can be all the same person just living three different lives so let's say. 217 00:27:06,000 --> 00:27:11,000 Life like let's say it's the same exact person but let's run a simulation. 218 00:27:11,000 --> 00:27:13,000 Same exact person. 219 00:27:13,000 --> 00:27:17,000 Same year same everything. 220 00:27:17,000 --> 00:27:18,000 Same parents. 221 00:27:18,000 --> 00:27:22,000 Everything is same except. 222 00:27:22,000 --> 00:27:29,000 In situation one that person was raised in a poor household. 223 00:27:29,000 --> 00:27:43,000 Let's see what happens that that experiment that environment will condition his brain that person's brain into. 224 00:27:43,000 --> 00:27:56,000 Into just that he his perception of where he fits or his place in this world will be that of a poor person or that of lower class. 225 00:27:56,000 --> 00:28:03,000 And that is simply because that's how society condition his brain. 226 00:28:03,000 --> 00:28:07,000 So let's take that same person. 227 00:28:07,000 --> 00:28:23,000 After once he's grown up and he has been fully conditioned he's most likely going to end up poor because or lower class because he is always. 228 00:28:23,000 --> 00:28:28,000 He's going to be holding himself back he is not willing to have more expensive things. 229 00:28:28,000 --> 00:28:31,000 It's like out of his comfort zone. 230 00:28:31,000 --> 00:28:36,000 He is he doesn't know what it feels like so it's like fear of the unknown. 231 00:28:36,000 --> 00:28:47,000 And he is like holding himself back he his worldview template is that his place in the world is lower class so that's exactly what he's going to get. 232 00:28:47,000 --> 00:28:55,000 Now let's look at that same exact person and put restart his life and put him in a middle class household. 233 00:28:55,000 --> 00:29:05,000 It's the same thing except now his worldview template is going to be middle class so he's only going to allow himself to have what is middle class. 234 00:29:05,000 --> 00:29:19,000 He's going to be allowing himself to have more than a lower class person would but not as much as upper class and and then since he's only allowing himself to have this stuff. 235 00:29:19,000 --> 00:29:23,000 That's exactly what he's going to get all the middle class stuff. 236 00:29:23,000 --> 00:29:30,000 Middle class status middle class items middle class house middle class income. 237 00:29:30,000 --> 00:29:35,000 And that's exactly what his life is going to be like. 238 00:29:35,000 --> 00:29:47,000 Now let's look at that same exact person restart his life send him into a upper class house. 239 00:29:47,000 --> 00:29:54,000 So now he's grown up in an upper class house and now he thinks that his place in the world is upper class so that's exactly what he's going to get. 240 00:29:54,000 --> 00:30:01,000 He's going to have an upper class income upper class house upper class car all of that stuff. 241 00:30:01,000 --> 00:30:15,000 Now the only differences between the three are the mindset so you can take that upper class mindset and instill it into the first simulation. 242 00:30:15,000 --> 00:30:28,000 So if you were to be born in the lower class but you were instilled with an upper class mindset like upper class mental or world template worldview template. 243 00:30:28,000 --> 00:30:44,000 Well then you're going to be born in the lower class but your life is going to radically change over the course of the weeks or months or years because you're allowing yourself to have all of that luxury in that upper class income and all that stuff. 244 00:30:44,000 --> 00:30:47,000 So that's exactly what the world will give you. 245 00:30:47,000 --> 00:30:56,000 So and then also worse opposite if you have a poor worldview lower class world worldview. 246 00:30:56,000 --> 00:31:03,000 But you were born into wealth luxury higher upper class. 247 00:31:03,000 --> 00:31:14,000 Then over the following years or months or weeks your life is going to radically change to the opposite. 248 00:31:14,000 --> 00:31:21,000 It's going to it's going to you're going to lose all your stuff and then you're going to end up in lower class because that's how you that's how you see your place in the world. 249 00:31:21,000 --> 00:31:32,000 The only difference between upper class people and lower class people are their their mentalities their mindset their worldview template upper class people see that everyone. 250 00:31:32,000 --> 00:31:50,000 Everyone sees themselves exactly like everyone has a perception of where they see themselves or like where they see themselves fit in this world like what position they have in this world and the upper class people see themselves as upper class. 