91. Time to Start Our Lives

1 00:00:00,000 --> 00:00:02,000 What are we doing? 2 00:00:03,420 --> 00:00:05,420 What kind of life are we living right now? 3 00:00:07,040 --> 00:00:11,880 We've got global warming about it wipe us all out and we don't even care 4 00:00:13,080 --> 00:00:19,440 We're all living a fake life artificial life me included. I'm just learning of the truth. I 5 00:00:20,520 --> 00:00:22,520 heard 6 00:00:22,520 --> 00:00:29,960 This one quote the truth will set you free. I believe Jesus said it the truth will set you free 7 00:00:29,960 --> 00:00:31,960 I'm just starting to learn about 8 00:00:32,960 --> 00:00:37,800 The reality of the situation we're in. I'm just starting to learn about how we've been 9 00:00:38,640 --> 00:00:44,920 Brainwashed all our lives in the system. I'm just starting to figure out that I 10 00:00:44,920 --> 00:00:52,480 May not even have 50 years ahead of me on this earth. I may not even have 25 years left 11 00:00:54,280 --> 00:00:56,560 It may not even have one year 12 00:00:57,760 --> 00:01:03,040 I'm just starting to learn of all this stuff and I've just read one book so far 13 00:01:03,720 --> 00:01:05,720 Not even halfway done 14 00:01:05,840 --> 00:01:08,520 Dancing after the music stops and this is book one of 15 00:01:08,520 --> 00:01:14,020 Like 180 books on the ultimate reading list for human beings 16 00:01:15,360 --> 00:01:17,360 Just book one 17 00:01:18,520 --> 00:01:24,960 And I'm already seeing major shifts in my thinking 18 00:01:25,680 --> 00:01:27,680 How I perceive things 19 00:01:28,600 --> 00:01:30,600 All around everything 20 00:01:31,400 --> 00:01:37,700 My meditation today was the best that it's ever been every single day. I'm getting better and better at my meditation 21 00:01:37,700 --> 00:01:39,700 I'm getting deeper and deeper. I'm getting 22 00:01:39,840 --> 00:01:46,680 better and better and right now my goals for meditation is simply just to build my 23 00:01:48,280 --> 00:01:51,960 Virtual senses to actually develop them because 24 00:01:53,120 --> 00:01:56,520 We all have our five senses that we experience right now 25 00:01:57,800 --> 00:01:58,920 but 26 00:01:58,920 --> 00:02:04,100 We not everyone has their virtual senses built up. So when you're 27 00:02:04,100 --> 00:02:07,780 Meditating and you are in focus 12 28 00:02:10,020 --> 00:02:15,120 Right now all I see is blackness I have to create an image I have to 29 00:02:16,060 --> 00:02:17,220 focus 30 00:02:17,220 --> 00:02:19,220 the way that it works is I 31 00:02:19,620 --> 00:02:29,100 Have to kind of fall asleep and lose focus but also direct my attention towards something and then whenever I realize something is happening I 32 00:02:29,100 --> 00:02:34,860 Instantly become conscious of it and then it's and it ended it ends like in 33 00:02:36,300 --> 00:02:41,460 Dancing after the music stops. I was reading it today and he said that 34 00:02:42,340 --> 00:02:46,980 Eventually the truth will shine through like eventually there will be a crack and 35 00:02:47,580 --> 00:02:53,300 The truth will shine through and you can actually make it make the crack 36 00:02:54,580 --> 00:02:57,500 Bigger and have more light shine through 37 00:02:57,500 --> 00:02:59,140 quicker 38 00:02:59,140 --> 00:03:01,640 by being in solitude and 39 00:03:02,580 --> 00:03:10,900 so that was that image of just light shining through was in my mind at the time and 40 00:03:12,980 --> 00:03:14,980 When I'm meditating I 41 00:03:15,420 --> 00:03:22,660 Sometimes my mind kind of wanders and like kind of falls asleep. I lose consciousness, but then like images appear 42 00:03:23,340 --> 00:03:25,060 It's weird because 43 00:03:25,060 --> 00:03:27,820 During my day, I can't visualize 44 00:03:28,580 --> 00:03:35,660 But if I just fall asleep like my mind like falls asleep. I lose conscious or my I just 45 00:03:36,020 --> 00:03:38,020 My consciousness is asleep 46 00:03:38,540 --> 00:03:43,580 Then I can actually visualize