87. I Failed

1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:08,960 What are we doing? What are we doing with our lives? I've been going to school my 2 00:00:08,960 --> 00:00:18,320 whole life. Why do I go to school? I'm not sure. People say so I can get a job. Why 3 00:00:18,320 --> 00:00:25,000 do I need to get a job? Is that really what I came here for? Like all of every 4 00:00:25,000 --> 00:00:34,840 single person in humanity before all the hunter-gatherers, they didn't have jobs, 5 00:00:34,840 --> 00:00:41,520 they didn't have to work in nine to five. All they had to do was survive. Like they 6 00:00:41,520 --> 00:00:47,760 didn't have a school system. They say the school system is for our own good but 7 00:00:47,760 --> 00:00:56,480 it's not. I really believe, I'm starting to believe a lot more lately, that we were 8 00:00:56,480 --> 00:01:03,560 born into this world with full of potential. We were so much more powerful. 9 00:01:03,560 --> 00:01:14,160 Like we came into this world full power and then the school system and society 10 00:01:14,160 --> 00:01:19,920 starts to whittle away at our power and slowly but surely we eventually are left 11 00:01:19,920 --> 00:01:28,880 with nothing. And so it's our job now to discover that power back. That's why I'm 12 00:01:28,880 --> 00:01:33,360 going so deep into spirituality because I'm really starting to believe that 13 00:01:33,360 --> 00:01:40,880 there's so much more. Like there's so much more to life. We are so much more. 14 00:01:40,880 --> 00:01:47,360 People, like my whole life I've been led to believe that all I'm good for is to 15 00:01:47,360 --> 00:01:52,360 work a nine to five job. Like that's all I've achieved in life. Yet I see human 16 00:01:52,360 --> 00:01:58,220 beings all around me achieving great results. Even the people we study in the 17 00:01:58,220 --> 00:02:07,080 history books achieving great results. I remember in middle school studying about 18 00:02:07,080 --> 00:02:17,120 John D. Rockefeller. Like the richest man ever. A rich man in America. We 19 00:02:17,120 --> 00:02:22,440 studied him and then it was, I don't really remember like the perspective we 20 00:02:22,440 --> 00:02:28,040 took but I just remember him. And he definitely knew his power because you 21 00:02:28,040 --> 00:02:35,200 don't just accidentally become the richest man in the world. And he's a human 22 00:02:35,200 --> 00:02:45,960 just like I am. He was able to become the richest man on the planet. He was able 23 00:02:45,960 --> 00:02:50,400 to achieve greatness. All these people around us are able to achieve 24 00:02:50,400 --> 00:02:55,560 greatness. All of these, like there's a lot of podcasters that I used to listen 25 00:02:55,560 --> 00:03:04,200 to. They have achieved greatness. They are very successful people. And 26 00:03:04,200 --> 00:03:14,360 they're humans just like I am. And it just makes me think why do I feel like I 27 00:03:14,360 --> 00:03:20,760 can achieve greatness? Well it's because of the school system. I really, all my 28 00:03:20,760 --> 00:03:27,120 life I've been against like school. I never really found the purpose of it. But I 29 00:03:27,120 --> 00:03:32,000 never really realized that it was actually bad for me and actually managing 30 00:03:32,000 --> 00:03:40,880 to destroy me. And it destroyed me, it did. And now I'm fighting back and 31 00:03:40,880 --> 00:03:50,640 regaining my humanity. And I'm regaining all of my divine essence. I'm rediscovering 32 00:03:50,640 --> 00:03:57,160 it all. That's why I'm going so deep into spirituality. I am reading seven 33 00:03:57,160 --> 00:04:04,840 books right now. And one of them called Dancing After The Music Stops is in the 34 00:04:04,840 --> 00:04:10,240 introduction of the book. He is talking a lot about, he's referring back to the 35 00:04:10,240 --> 00:04:18,000 school system and how it has, it's like the greatest, it's a terrible sin. And the 36 00:04:18,000 --> 00:04:27,960 school system basically is like a factory and it produces machines or it 37 00:04:27,960 --> 00:04:37,560 produces just components. And today at school we actually had drills. So we had 38 00:04:37,560 --> 00:04:47,960 to do a fire drill, a hard lockdown drill, a shelter-in-place drill. And during 39 00:04:47,960 --> 00:05:00,200 the fire drill I was just thinking, let's get, let's get led, let's get, what did I 40 00:05:00,200 --> 00:05:06,320 say? I said something right when the fire alarm went off and I 41 00:05:06,320 --> 00:05:10,280 noticed that everyone was going out through the same exact doors. And I was 42 00:05:10,280 --> 00:05:17,440 like, let's get led by sheep, led like sheep. Or let's all get herded by, herded 43 00:05:17,440 --> 00:05:23,440 like sheep. And then when I was going back inside the building I was saying, 44 00:05:23,440 --> 00:05:29,080 this is the most sophisticated factory. Like this is the most sophisticated 45 00:05:29,080 --> 00:05:35,320 factory on the planet, the American school system. It's a factory. It literally 46 00:05:35,320 --> 00:05:46,560 produces cogs in a machine, produces components of people. Its input is bright 47 00:05:46,560 --> 00:05:52,480 children. And then the output is so whittled down you can't even recognize 48 00:05:52,480 --> 00:06:07,200 them. I really, I have 70 days left until I'm done with school. 70 days. And there's 49 00:06:07,200 --> 00:06:10,560 a part of me where I'm thinking maybe I should just drop out right now. But then 50 00:06:10,560 --> 00:06:19,560 there's another part of me thinking that I desire the safety of, I might as well 51 00:06:19,560 --> 00:06:25,960 just finish it because that's all my parents want for me to do. And that's, and 52 00:06:25,960 --> 00:06:31,840 I want to continue working on this podcast and I fear that I may not have 53 00:06:31,840 --> 00:06:36,000 the opportunity to do all of this stuff that I'm doing right now if I drop out. 54 00:06:36,000 --> 00:06:44,440 So that's why I'm just gonna finish 70 days left. And it's actually funny 55 00:06:44,440 --> 00:06:53,800 because by the time I finish school I'll be on episode 150. Episode 150 will be 56 00:06:53,800 --> 00:07:02,080 published the day I finish school. That's assuming I stay consistent which I will. 57 00:07:02,080 --> 00:07:09,560 And it's also another thing. I've been meditating and I really feel like the 58 00:07:09,560 --> 00:07:17,040 gateway experience is one of the biggest things for me exploring my divine 59 00:07:17,040 --> 00:07:24,720 essence and exploring spirituality and my consciousness. Because it's very useful 60 00:07:24,720 --> 00:07:32,280 reading about all this stuff. But like this, like Robert Monroe said, he said, you 61 00:07:32,280 --> 00:07:37,960 don't know until you do it or something like that. You don't know 62 00:07:37,960 --> 00:07:42,520 until you know. Or I don't remember the exact quote but I just read it in the 63 00:07:42,520 --> 00:07:50,400 brochure for the Monroe Institute brochure. And I'm reading all this stuff so I 64 00:07:50,400 --> 00:07:59,120 can have better. Honestly, this is kind of a suspicion that I came across today 65 00:07:59,120 --> 00:08:06,080 while I was reading my books this morning. The gateway experience or just 66 00:08:06,080 --> 00:08:12,040 meditation, me meditating and exploring all this stuff is a way for me to actually 67 00:08:12,040 --> 00:08:19,120 be