251 00:31:50,000 --> 00:31:53,000 So that's what they have. 252 00:31:53,000 --> 00:32:06,000 And it's basically a cause and effect your worldview template causes your material wealth or material well being. 253 00:32:06,000 --> 00:32:09,000 And that's like it just makes sense. 254 00:32:09,000 --> 00:32:15,000 Like I've been learning about all this stuff over the past couple months. 255 00:32:15,000 --> 00:32:19,000 And this is the simple of the simplest of it all of it all. 256 00:32:19,000 --> 00:32:23,000 You get exactly what you allow yourself to have. 257 00:32:23,000 --> 00:32:28,000 It just makes so much sense to me because I've been like I see it. 258 00:32:28,000 --> 00:32:38,000 I live in a lower class and I see it all around me like all the people in my town all the people like in lower in the middle. 259 00:32:38,000 --> 00:32:40,000 Wait did I say I live in lower class. 260 00:32:40,000 --> 00:32:42,000 I live in middle class. 261 00:32:42,000 --> 00:32:49,000 Everyone has a middle class worldview. 262 00:32:49,000 --> 00:32:51,000 So that's exactly what they're going to get. 263 00:32:51,000 --> 00:32:54,000 They're basically holding themselves back because I don't know why. 264 00:32:54,000 --> 00:33:04,000 Just well actually it's because they were like that's how they were socialized like they were socialized into that. 265 00:33:04,000 --> 00:33:12,000 So that is basically what like that's the biggest epiphany that I've came over. 266 00:33:12,000 --> 00:33:24,000 Well I mean I've been learning about it in reality transurfing but I'm starting to actually realize it because I can actually see it in myself. 267 00:33:24,000 --> 00:33:30,000 A lot of times I'm holding myself myself back from buying a certain thing online. 268 00:33:30,000 --> 00:33:34,000 Because I'm that's exactly where I see myself. 269 00:33:34,000 --> 00:33:39,000 I'm middle I see myself as middle class so I can't afford to buy all this stuff. 270 00:33:39,000 --> 00:33:58,000 No I should I need to be seeing myself as rich as a millionaire because I can afford all this stuff like it's all about your your worldview template first like your perception is exactly what you will receive like. 271 00:33:58,000 --> 00:34:08,000 Towards the middle like after the the second half of reality transurfing steps one through five over the past. 272 00:34:08,000 --> 00:34:11,000 All right let me explain this first. 273 00:34:11,000 --> 00:34:19,000 Recently in the past all of my recent podcast episodes I've been saying reality transurfing parts one through five. 274 00:34:19,000 --> 00:34:25,000 But I just looked at the cover today of my book and it actually says steps one through five. 275 00:34:25,000 --> 00:34:34,000 Even though it's not really steps it's parts because he is he combined like five different books so five parts. 276 00:34:34,000 --> 00:34:44,000 I don't know it's the cover the actual title is reality transurfing steps one through five by Vadom Zelen. 277 00:34:44,000 --> 00:34:50,000 And so I just wanted to clear that confusion in case there's confusion. 278 00:34:50,000 --> 00:35:03,000 But basically I like towards the second half of the book it's all about there's this one common theme and it's all about how the world is a mirror. 279 00:35:03,000 --> 00:35:19,000 So basically what that means is if you look at a normal mirror and you change yourself so let's say you take off your shirt then you can see that reflection. 280 00:35:19,000 --> 00:35:21,000 You can see yourself shirtless. 281 00:35:21,000 --> 00:35:31,000 So basically you wouldn't try to look at the mirror and try and take off the shirt of the reflection. 282 00:35:31,000 --> 00:35:39,000 You wouldn't like try and reach into the mirror and take off the reflex reflections shirt. 283 00:35:39,000 --> 00:35:40,000 Like that's ridiculous. 284 00:35:40,000 --> 00:35:50,000 If you wanted to see yourself shirtless you would just take off your own shirt of your own person like in in like you just take it off of yourself. 285 00:35:50,000 --> 00:35:54,000 You wouldn't try and take it off of the reflection in the mirror. 286 00:35:54,000 --> 00:35:58,000 But that's exactly what most people do. 287 00:35:58,000 --> 00:36:04,000 Since the world is a mirror it reflects your your relationship to it. 288 00:36:04,000 --> 00:36:15,000 So if you think that the world is out to get you then the world will reflect that just like a mirror and be out to get you. 289 00:36:15,000 --> 00:36:19,000 But what a lot of people try to do is they try to change that reflection. 