and see images. It's quite weak. It's pretty weird 47 00:03:43,580 --> 00:03:49,460 And I noticed that every single time I become conscious of it and like see it 48 00:03:50,060 --> 00:03:54,780 Then it just instantly goes away and that same thing happened when I was meditating 49 00:03:54,780 --> 00:03:56,780 today I was just 50 00:03:57,460 --> 00:04:05,100 Meditating normal and then I kind of lost my mind drifted away and then I just saw this massive ray of light 51 00:04:05,980 --> 00:04:07,820 shine like 52 00:04:07,820 --> 00:04:12,820 Instantly just for a moment my whole entire eyes like lit up and 53 00:04:13,380 --> 00:04:17,180 Then it and then I became conscious of it and I was like, oh, that's cool 54 00:04:17,180 --> 00:04:19,180 And then it instantly ended 55 00:04:19,780 --> 00:04:22,620 just the moment I came conscious of it and I 56 00:04:22,620 --> 00:04:24,620 I feel as though it's because 57 00:04:25,140 --> 00:04:27,140 My mind is holding me back 58 00:04:27,900 --> 00:04:32,140 Because you're only limited by your own limitations you place upon yourself 59 00:04:33,460 --> 00:04:35,980 That you are weak we are gods 60 00:04:36,620 --> 00:04:42,140 So the only limitations we have are those that we place upon ourselves 61 00:04:42,140 --> 00:04:49,980 And so I feel as though when my mind wandered I lost I like gained those visual senses 62 00:04:49,980 --> 00:04:54,020 for an instant and then once I 63 00:04:54,820 --> 00:04:58,460 realized that it was happening my mind instantly took control of the situation and 64 00:05:00,100 --> 00:05:04,700 It ended and so I lost the ability to perceive that event and 65 00:05:05,540 --> 00:05:12,140 So what I'm doing is just practicing because I feel as though I can develop the skills for my mind 66 00:05:12,660 --> 00:05:13,580 to 67 00:05:13,580 --> 00:05:20,500 Be able to see this while it's conscious and also it will be the more and more I feel like I 68 00:05:21,180 --> 00:05:25,940 Have three core. I have a core three. This is my 69 00:05:26,820 --> 00:05:29,860 framework that I'm living by right now in my current 70 00:05:31,420 --> 00:05:34,780 Current life right now my core three is 71 00:05:36,580 --> 00:05:38,700 Spirituality which I'm doing through meditation 72 00:05:38,700 --> 00:05:42,860 World view which I'm doing through books 73 00:05:43,580 --> 00:05:52,060 Which is like discovering the truth and then the third one is documentation which I'm doing through this podcast as well as 74 00:05:52,820 --> 00:05:55,820 recording shorts to post on tiktok and YouTube and 75 00:05:58,220 --> 00:06:04,940 So I feel like they're all connected the documentation obviously because I'm documenting everything that I learned along the way 76 00:06:04,940 --> 00:06:09,420 But I feel like especially the meditation as well as the worldview 77 00:06:09,980 --> 00:06:12,420 the spirituality as well as the 78 00:06:12,900 --> 00:06:14,900 discovering the truth are both connected because 79 00:06:15,700 --> 00:06:20,140 Like I said my mind instantly tried to take control of the situation 80 00:06:21,100 --> 00:06:26,940 That's because I'm still in my I'm still brainwashed and I'm just trying to chip away 81 00:06:26,940 --> 00:06:28,940 I told my friend today that 82 00:06:28,940 --> 00:06:35,860 We're at school and like I can't wait until school is over for us because I 83 00:06:36,380 --> 00:06:39,580 Am doing it now, but especially once school is over 84 00:06:39,580 --> 00:06:46,260 I'm gonna lock in on the inner work and just instantly start chipping away at all of the 85 00:06:46,540 --> 00:06:49,220 layers that school has like 86 00:06:50,020 --> 00:06:52,260 Built upon in my brain 87 00:06:53,060 --> 00:06:57,460 Chip away at everything that school put into my worldview 88 00:06:57,460 --> 00:07:02,820 And that's what the inner work is all about. That's what the meditation the spirituality is all about 89 00:07:03,580 --> 00:07:05,580 but it's also 90 00:07:05,620 --> 00:07:13,500 Like I said when I had that moment of I had an instant moment of actually perceiving something in my meditation today 91 00:07:14,060 --> 00:07:20,420 But it instantly disappeared because my mind decided to take control because my mind is still under 92 00:07:21,100 --> 00:07:23,100 society's sway and 93 00:07:23,100 --> 00:07:29,020 And so I feel as though once I start learning all of this stuff and reading all these books 94 00:07:29,780 --> 00:07:34,060 Then my mind will be more open to these new ideas because I noticed that 95 00:07:34,860 --> 00:07:36,860 reality trans surfing 96 00:07:37,420 --> 00:07:44,940 Absolutely shattered my worldview and I actually it destroyed my mind so much that I had to stop like I didn't have to but 97 00:07:44,940 --> 00:07:48,340 I chose to stop reading it for the first time through 98 00:07:49,340 --> 00:07:51,340 because it was like 99 00:07:51,340 --> 00:07:55,500 Shattering my like everything I knew so I couldn't handle it emotionally 100 00:07:56,420 --> 00:08:04,140 And I eventually finished it and then I eventually read it a second time through and that's the first book first and only book that I've read so far 101 00:08:04,420 --> 00:08:06,420 That has shattered my worldview 102 00:08:06,940 --> 00:08:09,660 And I have a feeling that these books to come 103 00:08:10,300 --> 00:08:15,220 especially die wise come of age ascent on humanity and the Egypt code as 104 00:08:16,220 --> 00:08:18,220 well as journey out of bodies are 105 00:08:18,220 --> 00:08:21,540 Are all gonna shatter my worldview again and 106 00:08:22,340 --> 00:08:25,580 They're in all their own way because I'm learning about how 107 00:08:26,220 --> 00:08:29,900 one of the themes in a sense of humanity is we are 108 00:08:30,540 --> 00:08:32,540 separated from nature and 109 00:08:32,780 --> 00:08:34,500 separated from ourselves 110 00:08:34,500 --> 00:08:39,300 which is the root cause of our stuff like of the the cause of 111 00:08:39,300 --> 00:08:47,340 how our reality is being destroyed as we know it and then I also know 112 00:08:48,860 --> 00:08:54,500 That in die wise it's all about how we live in a society 113 00:08:56,060 --> 00:09:01,140 And I'm talking about American society as well as like North American society 114 00:09:02,700 --> 00:09:04,700 I'm pretty sure 115 00:09:04,940 --> 00:09:06,780 America and Canada 116 00:09:06,780 --> 00:09:13,580 like Western civilization lives in a society where death is feared and death is not talked about and people 117 00:09:14,220 --> 00:09:20,820 Don't talk about it and it seemed it seems as something as a disease like it's not supposed to happen. It's unnatural 118 00:09:21,740 --> 00:09:22,980 when 119 00:09:22,980 --> 00:09:25,980 the fear of death is what creates 120 00:09:26,500 --> 00:09:34,460 Mediocracy the fear of death is what creates drones and one of my favorite one of the quotes that stuck to me so far in 121 00:09:34,460 --> 00:09:36,060 in 122 00:09:36,060 --> 00:09:38,060 dance after music stops is 123 00:09:39,300 --> 00:09:42,780 The school system turns gods into drones and 124 00:09:45,100 --> 00:09:50,740 It's it's the school system. It's our worldview. It's our fear of death 125 00:09:52,500 --> 00:09:59,260 And I'm realizing that that's one of the big pillars in expert secrets a business book that I've 126 00:09:59,980 --> 00:10:01,900 read before 127 00:10:01,900 --> 00:10:03,660 he talked about 128 00:10:03,660 --> 00:10:05,660 the big domino 129 00:10:05,980 --> 00:10:07,980 Which is basically the one big 130 00:10:08,660 --> 00:10:15,740 belief that if you can like if the one big false belief that if you can like topple for your customer 131 00:10:16,420 --> 00:10:23,420 Then they will believe everything you're saying so for example if you're trying to convert someone to Christianity 132 00:10:24,060 --> 00:10:30,340 Then the one false belief the one big domino that you have to get them to believe in is the Bible 133 