one with myself and actually learn of my inner or actually experience my inner 68 00:08:19,120 --> 00:08:28,560 power or my divine essence. And then books kind of ignite the flame and lead me 69 00:08:28,560 --> 00:08:35,200 forward and actually open up brand new perspectives. Because I read a few pages 70 00:08:35,200 --> 00:08:40,240 of all of the books so far which are Ascent on Humanity, Toofty the Priestess, 71 00:08:40,240 --> 00:08:46,120 Dancing After the Music Stops, Journey Out of the Bodies, Die Wise, Come of Age. 72 00:08:46,120 --> 00:08:58,640 And there's one more. I forgot what that last one was. It'll come to me eventually 73 00:08:58,640 --> 00:09:06,640 but I'm doing all these, I'm reading all these books and this morning I realized 74 00:09:06,640 --> 00:09:17,520 that there's so much I don't know. There's so much. I was reading the intro to a lot 75 00:09:17,520 --> 00:09:22,120 of the books and I didn't even understand any of it. And there's another thing that 76 00:09:22,120 --> 00:09:30,280 I remember from one book. I read in a book one time and the person said the 77 00:09:30,280 --> 00:09:37,720 ability to read something that you don't even understand yet is a very 78 00:09:37,720 --> 00:09:46,040 valuable skill. Because if you can read, if you just push through and read it 79 00:09:46,040 --> 00:09:49,360 even though you don't understand it, eventually you will understand it. Then 80 00:09:49,360 --> 00:09:59,480 eventually you'll be able to read it. And honestly I don't know what's with it but 81 00:09:59,480 --> 00:10:08,080 today I have low energy. I didn't feel low energy at school but once I got home 82 00:10:08,080 --> 00:10:14,560 from the gym and then I got home and I meditated. Once I actually sat down to 83 00:10:14,560 --> 00:10:25,280 meditate I was like very low energy. My meditation was not very deep and I was 84 00:10:25,280 --> 00:10:31,760 just kind of very tired. I don't know why and I still am a little tired which is 85 00:10:31,760 --> 00:10:39,640 why I'm gonna be honest. I messed up and I've been slacking. One of the most 86 00:10:39,640 --> 00:10:46,920 important or one of the biggest things that will help me move forward and become 87 00:10:46,920 --> 00:10:55,560 a higher quality pie casser is the one thing that I'm not doing and it's adding 88 00:10:55,560 --> 00:11:04,600 rest days, adding buffer days and having dedicated focus days. The one thing that I 89 00:11:04,600 --> 00:11:11,960 had to do was script out seven episodes so I can record them all this weekend 90 00:11:11,960 --> 00:11:21,360 and be prepared and set up so that I can have rest days next week and then 91 00:11:21,360 --> 00:11:30,160 script out and then start the loop of scripting and then preparing. I don't 92 00:11:30,160 --> 00:11:35,760 know why I haven't done it yet. I simply just haven't prioritized it yet because I 93 00:11:35,760 --> 00:11:41,120 definitely have the time. I could do it during my reading in the morning. 94 00:11:41,120 --> 00:11:47,480 I could do it any other time. I don't know why I've been using this as an 95 00:11:47,480 --> 00:11:56,000 excuse and I especially have to do it soon because in one month I'm going out 96 00:11:56,000 --> 00:12:01,280 of town for a whole week. I'm going on vacation so this will be the longest time 97 00:12:01,280 --> 00:12:10,640 I'll be gone from my house since I started podcasting. So I really want to have 98 00:12:10,640 --> 00:12:21,160 seven. I want to have 14 episodes scheduled by the time I leave because I 99 00:12:21,160 --> 00:12:27,560 want to have that entire week resting and not podcasting at all because in two 100 00:12:27,560 --> 00:12:32,880 books that I read 10x is used in 2x as well as create don't capture they both 101 00:12:32,880 --> 00:12:39,200 said that rest is essential and you need to actually be resting and taking up 102 00:12:39,200 --> 00:12:47,480 long breaks from your work in order to be rejuvenated and ready to go for more. 103 00:12:47,760 --> 00:12:55,040 So I need to have 14 episodes scheduled which should not be an issue 104 00:12:55,040 --> 00:13:03,400 because this I will be doing this scripting out seven episodes and then 105 00:13:03,400 --> 00:13:10,840 over the weekend probably not this weekend but next weekend or whenever I'm 106 00:13:10,840 --> 00:13:17,400 going to actually be recording out these episodes and then that will get me ahead 107 00:13:17,400 --> 00:13:25,200 of schedule so then that will get me probably about 10 no like 12 episodes 108 00:13:25,200 --> 00:13:34,800 ahead of schedule so instead of seven episodes scheduled I'll have 12 and I 109 00:13:34,800 --> 00:13:43,880 really think that like episodes like this are more common than I want them to 110 00:13:43,880 --> 00:13:48,760 be episodes where I'm low energy like on these days are the days that I should be 111 00:13:48,760 --> 00:13:54,800 taking breaks I should be taking rests but since I've set I've set myself up 112 00:13:54,800 --> 00:14:02,240 to where if I take a rest today I'm gonna have to do double tomorrow and 113 00:14:02,240 --> 00:14:08,440 that's why I need to set up this new routine or at least some routine that 114 00:14:08,440 --> 00:14:14,000 is because I feel like the biggest issue or the biggest thing holding me back 115 00:14:14,000 --> 00:14:18,280 from doing this new routine is simply the fact that I'm still in school and I 116 00:14:18,280 --> 00:14:27,920 don't have all day every day available I have I don't get home till like 12 during 117 00:14:27,920 --> 00:14:35,800 school days so that's that is something holding me back from doing this routine 118 00:14:35,800 --> 00:14:41,880 but that means that I simply just have to rework it and do a different routine 119 00:14:41,880 --> 00:14:53,360 I just have to figure out a different method or a different solution and I 120 00:14:53,360 --> 00:14:58,520 finished all of the let's talk about the Monroe Institute the Gateway experience 121 00:14:58,520 --> 00:15:06,760 I finished reading all of the packets and documents that I printed out except 122 00:15:06,760 --> 00:15:11,440 for one which is probably the most beneficial that I haven't read yet but 123 00:15:11,440 --> 00:15:16,600 I'm gonna start reading it tomorrow it's called the seven resonant colors and 124 00:15:16,600 --> 00:15:23,160 it's a hundred it's about 150 pages long so that will be a long one and I'm gonna 125 00:15:23,160 --> 00:15:28,400 start reading it tomorrow during class but there's one thing actually may this 126 00:15:28,400 --> 00:15:37,720 may actually be this may be one reason why I'm super tired for some reason it's 127 00:15:37,720 --> 00:15:46,240 because today I came to this solution for school literally just crank out the 128 00:15:46,240 --> 00:15:52,760 work right away and just crank it out extremely quickly because then if I just 129 00:15:52,760 --> 00:15:58,120 finish it quickly then I can focus on what I actually want to focus on after 130 00:15:58,120 --> 00:16:05,200 the fact after I'm done and I did that in first period my humanities class I 131 00:16:05,200 --> 00:16:09,480 just cranked out a project and that ended up taking the entire period so I 132 00:16:09,480 --> 00:16:16,600 was focused the whole period and after that and then on in third period because 133 00:16:16,600 --> 00:16:22,120 second period Jim third period I did the same thing I