290 00:36:19,000 --> 00:36:23,000 They try to change like the world. 291 00:36:23,000 --> 00:36:34,000 I don't really remember exactly the specifics of this metaphor but that's basically it. 292 00:36:34,000 --> 00:36:37,000 And I can't I don't really understand it well enough. 293 00:36:37,000 --> 00:36:43,000 I will over the following weeks once I learn reread this section of the book. 294 00:36:43,000 --> 00:36:50,000 But at this moment I don't understand that specific part of how they try to change the reflection. 295 00:36:50,000 --> 00:36:52,000 But let's move on. 296 00:36:52,000 --> 00:36:58,000 So since the world is a mirror it displays exactly your relationship to it. 297 00:36:58,000 --> 00:37:09,000 So if your worldview template is that the world does not like the life is not in abundance. 298 00:37:09,000 --> 00:37:14,000 So this is like the low class worldview template life. 299 00:37:14,000 --> 00:37:19,000 There's not very there's not an abundance of wealth. 300 00:37:19,000 --> 00:37:26,000 There is I have to fight it scares like that is basically how I perceive the world. 301 00:37:26,000 --> 00:37:31,000 And so the world will reflect that it will just reflect it or not instantly. 302 00:37:31,000 --> 00:37:42,000 So the only difference between the world is a mirror and an actual mirror is the fact that an actual mirror will reflect the image instantly. 303 00:37:42,000 --> 00:37:49,000 But the world will take a few days or a few weeks or a few months or years. 304 00:37:49,000 --> 00:37:56,000 I don't know it takes a few days to months to reflect the reflection. 305 00:37:56,000 --> 00:38:01,000 So but it will it will change and we will reflect back. 306 00:38:01,000 --> 00:38:14,000 And so since the world is a mirror if you initially had that low class attitude towards the world but then you changed your attitude towards. 307 00:38:14,000 --> 00:38:21,000 Oh there is an abundance of wealth like there is a lot of stuff available like the world is looking out for me. 308 00:38:21,000 --> 00:38:24,000 The world takes care of me the world is taking care of me. 309 00:38:24,000 --> 00:38:39,000 If you change your attitude towards it well then the world will reflect exactly that and it will it will take care of you and it will there will be an abundance of wealth in your world like in your. 310 00:38:39,000 --> 00:38:44,000 Like life line in your world layer in your layer of the world. 311 00:38:44,000 --> 00:38:54,000 So it's simply like that's all it comes down to and that's what I've noticed is noticed observing people over the past couple months. 312 00:38:54,000 --> 00:39:04,000 A lot of people like everyone who's poor holds themselves back like they're simply not allowing themselves to have more. 313 00:39:04,000 --> 00:39:09,000 And it's probably because they're not aware that they actually can have more. 314 00:39:09,000 --> 00:39:14,000 Or they're too scared and to be honest for me. 315 00:39:14,000 --> 00:39:22,000 I'm like I'm aware of the fact that I can have more and it's been a couple months and. 316 00:39:22,000 --> 00:39:36,000 To be honest I don't really have much more my life hasn't changed much so I think that deep down I'm scared I'm nervous to actually receive more so I'm not actually allowing myself to have more. 317 00:39:36,000 --> 00:39:45,000 So that's something I am conscious of moving forward and I definitely need to work towards fixing. 318 00:39:45,000 --> 00:39:59,000 And if you can't allow yourself to have don't force yourself to allow yourself to have what you have to do is take action and the way you take action is running your target slide in your in your mind. 319 00:39:59,000 --> 00:40:07,000 So visualizing your goal as if it is as if it has already been achieved. 320 00:40:07,000 --> 00:40:28,000 So if your goal is to move to Hawaii and surf visualize yourself waking up in that house leaving the house and then going to get your surfboard going out to the beach walking out to the water and surfing like to visualize your your life as it would be. 321 00:40:28,000 --> 00:40:42,000 Once the goal has already been achieved and then what you do is you live your own life as in that manner so live your life in the sense that you have already achieved that goal. 322 00:40:42,000 --> 00:40:55,000 I don't understand that specific part and how like taking action how applying living life as if you in the manner of you already achieved having already achieved it. 323 00:40:55,000 --> 00:41:01,000 I don't know specifically how that would like work out. 324 00:41:01,000 --> 00:41:07,000 But it's definitely that's like all. 325 00:41:07,000 --> 00:41:11,000 That's all that that's like the whole thing to it. 326 00:41:11,000 --> 00:41:24,000 All right so I want to talk to you guys about recently I bought a pine pollen tincture and for some context I'm 17 years old and have never drank alcohol in my life. 327 00:41:24,000 --> 00:41:34,000 And this pine pollen tincture is basically the way they extracted it is through alcohol they use alcohol to extract it. 328 00:41:34,000 --> 00:41:42,000 So the way it works is it's just like a dropper you drop it into your mouth and you drop like a few drops into your mouth. 