00:10:30,340 --> 00:10:33,940 Like if you can get them to believe in the Bible then everything else 134 00:10:35,300 --> 00:10:41,020 Falls into line and they believe into Christianity as a whole and so 135 00:10:41,660 --> 00:10:50,740 for I feel like there are many different big dominoes that I have to push over to start the healing process from this extremely 136 00:10:52,580 --> 00:10:54,380 destructive society that I've 137 00:10:54,380 --> 00:11:02,260 Been born into one of the big dominoes is the fear of death and that that is one of the pillars as well as 138 00:11:02,820 --> 00:11:05,700 my spirituality being disconnected as 139 00:11:06,380 --> 00:11:08,380 well as the 140 00:11:08,500 --> 00:11:10,500 reconnecting with nature and 141 00:11:11,660 --> 00:11:13,660 with each other and 142 00:11:13,900 --> 00:11:15,900 I feel like there's a lot more and 143 00:11:18,500 --> 00:11:20,140 Reconnecting with my higher self as well 144 00:11:20,140 --> 00:11:27,100 there's I feel like there's a lot more big dominoes that I'm yet to discover but these are the biggest ones that I've seen to 145 00:11:27,220 --> 00:11:29,220 have come across so far and 146 00:11:32,220 --> 00:11:37,060 Talk about the fear of death. I really feel like I 147 00:11:39,020 --> 00:11:42,180 Think that he talks about that in die wise and I 148 00:11:43,900 --> 00:11:49,140 Have seven books that I'm reading right now a scent of humanity die wise come of age 149 00:11:49,140 --> 00:11:51,140 the Egypt code 150 00:11:51,540 --> 00:11:54,540 journeys out of the body toof the priestess and 151 00:11:55,340 --> 00:11:57,340 dance to the music stops and 152 00:11:57,820 --> 00:12:00,980 The reason why I bought them all seven is because I wanted to 153 00:12:01,260 --> 00:12:06,580 Try out this reading method to read them all at once like pick up one read inside lose focus 154 00:12:06,580 --> 00:12:13,180 And then switch the next one and then switch and then switch and I tried it out and I decided that it's not for me 155 00:12:13,180 --> 00:12:15,180 I don't like it 156 00:12:15,180 --> 00:12:21,460 It doesn't work. One of the reasons is because for four of the books are 157 00:12:22,260 --> 00:12:30,140 Pretty hard reads like they're way outside of my worldview and they're also very lengthy books as well as 158 00:12:30,300 --> 00:12:34,260 they're written at a very high reading level 159 00:12:34,820 --> 00:12:42,860 To where I I'm not really able to understand what they're saying much like I don't understand much of what they're saying and 160 00:12:42,860 --> 00:12:46,260 So I find that when I was on those books 161 00:12:46,260 --> 00:12:50,420 I would just read like a page and then I move on because I wanted to read like 162 00:12:50,660 --> 00:12:54,260 Dancing after the music stops and toof the priestess and journeys out of the body 163 00:12:54,420 --> 00:12:58,940 Which are three that quicker reads that I wanted to read but 164 00:13:00,460 --> 00:13:02,460 That's why I am 165 00:13:03,740 --> 00:13:10,140 Switching back to just reading one book at a time and the book that I chose to read first out of the seven in that pile is 166 00:13:10,140 --> 00:13:16,700 Dancing after the music stops and I'm already halfway done with it because it's fairly quick read even though it's like 167 00:13:17,060 --> 00:13:19,060 380 pages long 168 00:13:19,620 --> 00:13:25,540 But there's a lot of pictures and there's a lot of pages where there's just no like there's just a few words on it 169 00:13:26,580 --> 00:13:33,860 and I feel like that book is like the found like a very good introduction book to the entire list because 170 00:13:33,860 --> 00:13:39,620 The guy who compiled the reading list Jean Pasco reman 171 00:13:40,180 --> 00:13:43,220 The ultimate reading list for human beings that I'm following right now 172 00:13:43,940 --> 00:13:46,500 He actually wrote dancing after the music stops 173 00:13:46,500 --> 00:13:50,100 Which is like a compilation of