cranked out like three 134 00:16:22,120 --> 00:16:30,440 assignments that were due on Monday in business incubator oh and I also have 135 00:16:30,440 --> 00:16:33,680 one thing to talk about me and my friend Franklin's plan for business 136 00:16:33,680 --> 00:16:40,360 incubator but and then in fourth period I cranked out a few things in like 20 137 00:16:40,360 --> 00:16:46,520 minutes so business incubator took the whole period and then sports lit I had 138 00:16:46,520 --> 00:16:53,840 probably like 20 minutes left free so I was pretty much working all day but that 139 00:16:53,840 --> 00:17:01,680 means that tomorrow I'll probably be able to rest and just read all day tomorrow 140 00:17:01,680 --> 00:17:06,080 which reminds me I have to bring a book I'm gonna bring the seven resident 141 00:17:06,080 --> 00:17:15,440 colors book and I already have in my backpack but the thing I was gonna tell 142 00:17:15,440 --> 00:17:21,920 about business incubator so business incubator is a class that I'm taking and 143 00:17:21,920 --> 00:17:25,840 my friend Franklin's in the class as well and we're both entrepreneurs we're 144 00:17:25,840 --> 00:17:31,920 both working on our business we both have podcasts and in this class we 145 00:17:31,920 --> 00:17:43,120 basically have to build a business and yeah just build a business and we it's a 146 00:17:43,120 --> 00:17:49,640 excuse me it's a one-year long class and since we're both graduating early we're 147 00:17:49,640 --> 00:17:54,840 only there for half of a year and we talked to the teacher in the beginning 148 00:17:54,840 --> 00:17:59,320 of the year and said that we can complete the whole course in one semester 149 00:17:59,320 --> 00:18:06,000 which I regret now because I don't care about that class anymore it was just the 150 00:18:06,000 --> 00:18:11,520 novelty of the class and I actually had a suspicion of this because I had a 151 00:18:11,520 --> 00:18:16,680 similar experience last year when I got when I first started the year I would 152 00:18:16,680 --> 00:18:21,000 get super excited about all my classes and then literally after like a month or 153 00:18:21,000 --> 00:18:26,880 two I would not like it anymore and I just be like oh this sucks because it's 154 00:18:26,880 --> 00:18:30,600 just the novelty and I kind of had a suspicion of the same thing happening 155 00:18:30,600 --> 00:18:38,760 and it did for all my classes but especially business incubator because 156 00:18:38,760 --> 00:18:43,600 we're working on a business about building funnels for other people and 157 00:18:43,600 --> 00:18:48,880 neither me and or my friend are really focusing on that anymore because we were 158 00:18:48,880 --> 00:18:54,240 focusing on that in the beginning of the year a lot but now we're not and now 159 00:18:54,240 --> 00:19:04,120 we're just focused on content creation so our plan revolves around this one rule 160 00:19:04,120 --> 00:19:14,080 that mr. my teacher has the one rule is we can drop our businesses anytime we 161 00:19:14,080 --> 00:19:22,320 want with no reasoning or like we can drop our businesses anytime and start 162 00:19:22,320 --> 00:19:34,600 over we want even at the end of the year so that's a huge thing and he also said 163 00:19:34,600 --> 00:19:40,720 that that will not affect our grades so that's huge because we're probably just 164 00:19:40,720 --> 00:19:45,960 gonna stay on this business until like December right before we have to leave 165 00:19:45,960 --> 00:19:54,080 and then we'll switch or we'll drop it in like November or something or we'll 166 00:19:54,080 --> 00:20:00,880 basically just work on it all semester and then just drop it or something like 167 00:20:00,880 --> 00:20:08,600 that so that's basically I told my friend because we both literally just sit in 168 00:20:08,600 --> 00:20:13,720 the back just reading we literally just study our own things like he read he's 169 00:20:13,720 --> 00:20:25,640 into reading a lot about like research and science stuff relating to diet ADHD 170 00:20:25,640 --> 00:20:31,840 all this stuff and I'm into reading about spirituality and so we're both just 171 00:20:31,840 --> 00:20:37,160 sitting in the back just reading our own things not even working on anything 172 00:20:37,160 --> 00:20:43,280 which I noticed and so we devised that plan and we both agreed to do that 173 00:20:43,280 --> 00:21:11,080 because we're not into this business at all let me get some water so I want to 174 00:21:11,080 --> 00:21:20,480 talk about balance balance has actually helped me a lot and it's been about I 175 00:21:20,480 --> 00:21:26,200 think around two months that I've been balancing on this medicine ball every 176 00:21:26,200 --> 00:21:34,000 single day for like five to ten minutes usually seven minutes every day and it's 177 00:21:34,000 --> 00:21:40,320 actually like benefited me a lot in my lifting especially for my squat my 178 00:21:40,320 --> 00:21:45,040 squat has helped a lot and I found that I'm a lot better at ice skating which 179 00:21:45,040 --> 00:21:53,200 ice skating is actually pretty fun but also want to talk about these neck 180 00:21:53,200 --> 00:21:58,480 exercises basically a neck push-up or it's basically where you lay on your 181 00:21:58,480 --> 00:22:07,880 back and you lift up your body with your neck and so I've been doing that for 182 00:22:07,880 --> 00:22:14,800 you few months now probably and that as well has definitely helped with 183 00:22:14,800 --> 00:22:19,240 everything I was talking to my friend today I'm hiding and I was saying like 184 00:22:19,240 --> 00:22:26,600 this has helped my squat go up help all my lifts go up because it builds your 185 00:22:26,600 --> 00:22:33,840 spine and it makes your spine so much stronger but I'm just blabbering on 186 00:22:33,840 --> 00:22:38,120 right now about random things because I'm gonna be honest I like I'm just 187 00:22:38,120 --> 00:22:46,520 completely blank right now these these types of episodes are just really tough 188 00:22:46,520 --> 00:22:54,520 and I hope that if you guys are listening to this I want you guys to know 189 00:22:54,520 --> 00:23:01,840 that you will figure things out along the way that's one of my model models 190 00:23:01,840 --> 00:23:11,040 right now just figured out along the way because I'm in this situation where 191 00:23:11,040 --> 00:23:18,400 right now I'm it's evident that my podcast quality is low but then I'm also 192 00:23:18,400 --> 00:23:26,360 not doing anything about it I'm not doing a single thing about it so where does 193 00:23:26,360 --> 00:23:31,720 that put me and you know what right after this episode I'm gonna do something 194 00:23:31,720 --> 00:23:38,400 about it I'm gonna start I'm gonna I don't even know what I would do I'm I'm 195 00:23:38,400 --> 00:23:48,280 gonna start to map out a actual routine that I can use during the school year for 196 00:23:48,280 --> 00:23:52,440 the next 70 days because I have 70 days until I finish so I have to be doing 197 00:23:52,440 --> 00:24:00,040 this for 70 days and it's not gonna get any better unless I do something about 198 00:24:00,040 --> 00:24:08,200 it which I was actually talking to my dad last night about how I make a lot of 199 00:24:08,200 --> 00:24:13,360 changes I was telling him about this like I'm planning on making big changes to my 200 00:24:13,360 --> 00:24:19,680 routine of my schedule and