329 00:41:42,000 --> 00:41:47,000 It's like a hundred or it's like one milliliter or something like that. 330 00:41:47,000 --> 00:41:54,000 So milliliters tiny and you do that like once or twice a day. 331 00:41:54,000 --> 00:41:58,000 So I got it and then I put it in my mouth and I got a headache. 332 00:41:58,000 --> 00:42:00,000 I was like this is weird. 333 00:42:00,000 --> 00:42:12,000 I looked at the ingredients and there's alcohol which I was aware that there was alcohol but it kind of clicked that maybe I shouldn't be taking this maybe this is actually hurting me because it has alcohol in it. 334 00:42:12,000 --> 00:42:31,000 And so I was okay and then I took it again that night and then I took it again that morning to test to see if it would actually like if it would actually if it was actually that the pine pollen and I didn't have a headache until after I took the pine pollen. 335 00:42:31,000 --> 00:42:46,000 So for context a couple like maybe a month ago a month or two ago I had the pine pollen powder and that was amazing like I that worked perfectly for me and I didn't have any issues with it. 336 00:42:46,000 --> 00:42:50,000 I actually took a lot of it and I didn't have any issues. 337 00:42:50,000 --> 00:43:02,000 But once I got the tincture the tincture then it changed and I actually did not have the same experience that I had with the powder. 338 00:43:02,000 --> 00:43:17,000 Now the tincture I definitely saw benefits from the one or two days that I was using it like my morning would was stronger but it's not worth it because I got a headache. 339 00:43:17,000 --> 00:43:28,000 And so what I did was I emailed the people I got it from and asked them like what's what's up with it like if if they have any suggestions. 340 00:43:28,000 --> 00:43:41,000 And so what I'm thinking I might do is I might depending on how they respond I might keep try it again in a couple days see if it actually was the pine pollen. 341 00:43:41,000 --> 00:43:50,000 Or or I'll just ask for a refund and then try and then buy the powder instead. 342 00:43:50,000 --> 00:43:58,000 Because that was it's I definitely like the pine pollen it definitely works 100%. 343 00:43:58,000 --> 00:44:03,000 But it's not worth it if it's giving me a headache. 344 00:44:03,000 --> 00:44:10,000 And I was looking it up actually I was researching a little bit and that a website actually said don't. 345 00:44:10,000 --> 00:44:21,000 Use it don't take the don't take the pine pollen tincture if you are a pregnant woman or you are a young child. 346 00:44:21,000 --> 00:44:29,000 So that's those are exact the exact people who shouldn't be drinking alcohol. 347 00:44:29,000 --> 00:44:39,000 So there might be I don't know I asked them like what what they think and I haven't I haven't actually checked my email back yet. 348 00:44:39,000 --> 00:44:44,000 Because I don't like to check my email until I'm done podcasting for the day. 349 00:44:44,000 --> 00:44:50,000 So I don't get distracted along the way because the podcast is like my number one task for the day. 350 00:44:50,000 --> 00:44:54,000 And I like to be 100% focused. 351 00:44:54,000 --> 00:44:56,000 I don't like to have distractions. 352 00:44:56,000 --> 00:45:08,000 But I did and I actually like to get on my PC and right away start recording like and not get distracted but today actually did get distracted. 353 00:45:08,000 --> 00:45:28,000 Like I said earlier in the episode I I was checking my Amazon account to see if the item that I like the CD the Gateway Experience Wave 1 tape the CD was shipped like I was going to see the ETA. 354 00:45:28,000 --> 00:45:47,000 But that was a distraction and then I actually went down a rabbit hole and I was looking at what I was looking at like the DHL or whatever the shipping company is. 355 00:45:47,000 --> 00:45:52,000 And I was like researching them and then I don't even know how I was researching them. 356 00:45:52,000 --> 00:45:59,000 I was like looking at where the manufacturer came from and it was some country in Europe. 