everything that he learned in the past few years 174 00:13:50,500 --> 00:13:53,740 Including all of those books that he read on the reading list 175 00:13:54,620 --> 00:13:58,180 So I felt it was a good introduction to the reading list 176 00:13:58,180 --> 00:14:04,800 And so that's what I picked first and then the next book that I'm gonna read is either a journey out of the bodies or 177 00:14:05,380 --> 00:14:07,380 die wise because I 178 00:14:08,260 --> 00:14:12,540 Really want to get into die wise soon because I feel like that will be one of the biggest 179 00:14:13,380 --> 00:14:19,460 most impactful things for me because so many times in the past 180 00:14:20,980 --> 00:14:23,740 Like past reading I've noticed that 181 00:14:23,740 --> 00:14:31,060 Death and like you being on your deathbed is like a common theme amongst them all I've heard the saying that 182 00:14:31,380 --> 00:14:36,900 every single fear is the fee like stems from the fear of death and 183 00:14:37,860 --> 00:14:39,860 so me learning that 184 00:14:40,820 --> 00:14:45,980 The fear of death is actually deeply rooted in the Western society Western civilization 185 00:14:46,500 --> 00:14:49,220 The fear of death is deeply rooted 186 00:14:49,220 --> 00:14:53,340 in grained into our brains to produce 187 00:14:54,260 --> 00:14:56,060 like 188 00:14:56,060 --> 00:15:00,700 ordinary drones like ordinary average mediocre citizens 189 00:15:01,700 --> 00:15:04,500 then I want to destroy that and 190 00:15:05,340 --> 00:15:07,340 replace it with something new 191 00:15:10,500 --> 00:15:14,780 And so that's why I want to get into die wise because there's 192 00:15:14,780 --> 00:15:21,460 It's number one on Gene Pascal Riemann's reading list and I feel like it's number one for a reason 193 00:15:22,420 --> 00:15:24,140 and 194 00:15:24,140 --> 00:15:27,340 more and more I'm really locking in to 195 00:15:28,460 --> 00:15:31,540 the gateway experience and meditating because 196 00:15:32,220 --> 00:15:34,540 More and more the more and more I read 197 00:15:36,060 --> 00:15:37,940 Dancing after the music stops 198 00:15:37,940 --> 00:15:46,540 The more and more it confirms my suspicions and makes me want to actually experience these higher levels of awareness and actually 199 00:15:46,980 --> 00:15:50,500 Reach like focus 27 and focus 49 200 00:15:53,620 --> 00:15:54,740 And 201 00:15:54,740 --> 00:15:59,540 Like every single day it's getting I'm getting closer and closer. I'm getting better and better 202 00:16:00,340 --> 00:16:03,660 Like my senses are strengthening more and more I 203 00:16:03,660 --> 00:16:05,660 I 204 00:16:05,940 --> 00:16:08,380 Still like see blackness 205 00:16:09,260 --> 00:16:13,980 But like today I had that one brief moment of that light shining 206 00:16:14,660 --> 00:16:16,660 Which I think is 207 00:16:16,940 --> 00:16:18,940 spark of hope 208 00:16:18,980 --> 00:16:23,620 Which in the moment I didn't really think anything of it. I just thought it was just something weird 209 00:16:24,380 --> 00:16:29,420 But in hindsight, I know that that's like what they're talking about those those 210 00:16:30,620 --> 00:16:32,460 experiences and 211 00:16:32,460 --> 00:16:36,620 also, I'm I say what I'm about to say with 212 00:16:38,100 --> 00:16:43,100 with conscious awareness and a little hold back because I 213 00:16:43,860 --> 00:16:47,020 Don't want to hold expectations, but I also want to 214 00:16:47,780 --> 00:16:54,260 Mention something I learned that in what I don't know where I read it probably like one of the gateway experience manuals or guidebooks 215 00:16:55,140 --> 00:16:57,140 They said that 216 00:16:57,180 --> 00:16:59,180 You may experience 217 00:16:59,180 --> 00:17:07,100 You may get better and better at meditation slowly and surely just slow and sure progress 218 00:17:07,420 --> 00:17:09,420 Which is what's happening right now 219 00:17:09,940 --> 00:17:11,940 or you may 220 00:17:11,900 --> 00:17:14,060 Get like an