he was he said he believes it because I've been 201 00:24:19,680 --> 00:24:24,800 making a lot of changes lately and I said yeah because big changes produce big 202 00:24:24,800 --> 00:24:34,280 results drastic changes produce drastic results and there's this yesterday I 203 00:24:34,280 --> 00:24:40,760 think I had this notion where I was kind of in this throughout myself improvement 204 00:24:40,760 --> 00:24:45,520 journey there's like these phases where I make drastic progress and then there's 205 00:24:45,520 --> 00:24:51,680 also phases where I make progress but I'm just kind of dolly going along and 206 00:24:51,680 --> 00:24:55,760 it's evident that I'm not really making too much progress because I'm not making 207 00:24:55,760 --> 00:25:02,400 drastic changes and so yesterday I realized that I was entering this new 208 00:25:02,400 --> 00:25:12,280 phase of drastic progress but now I know that I'm not unless I do this unless I 209 00:25:12,280 --> 00:25:17,560 reschedule restructure my schedule because that that's the biggest thing 210 00:25:17,560 --> 00:25:22,080 that I learned about in 10x is using 2x not necessarily the biggest thing that 211 00:25:22,080 --> 00:25:27,920 I learned about as importance but it's definitely the number one thing that I 212 00:25:27,920 --> 00:25:33,440 got out of the book at the moment of the number one thing that it will be the 213 00:25:33,440 --> 00:25:41,200 most beneficial for me to implement right now so that's that's what I got 214 00:25:41,200 --> 00:25:49,800 yeah I'm not doing it it's been like 10 days no not 10 days it's been like five 215 00:25:49,800 --> 00:25:56,240 days and I haven't done a single thing for it I've done a single thing to move 216 00:25:56,240 --> 00:25:58,760 towards it 217 00:25:58,760 --> 00:26:08,480 and I said I would I said that I would and I failed I failed at that 218 00:26:13,600 --> 00:26:20,320 let's talk about my meditation journey so I want to talk about my gateway 219 00:26:20,320 --> 00:26:28,640 experience journey because I just read the gate the Monroe Institute brochure 220 00:26:28,640 --> 00:26:38,120 and in it there was a quote from a Buddhist monk who's 93 years old who 221 00:26:38,120 --> 00:26:45,000 runs a Buddhist temple and he said that he went to the gateway voyage program 222 00:26:45,000 --> 00:26:52,680 which is basically a program where you go to the actual Monroe Institute and it's 223 00:26:52,680 --> 00:27:00,560 like a five it's like a six-day retreat where you just focus on exploring 224 00:27:00,560 --> 00:27:04,600 your consciousness it's basically where you go in and actually use the hemisync 225 00:27:04,600 --> 00:27:14,080 and meditate and you can make a lot of progress and so he went there and he said 226 00:27:14,080 --> 00:27:21,360 that people make more progress in one year using the gateway tapes than they 227 00:27:21,360 --> 00:27:29,480 do in erno in one in one week he said people make more progress in one week 228 00:27:29,480 --> 00:27:36,720 using the gateway tapes than he did for years sitting they literally just sitting 229 00:27:36,720 --> 00:27:45,600 and meditating so basically they I'm really grateful that I've experienced I'm 230 00:27:45,600 --> 00:27:53,640 like born in this part of time because I would have had to if I was getting into 231 00:27:53,640 --> 00:27:57,520 this stuff I would have had to invested years to get to this point 232 00:27:57,520 --> 00:28:07,480 literally years because I've only spent one one month doing the gateway tapes and 233 00:28:07,480 --> 00:28:14,120 I'm almost I believe that I've achieved focus 12 but it's not very strong I'm 234 00:28:14,120 --> 00:28:19,240 definitely at focus 10 like I can get focused 10 very easily now and I actually 235 00:28:19,240 --> 00:28:24,160 can get it without the tapes I haven't actually tried it but I know that I can 236 00:28:24,160 --> 00:28:30,640 because I've tried like just putting my hands to sleep in just normal waking 237 00:28:30,640 --> 00:28:37,560 reality and I'm able to do it like I'm able to put my hands like have them 238 00:28:37,560 --> 00:28:42,040 relaxed deeply when I'm just like even right now I can do it I'm doing it right 239 00:28:42,040 --> 00:28:53,000 now with my hands and I haven't really gotten any like benefit or not 240 00:28:53,000 --> 00:28:59,360 necessarily benefit but I haven't gotten any cool experiences yet but I've 241 00:28:59,360 --> 00:29:06,480 literally only been doing it for the visualization piece I haven't honestly I 242 00:29:06,480 --> 00:29:12,560 don't even know how to experience it yet and that's that's why I added it into 243 00:29:12,560 --> 00:29:21,720 my affirmation I do not hold any expectations for what will or should 244 00:29:21,720 --> 00:29:27,360 happen during these meditations and during today's meditation right before 245 00:29:27,360 --> 00:29:34,360 this episode I actually spent probably like three minutes trying to say that 246 00:29:34,360 --> 00:29:42,120 one phrase because my mind was so like it was so tired like I did all the 247 00:29:42,120 --> 00:29:45,840 preparatory process just fine and then once I got to the affirmation I 248 00:29:45,840 --> 00:29:53,760 literally just repeated I couldn't figure out how to say that that I do not 249 00:29:53,760 --> 00:29:58,800 hold any expectations for what will or should happen to these during these 250 00:29:58,800 --> 00:30:03,400 meditations I could not figure out how to say that and that's probably evident 251 00:30:03,400 --> 00:30:12,160 with my the quality of this episode right now which is another thing I know 252 00:30:12,160 --> 00:30:18,840 that people don't succeed on content creation if they just post just the post 253 00:30:18,840 --> 00:30:23,600 or if they just go through the motions and it's evident that right now I'm just 254 00:30:23,600 --> 00:30:29,280 going through the motions because this like I'm obviously need a rest I 255 00:30:29,280 --> 00:30:36,520 obviously need a break and I'm obviously not like ready to record today I'm 256 00:30:36,520 --> 00:30:42,120 obviously not like up to full capacity yet I'm just going through the motions 257 00:30:42,120 --> 00:30:47,760 getting the hour done like getting it off my checklist when in reality this is 258 00:30:47,760 --> 00:30:52,400 my entire business right now like this is the foundation to everything that I 259 00:30:52,400 --> 00:30:57,600 will like this is the entire foundation to my financial future so I need to start 260 00:30:57,600 --> 00:31:04,880 treating it like it and actually actually take rest days and improve my 261 00:31:04,880 --> 00:31:09,200 quality and actually learn how to get better at podcasting because right now 262 00:31:09,200 --> 00:31:14,880 I'm just hoping that my quality improves over time over repetitions when in 263 00:31:14,880 --> 00:31:25,840 reality it's repetitions under a new perspective after a new perspective so 264 00:31:25,840 --> 00:31:32,800 this is why athletes who watch a game film level up so much quicker than 265 00:31:32,800 --> 00:31:36,360 athletes who don't because they have this new perspective they can see 266 00:31:36,360 --> 00:31:45,560 themselves after the fact and in create don't capture he actually talked about he 267 00:31:45,560 --> 00:31:54,960 actually said that you should rewatch your videos or your content one week 268 00:31:54,960 --> 