357 00:45:59,000 --> 00:46:06,000 And then I was looking at like their minimum wage or not even their minimum wage like their average wage. 358 00:46:06,000 --> 00:46:11,000 And in that country the average wage is like $6000 a year. 359 00:46:11,000 --> 00:46:15,000 That's like the average income for people there. 360 00:46:15,000 --> 00:46:19,000 So that's a very little that's like no money at all. 361 00:46:19,000 --> 00:46:35,000 And then I was like looking at the DHL shipping facility in Illinois like in Franklin like that's the town it's in Franklin Illinois USA. 362 00:46:35,000 --> 00:46:40,000 And then I was looking at the like their vehicles. 363 00:46:40,000 --> 00:46:45,000 I just looked up DHL vehicles and I was looking at like their planes and stuff. 364 00:46:45,000 --> 00:46:50,000 And it was just so useless. And I was like what am I doing. 365 00:46:50,000 --> 00:46:56,000 There's absolutely no use to it. I don't even know why I was doing it. I was asleep when I was doing it. 366 00:46:56,000 --> 00:47:03,000 And that's like very bad. Like that's a danger to the internet. 367 00:47:03,000 --> 00:47:08,000 You get sucked into it and you start you look like fall asleep and then you just start going down a rabbit hole. 368 00:47:08,000 --> 00:47:12,000 That is absolutely useless. 369 00:47:12,000 --> 00:47:15,000 I feel like it's different if the rabbit hole is actually useful. 370 00:47:15,000 --> 00:47:29,000 Like after this episode I actually plan on going down a rabbit hole on the gateway experience because that is something that I'm actually going to be applying to actually move towards my goals. 371 00:47:29,000 --> 00:47:36,000 DHL like that shipping service I was not going to apply any any of that information. 372 00:47:36,000 --> 00:48:01,000 That was purely just for like entertainment and basically but the gateway process I will let me get some water. 373 00:48:01,000 --> 00:48:08,000 Alright so there is this medicine ball that I use. 374 00:48:08,000 --> 00:48:18,000 I bought a 10 pound medicine ball a little over a month ago and I've been like balancing on it. 375 00:48:18,000 --> 00:48:25,000 And it's actually very like beneficial exercise I feel because there's this I do like many different things. 376 00:48:25,000 --> 00:48:29,000 So I stand on it. I do squats. I try to do one legged balances. 377 00:48:29,000 --> 00:48:37,000 And I also one time I was like throwing passing the ball like a tennis ball back and forth to try and catch it. 378 00:48:37,000 --> 00:48:47,000 And then I was also what I walk on it so I was I spent like a couple weeks practicing walking forward on that ball. 379 00:48:47,000 --> 00:48:52,000 And then I came like I realized that you could actually walk backwards. 380 00:48:52,000 --> 00:48:57,000 So I've been spending the past couple days practicing walking backwards on it. 381 00:48:57,000 --> 00:49:05,000 And when I started just like I started anything like with the medicine ball and anything in general I sucked. 382 00:49:05,000 --> 00:49:14,000 And then now I'm actually able to walk a decent about like I'm actually able to walk like five feet backwards until I fall down. 383 00:49:14,000 --> 00:49:16,000 So that's cool. 384 00:49:16,000 --> 00:49:20,000 And it actually hits like different muscles too on your legs. 385 00:49:20,000 --> 00:49:36,000 Like I'm doing the medicine ball exercise mainly for balance but it is actually able to it's it's good for exercise for certain. 386 00:49:36,000 --> 00:49:41,000 It's good to exercise certain like parts in your legs. 387 00:49:41,000 --> 00:49:44,000 It's very good for your legs. 388 00:49:44,000 --> 00:49:51,000 There's also another exercise that I've been incorporating into my daily routine for the past like month or so. 389 00:49:51,000 --> 00:49:55,000 And it is neck bridges or neck push ups. 390 00:49:55,000 --> 00:50:02,000 I don't know what it's called but it's basically where you're lying on your back and you use your neck to like push up. 391 00:50:02,000 --> 00:50:06,000 So you push up with your neck and then go all the way to the top of your head. 392 00:50:06,000 --> 00:50:15,000 There's like a video of Mike Tyson doing it that says like do not try at home or I don't know. 393 00:50:15,000 --> 00:50:24,000 And my friend who's like 30 years old he's a bodybuilder he recommended that exercise so I did it. 394 00:50:24,000 --> 00:50:34,000 And it's definitely good like my legs have gotten so much stronger because of it because it's like I don't know what it's what it's about. 