instant 221 00:17:15,020 --> 00:17:17,020 Epiphany or an instant 222 00:17:18,260 --> 00:17:25,660 Like you may see blackness and then in an instant everything changes like a flip of a switch and now you are 223 00:17:25,660 --> 00:17:33,220 able to perceive all of this stuff like it's a dam breaking like a dam like all the water bursting through the dam and 224 00:17:35,580 --> 00:17:37,580 So I I'm 225 00:17:37,620 --> 00:17:44,100 Avoiding holding expectations for that being the case for me, but I'm also pushing through with the knowledge that 226 00:17:45,300 --> 00:17:48,340 You never know what's gonna happen in the next meditation 227 00:17:48,340 --> 00:17:52,220 It may be like it's been always where I slowly but surely improve 228 00:17:52,220 --> 00:17:59,300 But it also may be a huge moment. So that's why every single time I'm making sure 229 00:17:59,660 --> 00:18:05,580 That I maintain super strong focus because that's another thing that I learned in seven resonant colors 230 00:18:07,580 --> 00:18:10,140 Maintain strong focus like 231 00:18:11,460 --> 00:18:18,620 It's all about keeping strong focus and when your mind drifts and you I forgot what they were mentioning 232 00:18:18,620 --> 00:18:23,580 It may in fact be to create that thought as a guardian 233 00:18:23,660 --> 00:18:28,620 Like if you have a thought persisting and then you turn it into a guardian where you basically 234 00:18:29,340 --> 00:18:36,460 Personify that thought and give it a throne room like give it a room a throne room and a throne to sit on and of 235 00:18:36,860 --> 00:18:39,260 character in a mouth to speak through and 236 00:18:40,140 --> 00:18:44,940 Then the more and more I'm pretty sure this is what it's relating to but the more and more like 237 00:18:44,940 --> 00:18:48,540 Triumphs you have over your thoughts 238 00:18:49,260 --> 00:18:50,860 The more 239 00:18:50,860 --> 00:18:56,780 energy you get in the form of concentration and focus in the form of focus and 240 00:18:57,820 --> 00:19:03,780 So I know that it's all about focus having high concentration and being extremely focused 241 00:19:03,780 --> 00:19:06,980 And so that's why I'm really locking in like 242 00:19:08,420 --> 00:19:13,420 Lately over the past maybe four days all of my meditations before 243 00:19:13,420 --> 00:19:20,700 It's strange because my meditations in the morning and nighttime are fine and they're normal 244 00:19:22,060 --> 00:19:27,020 But it's weird because it's it always seems to be the meditation right before this podcast 245 00:19:27,500 --> 00:19:30,860 Where I'm like falling asleep, and I'm very distracted and I'm like 246 00:19:31,580 --> 00:19:37,420 Low concentration low focus my mind is drifting a lot and I start to fall asleep and 247 00:19:39,140 --> 00:19:41,460 That was the case for the beginning of this 248 00:19:41,460 --> 00:19:43,460 meditation that I had today and 249 00:19:44,460 --> 00:19:47,460 Then I like something flipped some 250 00:19:48,300 --> 00:19:55,260 Something changed. I don't know if it was that light. I doubt it because I didn't really think anything of the light at the time 251 00:19:56,500 --> 00:19:59,060 But it may just be the fact that I remember 252 00:20:00,340 --> 00:20:04,660 Gratitude and love is universal in dancing after music stops 253 00:20:04,660 --> 00:20:11,820 He mentioned that once you get to the highest levels of conscious awareness once you like 254 00:20:12,580 --> 00:20:17,540 once you achieve the highest level of focus or the highest level of 255 00:20:18,860 --> 00:20:23,180 Consciousness then you realize that like the last level of life 256 00:20:24,260 --> 00:20:29,220 the last level of the game is just a level of pure love and 257 00:20:29,220 --> 00:20:34,220 And so what I tried to evoke in my? 258 00:20:35,260 --> 00:20:39,380 Meditations it wasn't till halfway through like in the beginning I kind of forgot about it 259 00:20:39,380 --> 00:20:43,820 But then halfway through I remembered