00:32:00,800 after the fact and rewatch it to see where you can improve upon and what 269 00:32:00,800 --> 00:32:05,760 you're doing wrong what you're doing good and just fix things because that 270 00:32:05,760 --> 00:32:17,800 yes quantity high rap like a lot of hours can help you get better but 271 00:32:17,800 --> 00:32:23,640 eventually you'll stagnant but it's the high quality hours where you're 272 00:32:23,640 --> 00:32:30,480 reviewing your footage in my case I'm re-listing to my videos and then I'm 273 00:32:30,480 --> 00:32:36,480 fixing those things because I remember over the the course of this like channel 274 00:32:36,480 --> 00:32:43,040 I there was a few times where I would actually just listen to a few seconds of 275 00:32:43,040 --> 00:32:50,160 the show and I realized that there's some things that I needed to tweak for 276 00:32:50,160 --> 00:32:55,800 example there was one time where I noticed that I kept on breathing really 277 00:32:55,800 --> 00:33:01,920 loudly and then I focused on fixing that the next episode but then I forgot 278 00:33:01,920 --> 00:33:07,360 about it and I didn't like reinforce that at all so I think that my breathing 279 00:33:07,360 --> 00:33:14,600 may still be a thing a still be an issue but that's another thing I feel that my 280 00:33:14,600 --> 00:33:20,760 episode quality is going down and it's affecting my entire channel because I 281 00:33:20,760 --> 00:33:25,200 just checked my analytics right before this episode which I shouldn't have 282 00:33:25,200 --> 00:33:31,720 because that's just dumb to check analytics right before you record in my 283 00:33:31,720 --> 00:33:41,560 opinion but I did it and instead of my normal six rolling average subscribers 284 00:33:41,560 --> 00:33:49,880 I only have five now like I lost a viewer so I lost like one sixth of my 285 00:33:49,880 --> 00:33:58,080 entire viewer base my entire audience I lost and it's because once I got home 286 00:33:58,080 --> 00:34:02,720 from funnel hacking live my episode qualities were very poor and I remember 287 00:34:02,720 --> 00:34:07,480 talking about that and then once I uploaded like episode 85 was pretty 288 00:34:07,480 --> 00:34:17,160 decent but then like this one is not good I don't think so people want high 289 00:34:17,160 --> 00:34:23,080 quality content and that's another thing I'm doing like a bunch of TikToks I'm 290 00:34:23,080 --> 00:34:28,200 recording three shorts every day and posting three shorts every day yet I'm 291 00:34:28,200 --> 00:34:34,520 not growing my podcast because one I probably haven't even had enough time to 292 00:34:34,520 --> 00:34:42,680 grow an audience on my shorts but another reason is their low quality so 293 00:34:42,680 --> 00:34:49,760 this is showing me that I'm not investing enough time I don't have the issue of 294 00:34:49,760 --> 00:34:55,600 time just shows your priorities because right now I have no time in my day my 295 00:34:55,600 --> 00:35:00,440 entire schedule is packed so I don't have enough time to just sit and do 296 00:35:00,440 --> 00:35:07,680 nothing and think because I'm just always doing something I'm go go go and that 297 00:35:07,680 --> 00:35:14,520 shows my priorities and one blaringly obvious thing that I could get rid of 298 00:35:14,520 --> 00:35:21,720 is school which it'll be gone in 70 days so that'll free up half of my day but 299 00:35:21,720 --> 00:35:26,280 then there's another like that that will free up like four and a half hours in my 300 00:35:26,280 --> 00:35:40,240 day but then there's other things like I don't even know because all of all the 301 00:35:40,240 --> 00:35:45,320 things in my day let me just let me just tell you my entire daily routine so in 302 00:35:45,320 --> 00:35:51,440 the morning I wake up I'm not gonna say like everything that I do in detail but 303 00:35:51,440 --> 00:35:55,440 I'll just say like the important big thing so in the morning I wake up shower 304 00:35:55,440 --> 00:36:03,440 going to walk around the block which is around like seven minutes and I do I 305 00:36:03,440 --> 00:36:07,520 wake about 4 a.m. so then I would shower and then go on a walk around the block 306 00:36:07,520 --> 00:36:15,680 around like 4 4 30 and I do my breathing exercises during that to 307 00:36:15,680 --> 00:36:19,960 increase my bolt score to make my breathing more effective on the walk 308 00:36:19,960 --> 00:36:27,320 and then I cook and then I meditate for like 35 minutes depending on how long 309 00:36:27,320 --> 00:36:35,020 the tape is it's 30 to 45 minutes and then I balance on my medicine ball for 310 00:36:35,020 --> 00:36:44,840 seven minutes and then I eat and then I read for from like six until 7 20 when I 311 00:36:44,840 --> 00:36:54,200 leave for school then I go to school all day until like 12 and then I go to the 312 00:36:54,200 --> 00:37:01,080 gym on days that it's my gym day and then I come home and cook eat and then I 313 00:37:01,080 --> 00:37:06,920 meditate and then I podcast and I record three TikToks right after the podcast 314 00:37:06,920 --> 00:37:13,160 and then while I'm doing all that I edit like use the software to automatically 315 00:37:13,160 --> 00:37:20,400 edit as well as post all of it and then I do my nighttime routine which is just 316 00:37:20,400 --> 00:37:31,680 brush my teeth all that stuff journal ice my balls and then I meditate and then 317 00:37:31,680 --> 00:37:36,960 go to bed that's my entire day and it takes up the entire day but on the 318 00:37:36,960 --> 00:37:44,240 weekends I do the same thing in the morning but instead of read from 6 to 319 00:37:44,240 --> 00:37:52,760 7 20 I read from 6 until 8 and then I take a nap from 8 until like 8 30 usually 320 00:37:52,760 --> 00:37:59,640 I take a 26 minute nap but lately I've actually been taking a like a 26 minute 321 00:37:59,640 --> 00:38:04,680 nap or a 30 minute nap and then turning off the alarm and then like taking 322 00:38:04,680 --> 00:38:12,600 another nap kind of just laying there without like an alarm on and then after 323 00:38:12,600 --> 00:38:19,160 like 10 15 minutes of that I just lay and stare at the wall and just think and 324 00:38:19,160 --> 00:38:26,320 that's actually extremely good for you and then and then once I'm done with that 325 00:38:26,320 --> 00:38:36,280 staring at the wall I read again and then around 10 or 11 I cook and eat and 326 00:38:36,280 --> 00:38:41,880 then I go to the gym if it's my gym day and then I do the same thing like I come 327 00:38:41,880 --> 00:38:46,760 home from the gym and then record or meditate and then record and then like 328 00:38:46,760 --> 00:38:52,040 my night to routine and so on the weekends is when I actually have a lot 329 00:38:52,040 --> 00:38:58,240 of time but I use a lot of that time to read which is a good investment I really 330 00:38:58,240 --> 00:39:04,160 think that reading is very like impactful for my future as well as 331 00:39:04,160 --> 00:39:10,960 everything like as well as just me growing and improving and getting better 332 00:39:10,960 --> 00:39:19,160 at my show or my content creation but on the weekends like since I don't have 333 00:39:19,160 --> 00:39:26,000 any time like my ideal schedule right now is on Monday through Friday or Monday 334 00:39:26,000 --> 00:39:33,560 through Friday I do all my normal morning routine but no school and then at 335 00:39:33,560 --> 00:39:43,400 