395 00:50:34,000 --> 00:50:42,000 It's like you train your spine because doing that exercise like strengthens your spine and that's huge. 396 00:50:42,000 --> 00:50:45,000 So you have like way more stability. 397 00:50:45,000 --> 00:50:52,000 And when I first started that exercise I could barely even do one like I couldn't even do one rep. 398 00:50:52,000 --> 00:50:57,000 So I had to do like static holds for a couple seconds. 399 00:50:57,000 --> 00:51:05,000 And that was like one month ago and now I can do 25 reps like this morning I just did 25 reps. 400 00:51:05,000 --> 00:51:09,000 And so that's like progress. 401 00:51:09,000 --> 00:51:10,000 That's just consistency. 402 00:51:10,000 --> 00:51:13,000 It's all there is to it. 403 00:51:13,000 --> 00:51:19,000 Also I while I'm saying that I remembered this one. 404 00:51:19,000 --> 00:51:21,000 I remember this one thing. 405 00:51:21,000 --> 00:51:38,000 So I don't remember exactly when I started meditating like when the first time I meditated but it was definitely like sophomore year maybe maybe like second semester sophomore year for me in high school. 406 00:51:38,000 --> 00:51:43,000 And right now I'm a high school senior for first semester. 407 00:51:43,000 --> 00:51:45,000 It's November or it's September. 408 00:51:45,000 --> 00:51:47,000 What am I saying? 409 00:51:47,000 --> 00:52:07,000 So I'm pretty sure I like the first time I meditated was then and like I was meditating fairly consistently after the gym like in the yoga studio at the gym after my workouts like pretty much every day in the mornings. 410 00:52:07,000 --> 00:52:18,000 And I got to the point where one time I wanted to track like I wanted to measure how good I was at meditating. 411 00:52:18,000 --> 00:52:23,000 And this was either sophomore or junior year. 412 00:52:23,000 --> 00:52:25,000 I don't remember. 413 00:52:25,000 --> 00:52:32,000 But I wanted to track and measure how good I wasn't meditating but I didn't know how. 414 00:52:32,000 --> 00:52:50,000 But then I realized oh if I set a timer for three minutes set an alarm for three minutes and then just start meditating and meditate for the whole three minutes and count the amount of times my brain like loses focus like my brain starts thinking about something else. 415 00:52:50,000 --> 00:52:55,000 Then that score will basically be how good I am at meditating. 416 00:52:55,000 --> 00:53:16,000 And I remember after this was after a couple months or so of just meditating like less than 10 minutes a day simply just sitting down focusing on my breath not even like seeing how long I've been meditating less than like 10 minutes most of the time is less than five minutes. 417 00:53:16,000 --> 00:53:29,000 And I was able to keep my focus. I only lost my focus three times. So it was basically one time per minute. 418 00:53:29,000 --> 00:53:31,000 And so that was cool. 419 00:53:31,000 --> 00:53:39,000 And then I kind of like stopped meditating after a couple months a couple months after that. 420 00:53:39,000 --> 00:53:50,000 And then I started again a few months ago. So summer going into senior year like two months ago maybe. 421 00:53:50,000 --> 00:53:55,000 And I've been meditating every single day. I actually put it in my morning routine and my nighttime routine. 422 00:53:55,000 --> 00:54:04,000 But this time instead of meditating like two minutes a day I meditate every single day for like 70 minutes total. 423 00:54:04,000 --> 00:54:12,000 So in the morning I do 30 minutes and then at night I do 40 minutes. 424 00:54:12,000 --> 00:54:27,000 And a lot of times oftentimes I actually meditate more than that like after the gym and at the park sometimes when I go so some days I meditate for like two plus hours maybe. 425 00:54:27,000 --> 00:54:35,000 And so that's a lot of difference. But I haven't done that measurement that marker in a while. 426 00:54:35,000 --> 00:54:39,000 Like the last time I did it was a couple weeks maybe like a month ago. 427 00:54:39,000 --> 00:54:46,000 During summer I did it after like maybe a month of consistent meditation. 428 00:54:46,000 --> 00:54:52,000 And I did it and I actually didn't do the as good as I did before. 429 00:54:52,000 --> 00:54:57,000 I think I did like five or six losey losses of focus. 430 00:54:57,000 --> 00:55:03,000 And so I was like whoa what. And then I kind of just like forgot about it. 431 00:55:03,000 --> 00:55:11,000 But that's something like I didn't I lost my focus more after I was more consistent. 