about love and gratefulness 260 00:20:44,340 --> 00:20:47,180 and so I started to evoke it in 261 00:20:48,420 --> 00:20:50,420 the meditation where I was just 262 00:20:52,420 --> 00:20:54,700 One like towards the end of my 263 00:20:54,700 --> 00:20:59,140 Once I finished my routine where I visualize my goal 264 00:20:59,900 --> 00:21:02,380 Do my like routine in my goal? I? 265 00:21:04,260 --> 00:21:06,340 Ended up ended off the 266 00:21:07,660 --> 00:21:14,300 Meditation by the last like however long it was maybe five ten minutes maybe one minute. I don't know 267 00:21:15,340 --> 00:21:16,700 Just 268 00:21:16,700 --> 00:21:20,220 Visualizing myself on my beach that I'm gonna have in the future 269 00:21:20,220 --> 00:21:28,380 With a campfire lit and it's like dark out and I'm just sitting out in solitude because that's another thing 270 00:21:29,220 --> 00:21:31,220 solitude is 271 00:21:31,420 --> 00:21:33,420 Extremely good like that's when 272 00:21:34,020 --> 00:21:40,580 He's he mentioned that if you are if you spend a month in solitude then you will raise 273 00:21:41,540 --> 00:21:47,540 Or I don't remember what he said it was something to do with like your awareness or your inner your higher cell 274 00:21:47,540 --> 00:21:51,740 he said he said something about solitude and 275 00:21:52,180 --> 00:21:57,460 the fact that solitude is like extremely beneficial for my goals right now like 276 00:21:58,740 --> 00:22:04,900 like meeting up with my hair self and like merging with my hair self and my spirituality and all that I 277 00:22:06,380 --> 00:22:12,780 Started visualizing myself in solitude on the beach in the in the darkness with the 278 00:22:12,780 --> 00:22:16,860 sky the all the stars in the sky with 279 00:22:17,700 --> 00:22:22,340 A campfire right in front of me, and I'm just sitting there listening to the waves crash 280 00:22:23,060 --> 00:22:25,460 listening to the campfire crackle and 281 00:22:25,980 --> 00:22:32,820 This is helping me with my senses as well as feel the true love and be in solitude 282 00:22:32,900 --> 00:22:35,740 so I figured that since 283 00:22:36,700 --> 00:22:38,460 another thing that I 284 00:22:38,460 --> 00:22:45,580 Kind of he's bringing up a lot is that you are the totality of the universe like everything in the universe is 285 00:22:45,940 --> 00:22:50,820 Like the entire universe is inside your mind like everything that is 286 00:22:51,780 --> 00:22:56,540 Is in the universe is inside your mind which I have been like 287 00:22:57,540 --> 00:23:00,300 Semi aware of that because in Transurfing 288 00:23:01,180 --> 00:23:06,740 You are the creator of your reality and your thoughts are actually the creator of your reality, so 289 00:23:06,740 --> 00:23:13,580 You send out your thought form into the world and then the world creates that like thought into 290 00:23:14,500 --> 00:23:20,540 Reality and then that is like your reality, so I was kind of aware of that but that put it into more words and 291 00:23:21,260 --> 00:23:23,260 so me I 292 00:23:23,860 --> 00:23:26,620 Figured that me visualizing this is 293 00:23:28,300 --> 00:23:34,140 Just as good or at least as good as it can get for my situation right now 294 00:23:34,140 --> 00:23:36,140 to 295 00:23:36,180 --> 00:23:43,980 Be to get these benefits of solitude and to get these benefits of love and being in nature and reconnecting with nature and 296 00:23:45,940 --> 00:23:48,380 Reconnecting with my ourself my spirituality 297 00:23:49,140 --> 00:23:52,100 re like healing my spirituality and 298 00:23:53,140 --> 00:23:55,140 I feel as though 299 00:23:55,140 --> 00:24:00,500 It's very beneficial to do this meditation to follow all these principles in 300 00:24:00,500 --> 00:24:08,300 In my meditation because and I said that I said something about like a moment ago about my current situation. I 301 00:24:09,380 --> 00:24:15,020 Don't want to lead you guys the wrong way. I I have the full capacity to change my