after my sleep and after my staring at the wall I just right away get down to 336 00:39:43,400 --> 00:39:51,640 script out like seven episodes over the course of the five days or so and then 337 00:39:51,640 --> 00:39:59,840 once I do that on Monday through Friday I just follow the same routine except 338 00:39:59,840 --> 00:40:08,920 don't podcast or record shorts and then on Saturday and Sunday I don't read as 339 00:40:08,920 --> 00:40:17,320 much I just read from six until like 7 30 or six until eight and then I take a 340 00:40:17,320 --> 00:40:25,240 nap and then I meditate and then I start recording like four episodes on 341 00:40:25,240 --> 00:40:30,160 Saturday and three episodes on Sunday as well as the tiktoks the common to 342 00:40:30,160 --> 00:40:37,800 accommodate them like that's my ideal and that's probably as of now and I 343 00:40:37,800 --> 00:40:42,240 definitely know that it'll change because 70 days is a long time especially 344 00:40:42,240 --> 00:40:46,000 if you're on a self-improvement you can grow so much on 70 days and you'll have 345 00:40:46,000 --> 00:40:49,440 a brand new perspective so I'll probably come up with an even more optimal 346 00:40:49,440 --> 00:40:57,880 routine to do once I graduate but like right now that's my plan and so I 347 00:40:57,880 --> 00:41:01,360 created this whole plan for something that I can't even take care I think 348 00:41:01,360 --> 00:41:05,880 that's actually my flaw I created this whole plan for something that I can't 349 00:41:05,880 --> 00:41:10,800 even take action on right now I can't even take action on until two months 350 00:41:10,800 --> 00:41:18,800 past 70 whole days like that's a lot of that's a long time so I need to create 351 00:41:18,800 --> 00:41:22,600 this plan that's actionable right now so that's what I'm gonna do after this 352 00:41:22,600 --> 00:41:30,040 episode I'm gonna finish all my leg net stuff and then go upstairs and literally 353 00:41:30,040 --> 00:41:35,600 just actually no I'm gonna do it right here while this episode is updating or 354 00:41:35,600 --> 00:41:39,800 downloading I'm gonna write it down in this notebook and I'm just gonna brainstorm 355 00:41:39,800 --> 00:41:45,800 I'm gonna this is what I did while I was reading the okay wait I actually have 356 00:41:45,800 --> 00:41:50,160 two plans I have to create my five pillars because that's gonna be extremely 357 00:41:50,160 --> 00:41:56,360 important for me promoting or not promoting but me creating content and 358 00:41:56,360 --> 00:42:00,440 re-scripting out all the content because your five pillars are basically the five 359 00:42:00,440 --> 00:42:05,120 things that you talk about on your show and they could be different things so in 360 00:42:05,120 --> 00:42:10,560 I learned about this originally in Russell's books expert secrets I think it 361 00:42:10,560 --> 00:42:17,680 was or traffic secrets I don't remember but I learned about that it's basically 362 00:42:17,680 --> 00:42:23,880 the five like ideas or concepts that you talk about on your show and then you 363 00:42:23,880 --> 00:42:28,080 kind of cycle through them all and so what I was thinking is self-improvement 364 00:42:28,080 --> 00:42:35,320 spirituality and then I don't even know what else to say because that's like 365 00:42:35,320 --> 00:42:40,520 really what I'm only talking about right now I'll figure it out after this 366 00:42:40,520 --> 00:42:48,520 episode and then I also had to figure out what I did to like map out my the 367 00:42:48,520 --> 00:42:54,920 optimal plan for after I graduate the five days of rest and then two days to 368 00:42:54,920 --> 00:43:01,240 record seven episodes I literally just wrote a box like I drew three boxes on 369 00:43:01,240 --> 00:43:09,680 the page one was R which is rest one is B which is buffer and then one was F 370 00:43:09,680 --> 00:43:18,400 which is focus so I drew three squares with R B F inside of each of them and 371 00:43:18,400 --> 00:43:27,040 then that was like the key and then I literally just drew like I wrote letters 372 00:43:27,040 --> 00:43:33,640 M T W Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday Friday Saturday Sunday and then I kind of 373 00:43:33,640 --> 00:43:41,640 just like kept on placing the different boxes to see like what see like the best 374 00:43:41,640 --> 00:43:46,560 kind of like experiment with the different types of schedules and I kind 375 00:43:46,560 --> 00:43:53,760 of just figured out over just experimentation by drawing out different 376 00:43:53,760 --> 00:43:58,640 schedules and then I stopped once I found the most optimal schedule when I'm 377 00:43:58,640 --> 00:44:04,960 not in school but since I'm still in school I have to I think what I'm going 378 00:44:04,960 --> 00:44:11,280 to do instead is map out all of the time available that I have so pretty much on 379 00:44:11,280 --> 00:44:18,200 days where I'm not in school I'm three days on in the gym two days off so I'll 380 00:44:18,200 --> 00:44:28,760 map out that I have like probably from 315 until 445 so I have like an hour and 381 00:44:28,760 --> 00:44:38,760 a half on days where I go to the gym available and then I have probably about 382 00:44:38,760 --> 00:44:48,480 two like three hours or four I think like three or four hours on days where I'm 383 00:44:48,480 --> 00:44:56,160 not at the gym so I'm actually going to map out all of the time free time that 384 00:44:56,160 --> 00:45:04,200 I have over the course of like the week I'm just gonna say like since Monday is 385 00:45:04,200 --> 00:45:10,360 always a different day like since I go three days on two days off it cycles so 386 00:45:10,360 --> 00:45:14,200 I don't always have a rest day on Monday like some days it's rest day and 387 00:45:14,200 --> 00:45:19,880 some days is the gym day so I'm gonna I'll figure out the schedule from there 388 00:45:19,880 --> 00:45:23,640 maybe I'll create a five-day schedule instead of a seven-day schedule and then 389 00:45:23,640 --> 00:45:29,240 just cycle through from there that's actually good I've never really done 390 00:45:29,240 --> 00:45:38,000 something like this before like create a creative schedule I kind of just figure 391 00:45:38,000 --> 00:45:44,320 out my routines in my in my mind and then just add things over time but this is 392 00:45:44,320 --> 00:45:49,480 actually a good idea to create a five-day schedule of gym like three gym 393 00:45:49,480 --> 00:45:55,760 days and then two rest days and then just repeat and then like my schedule will 394 00:45:55,760 --> 00:46:01,640 be based around the gym since that's like the kind of non-negotiables even 395 00:46:01,640 --> 00:46:07,160 though I should I should just drop the gym I should just lower my gym time I 396 00:46:07,160 --> 00:46:13,000 should just go to the gym just to maintain but I don't want to do that 397 00:46:13,000 --> 00:46:18,680 because that's my only exercise that I get and over summer I actually was in 398 00:46:18,680 --> 00:46:24,680 very good condition I was in good fitness level because we were me and my 399 00:46:24,680 --> 00:46:28,360 friend were sprinting at the park every day we would always just do sprints and 400 00:46:28,360 --> 00:46:35,200 so I was like in really good shape over summer and then since school started we 401 00:46:35,200 --> 00:46:39,320 didn't have time to do it anymore so we stopped or at least