432 00:55:11,000 --> 00:55:17,000 So I don't know what it what it was. Maybe it was just I was meditating for only a month. 433 00:55:17,000 --> 00:55:26,000 But I don't know. I think I'm definitely going to try that again tomorrow morning because I'll try it tonight and I'll try it tomorrow morning maybe. 434 00:55:26,000 --> 00:55:45,000 I'll see. Because that's a that's actually an interesting marker of tracking how well meditating you are. 435 00:55:45,000 --> 00:56:03,000 So I want to talk about my past actually when so I've been playing soccer all my life and I actually haven't played soccer since last spring for seven played for like a few months. 436 00:56:03,000 --> 00:56:08,000 And I am not planning on doing another season. I didn't sign up for the next season. 437 00:56:08,000 --> 00:56:12,000 So this is the like the first time in my life where I'm not playing soccer. 438 00:56:12,000 --> 00:56:21,000 Now it was all of high school. I didn't play soccer during the fall season because I actually never made the high school team. 439 00:56:21,000 --> 00:56:35,000 And I remember freshman year I got cut from the high school team. And then after that I was like OK I got a train because I never practiced. 440 00:56:35,000 --> 00:56:45,000 And everyone else did. So I had I pushed myself and I started training outside of normal practice. 441 00:56:45,000 --> 00:56:55,000 And I started training on my own. So I would practice like I wouldn't practice soccer but I would train like I would work on cardio. 442 00:56:55,000 --> 00:57:05,000 And then towards the end of that summer going into sophomore year my dad actually asked if I wanted to go lift like lift weights at the gym. 443 00:57:05,000 --> 00:57:14,000 And I he said it would help with soccer. And so I was like OK yeah I'll do that. 444 00:57:14,000 --> 00:57:29,000 And I did it. And I was at the point where I got to the point where I was going on my own after a few months. 445 00:57:29,000 --> 00:57:43,000 I started going to the gym on my own and I got really into it. And then sophomore year I tried out again got cut. 446 00:57:43,000 --> 00:57:52,000 And then I kept training kept training on my own. I actually started practicing soccer also because I realized at that time I was only practicing my fitness. 447 00:57:52,000 --> 00:58:04,000 But I wasn't practicing my soccer skills. So I was practicing my fitness and my soccer skills. So going into junior year I was training so much training training training. 448 00:58:04,000 --> 00:58:13,000 And then I hurt myself right before tryouts. So then I just decided not to try out. 449 00:58:13,000 --> 00:58:24,000 And like I got injured. So I like I couldn't walk for a couple weeks. And the injury was not as bad as I thought it was going to be. 450 00:58:24,000 --> 00:58:38,000 But for some reason I just didn't want to try out anymore. But I'm actually looking back on I'm very grateful because that experience taught me that I have to like put in the work. 451 00:58:38,000 --> 00:58:46,000 And it taught me to it literally introduced me into lifting weights. 452 00:58:46,000 --> 00:59:03,000 And that experience like I like to think that it got me into self improvement because it got me into all the habits like I was even doing cold showers and ice baths like I was training so much I was doing ice baths as well. 453 00:59:03,000 --> 00:59:06,000 Like almost every day. 454 00:59:06,000 --> 00:59:20,000 And so I was like doing all the self improvement habits all the physical stuff my health was getting better. And then I got I got hurt going into junior year. 455 00:59:20,000 --> 00:59:29,000 So then I just decided not to play the season. And I'm very grateful for it because I had all this extra time and I started reading. 456 00:59:29,000 --> 00:59:37,000 And that is when I marked the start of my self improvement journey because that was literally one year ago. 457 00:59:37,000 --> 00:59:45,000 Like it was I didn't start reading until September and September last year and right now in September. 458 00:59:45,000 --> 00:59:53,000 So one year ago is when I started self improvement. I was just reading reading reading and now I've gotten so I've gotten so far. 459 00:59:53,000 --> 01:00:01,000 I've just came so far and that's like honestly that growth is huge. 460 01:00:01,000 --> 01:00:05,000 Every single day gets better and better. 461 01:00:05,000 --> 01:00:11,000 To wrap things up. Don't forget to download your favorite episodes and subscribe to the Ascend Momentum show. 462 01:00:11,000 --> 01:00:27,000 But before you guys leave make sure to remember the Eagles.