I stopped 402 00:46:39,320 --> 00:46:46,640 exercising my cardio and I can definitely feel the difference cardio as 403 00:46:46,640 --> 00:46:53,040 well as grounding so that's that's also why during my slide in my visualization 404 00:46:53,040 --> 00:47:01,400 I visualize myself doing like my day-to-day stuff like I visualize myself 405 00:47:01,400 --> 00:47:07,640 doing sprints lifting doing like swimming in the ocean like all of these 406 00:47:07,640 --> 00:47:14,760 taking cold ice baths all these things in in Hawaii where my goal takes place my 407 00:47:14,760 --> 00:47:20,840 slide takes place and so I take my kind of that's part of my slide as well as 408 00:47:20,840 --> 00:47:24,560 meditating on the beach which is probably one of the things I'm looking 409 00:47:24,560 --> 00:47:31,520 most forward to meditating naked on the beach my own private beach where no one 410 00:47:31,520 --> 00:47:39,800 else has access to that's a cool cool experience that I want to have every day 411 00:47:39,800 --> 00:47:47,200 multiple times a day but that's like I know that how like fitness is so 412 00:47:47,200 --> 00:47:53,440 important especially for this like especially for content creation because 413 00:47:53,440 --> 00:47:58,840 that's why rest days are so valuable and that's why maybe I'll even add in on my 414 00:47:58,840 --> 00:48:07,280 rest days like cardio or something to add in on my rest days for creating content 415 00:48:07,280 --> 00:48:12,880 if I have free time maybe I'll just go for a run or something like that because 416 00:48:12,880 --> 00:48:17,800 that's another thing one of my friends texted me like on Sunday and today is 417 00:48:17,800 --> 00:48:24,760 Thursday so my friend texted me like five days ago and I didn't see it until 418 00:48:24,760 --> 00:48:29,480 last night because I simply just hadn't have enough time to check my phone like 419 00:48:29,480 --> 00:48:34,800 imagine that you don't have enough time to even check your phone I was I used to 420 00:48:34,800 --> 00:48:39,200 check my phone like hundreds of times a day and be on my phone for hours every 421 00:48:39,200 --> 00:48:44,160 day but I I wasn't even I didn't even open actually I did that's a lie because I 422 00:48:44,160 --> 00:48:49,520 opened my phone every day to record videos but I didn't like check any texts 423 00:48:49,520 --> 00:48:54,720 or anything because the way my phone is set up is I don't have any notifications 424 00:48:54,720 --> 00:48:59,720 on I do not serve on at all times airplane mode powered off and on my 425 00:48:59,720 --> 00:49:05,600 home screen there's nothing there's no apps I have to search manually and so I 426 00:49:05,600 --> 00:49:13,040 don't see like any notifications that I get so I simply just don't check and I 427 00:49:13,040 --> 00:49:19,880 got like I had a few texts yesterday when I checked my phone like I don't even 428 00:49:19,880 --> 00:49:22,800 have enough time to check my phone which is a good thing like it's a good thing 429 00:49:22,800 --> 00:49:27,160 not to check your phone but I don't have enough time to just sit and stare 430 00:49:27,160 --> 00:49:34,320 blankly or take naps when naps are extremely valuable because on the 431 00:49:34,320 --> 00:49:40,920 weekends I was every single okay so since I am a part-time student every day 432 00:49:40,920 --> 00:49:46,960 kind of feels like a mini weekend because I get home at 12 and then I 433 00:49:46,960 --> 00:49:55,880 basically have like 20 plus hours until the next no probably not 20 hours 434 00:49:55,880 --> 00:50:01,680 actually yeah 20 hours until then until I have to go to school again when before 435 00:50:01,680 --> 00:50:08,560 it was probably like 15 hours or 12 hours or something like that no it was 436 00:50:08,560 --> 00:50:16,560 it was more like 15 or 16 I don't even it it doesn't matter but I was like I 437 00:50:16,560 --> 00:50:24,520 used to or right now I have all day like the entire afternoon like by the time 438 00:50:24,520 --> 00:50:31,120 I'm done meditating after having gone to the gym after cooking after eating 439 00:50:31,120 --> 00:50:38,360 after meditating school is still in session 440 00:50:40,520 --> 00:50:45,960 and so it kind of feels like every single day I definitely have a long 441 00:50:45,960 --> 00:50:51,160 break from school but on the weekends it's even longer because I get home for 442 00:50:51,160 --> 00:50:58,960 on Friday around 12 around 12 yeah around 12 and then I don't have to go to 443 00:50:58,960 --> 00:51:07,840 school until Monday until I literally have like two and a half days and I was 444 00:51:07,840 --> 00:51:12,360 talking I was actually telling my mom that I get so much progress like I 445 00:51:12,360 --> 00:51:19,480 gained so much progress and I get so much time my weekend is so optimal because 446 00:51:19,480 --> 00:51:29,560 I'm that's another thing I was lately in my classes so in business incubator like 447 00:51:29,560 --> 00:51:35,680 I said earlier in this episode I like cranked out all of my work but I was 448 00:51:35,680 --> 00:51:39,040 sitting next to my friend and he was still just focusing on his stuff like 449 00:51:39,040 --> 00:51:46,000 his personal work and he still had like all of his school work to do and I 450 00:51:46,000 --> 00:51:50,880 decided to crank it out because I didn't want to have to do it at home and let me 451 00:51:50,880 --> 00:51:57,120 tell you why at school you're kind of like default is not focused like there's 452 00:51:57,120 --> 00:52:06,160 like this lingering element in the air that reduces your focus and it kind of 453 00:52:06,160 --> 00:52:11,320 like it's like the it's like the most sophisticated factory that I was telling 454 00:52:11,320 --> 00:52:18,680 you about it just being in that building destroys like everything like it just 455 00:52:18,680 --> 00:52:22,600 being in that building slowly tears you apart even if you're not necessarily 456 00:52:22,600 --> 00:52:28,600 doing anything related to school so that's why I choose to do my schoolwork 457 00:52:28,600 --> 00:52:35,080 at school instead of at home because at home is a time where I can truly focus 458 00:52:35,080 --> 00:52:39,440 on my own stuff and I don't have that like baseline biting at me all the time 459 00:52:39,440 --> 00:52:44,360 it's a it's a hard concept to explain but I'm sure people in a similar 460 00:52:44,360 --> 00:52:49,280 situation to I am where they're extremely they're way more aware of their 461 00:52:49,280 --> 00:52:55,760 bodies and where the more aware of like the their focus and all that stuff I'm 462 00:52:55,760 --> 00:53:01,760 sure that they can like I'm sure you guys are able to tell or at least 463 00:53:01,760 --> 00:53:06,720 understand what I'm saying about school so that's why I focus on doing my work 464 00:53:06,720 --> 00:53:15,840 at school because I know that like my parents only want me to have to have no 465 00:53:15,840 --> 00:53:20,360 missing assignments and have good grades and if I have missing assignments then 466 00:53:20,360 --> 00:53:24,520 that's when I have to do it at home and I don't want to waste my time at home 467 00:53:24,520 --> 00:53:29,560 when I could use the time at school that's another reason why I hate homework 468 00:53:29,560 --> 00:53:35,160 like I always say I don't do homework because it's a waste of time why waste 469 00:53:35,160 --> 00:53:41,800 your time at home doing schoolwork when you could like home your baseline focus 470 00:53:41,800 --> 00:53:47,160 level is normal it's like neutral but then at school it like eats away at your 471 00:53:47,160 --> 00:53:52,800 focus just being there so you might as well do the waste of time work like 472 00:53:52,800 --> 00:53:58,400 schoolwork and homework at school when you are wasting when you're already 473 00:53:58,400 --> 00:54:06,080 wasting away so that's why if I had the option of doing the schoolwork or slacking 474 00:54:06,080 --> 00:54:10,640 off with the schoolwork and doing my home like my own reading I would prefer 475 00:54:10,640 --> 00:54:14,320 to do the schoolwork because I know that in the future I have to do that school 476 00:54:14,320 --> 00:54:20,440 work anyway and it would end up being at home or I could just read at home and 477 00:54:20,440 --> 00:54:26,080 actually have the focus that it requires and actually be able to focus a lot more 478 00:54:26,080 --> 00:54:33,280 on the stuff that's actually important to me and that's that's like kind of my 479 00:54:33,280 --> 00:54:40,320 take on schoolwork and I'm all caught up so tomorrow I think that I'll be able to 480 00:54:40,320 --> 00:54:44,800 do absolutely nothing although or I'll be able to actually read my own stuff 481 00:54:44,800 --> 00:54:51,080 which if I have no schoolwork to do I'm fine reading my own stuff even though my 482 00:54:51,080 --> 00:54:57,680 focus level is not gonna be as high that's okay I want to talk about for want 483 00:54:57,680 --> 00:55:03,800 to talk about staying awake I realize that I have to be even more relentless 484 00:55:03,800 --> 00:55:08,760 because over summer yes I was relentless with being awake and by the way 485 00:55:08,760 --> 00:55:14,000 being awake is when you're when you're controlling your attention and it is 486 00:55:14,000 --> 00:55:25,040 kind of your attention is like lying in between outer and the inner screen so 487 00:55:25,040 --> 00:55:30,160 your outer screen is anything going on outside so if you're watching the video 488 00:55:30,160 --> 00:55:35,480 the outer screen would be the video and then inner screen is anything going on 489 00:55:35,480 --> 00:55:45,320 inside your head and actually the outer screen this podcast like the audio would 490 00:55:45,320 --> 00:55:49,280 also be considered outer screen I believe but inner screen is anything 491 00:55:49,280 --> 00:55:52,720 that's going on inside your head so whenever you're deep in thought you're 492 00:55:52,720 --> 00:55:58,040 in the inner screen and when you're deep into one or the other you're asleep 493 00:55:58,040 --> 00:56:04,120 but you're awake when you focus you control your attention like in between 494 00:56:04,120 --> 00:56:09,240 the two when you're focused on both the inner and the outer screen and so that's 495 00:56:09,240 --> 00:56:13,320 what I learned in 250 the priestess a book by Vadim Zelen about transurfing 496 00:56:13,320 --> 00:56:21,240 and in that book literally the first couple chapters he just points out that 497 00:56:21,240 --> 00:56:27,480 you need to be awake like he said that you need to be awake one at least you 498 00:56:27,480 --> 00:56:31,600 you need to wake up for one whole hour and that was just like a small number 499 00:56:31,600 --> 00:56:35,120 that he threw out there and I've never even achieved one hour straight of 500 00:56:35,120 --> 00:56:43,760 being awake I don't think and so I like this morning on my bike ride I decided 501 00:56:43,760 --> 00:56:47,400 that I was gonna be awake and I was gonna be relentless again at staying awake 502 00:56:47,400 --> 00:56:53,080 so that's what I did on my bike ride I kept on reminding myself to wake up now 503 00:56:53,080 --> 00:56:58,920 I was falling asleep a lot but I was I was I have the habit now of calling 504 00:56:58,920 --> 00:57:04,200 myself to wake up a lot more now so I would like wake up and then I'd say 505 00:57:04,200 --> 00:57:08,320 awake for a few seconds and then I fall asleep and then a few moments later I'd 506 00:57:08,320 --> 00:57:15,120 wake up again and then like the cycle would repeat but then I found that just 507 00:57:15,120 --> 00:57:21,120 like how at school your focus level is kind of eaten away at your like 508 00:57:21,120 --> 00:57:26,040 concentrate your control of your concentrations are also eaten away and I 509 00:57:26,040 --> 00:57:32,400 can't explain it but when I'm at school I'm not awake that often like it's I'm 510 00:57:32,400 --> 00:57:38,280 not awake too often at school it's just the environment that produces the 511 00:57:38,280 --> 00:57:43,560 negative focus level as well as loss of attention loss of control over your 512 00:57:43,560 --> 00:57:48,160 attention and that's another thing your time is your like I've always heard your 513 00:57:48,160 --> 00:57:53,240 time is the most valuable resource when I was learning about financial freedom 514 00:57:53,240 --> 00:57:59,200 I'm like unscripted people trade away their time for money when in reality time 515 00:57:59,200 --> 00:58:05,960 is way more valuable than money but it's actually the most valuable resource is 516 00:58:05,960 --> 00:58:13,120 your attention and so yes people have a lot of time but they don't have a lot 517 00:58:13,120 --> 00:58:18,400 of attention because they're not controlling their attention so there's 518 00:58:18,400 --> 00:58:25,040 like time when you're asleep you have a lot no control of your attention so 519 00:58:25,040 --> 00:58:28,920 you're just you have no attention like you're wasting your attention so that 520 00:58:28,920 --> 00:58:35,080 time is wasted it's useless but it's not until you actually take control of your 521 00:58:35,080 --> 00:58:40,760 attention then you start having like optimal time and that's when your time 522 00:58:40,760 --> 00:58:48,520 is actually like valuable so the time like control of your attention is the 523 00:58:48,520 --> 00:58:57,200 most important thing in maybe in life I don't know that you when you he was 524 00:58:57,200 --> 00:59:00,680 saying when you don't have control over your attention you don't have control 525 00:59:00,680 --> 00:59:05,840 over yourself or your soul is not your own like when you don't have control over 526 00:59:05,840 --> 00:59:11,080 your attention like when you're asleep your soul is not your own so basically 527 00:59:11,080 --> 00:59:19,000 what using those words the most sophisticated factory the American 528 00:59:19,000 --> 00:59:25,680 school system education system basically when you like it kind of force it 529 00:59:25,680 --> 00:59:30,560 forms you to lose control of your attention and so basically you're just 530 00:59:30,560 --> 00:59:33,520 walking along and you're not even in control of yourself you're not even 531 00:59:33,520 --> 00:59:40,120 yourself you're just a cog and you lose your individuality which is actually 532 00:59:40,120 --> 00:59:46,280 insane to think about it's really saddening but I'm really glad I'm gonna 533 00:59:46,280 --> 00:59:55,240 be out of this place in in 70 days but that's the end of the episode so to wrap 534 00:59:55,240 --> 00:59:59,400 things up don't forget to download your favorite episodes and subscribe to the 535 00:59:59,400 --> 01:00:06,520 ascend momentum show but before you guys leave make sure to look up at the sky