situation 302 00:24:15,220 --> 00:24:21,260 I could just drop out. I could just move and like go on my own 303 00:24:22,100 --> 00:24:27,140 But I'm still choosing to stay and that's another thing that I've been struggling with lately 304 00:24:27,140 --> 00:24:33,540 After reading dance after music stops. I know that I'm choosing to go through this 305 00:24:34,700 --> 00:24:36,700 this 306 00:24:36,700 --> 00:24:38,220 terrible 307 00:24:38,220 --> 00:24:46,020 Machine of a school system. I'm still choosing to stay in this society. I'm still choosing to be here 308 00:24:46,020 --> 00:24:48,020 I could just take the leap 309 00:24:50,420 --> 00:24:52,420 But I feel as though I want to 310 00:24:52,420 --> 00:24:55,860 To still have the time I 311 00:24:58,260 --> 00:25:04,180 Have a lot of like logical reasoning behind my choice in staying 312 00:25:06,980 --> 00:25:08,980 But then it's also 313 00:25:10,100 --> 00:25:13,580 That's just logic and that's just my mind being reasonable. I 314 00:25:14,780 --> 00:25:20,620 Don't know. I I feel as though I'm on the right path even if I stay home right now 315 00:25:20,620 --> 00:25:22,620 because 316 00:25:23,020 --> 00:25:30,160 Just like my core three as long as I keep up my core three which is spirituality through meditating 317 00:25:31,420 --> 00:25:33,420 worldview and finding 318 00:25:34,300 --> 00:25:37,980 discovering the truth finding the truth through books as 319 00:25:39,060 --> 00:25:45,540 well as documentation through podcasts as long as I continue those it will lead me to my life that I 320 00:25:45,540 --> 00:25:52,740 truly desire and the life that I am creating at the moment as we speak the life that I'm creating 321 00:25:54,540 --> 00:25:57,980 Because each one of those has its peace in my 322 00:25:59,580 --> 00:26:01,580 In my future 323 00:26:02,940 --> 00:26:06,460 Podcasts will handle the monetary side of things 324 00:26:09,020 --> 00:26:12,860 The worldview will help me reading will help me 325 00:26:12,860 --> 00:26:16,780 learn about all of this stuff and 326 00:26:17,820 --> 00:26:20,980 how to heal from it and then the 327 00:26:22,100 --> 00:26:24,540 Meditation will actually help me heal and help me 328 00:26:26,060 --> 00:26:32,060 Carve away all of these layers of plaque that society has built in my worldview into my mind and 329 00:26:32,700 --> 00:26:34,700 Heal and then as well as 330 00:26:35,380 --> 00:26:37,380 discover my true power 331 00:26:37,380 --> 00:26:39,380 Like I said all or all 332 00:26:40,260 --> 00:26:43,540 All the stuff that I'm saying right now is just words like a lot of this stuff 333 00:26:43,540 --> 00:26:48,860 I'm just saying is just words and I'm just learning about it in real time and 334 00:26:49,980 --> 00:26:54,140 It's slowly starting to actually become part of my worldview 335 00:26:55,220 --> 00:26:57,220 But I'm just learning about this stuff 336 00:26:59,100 --> 00:27:01,100 And in like 337 00:27:03,020 --> 00:27:05,020 Honestly and 338 00:27:05,020 --> 00:27:12,740 Honestly every single with every passing day I'm getting better and better more and more 339 00:27:13,940 --> 00:27:15,940 and I have a feeling that 340 00:27:17,980 --> 00:27:20,900 Everything is gonna radically change in the next hundred days 341 00:27:22,100 --> 00:27:23,380 next 342 00:27:23,380 --> 00:27:25,300 365 days 343 00:27:25,300 --> 00:27:28,980 everything's gonna radically change over the following months and 344 00:27:30,980 --> 00:27:32,980 I'm ready for it 345 00:27:32,980 --> 00:27:35,660 I'm doing everything every day 346 00:27:38,140 --> 00:27:40,140 So 347 00:27:41,260 --> 00:27:47,220 In the I think that in the beginning of this podcast I was saying that we need to start living and 348 00:27:49,780 --> 00:27:51,780 I'm realizing that 349 00:27:52,300 --> 00:27:54,500 Global warming is actually much worse than I 350 00:27:55,740 --> 00:27:56,700 expected 351 00:27:56,700 --> 00:27:58,700 Because we're actually like 352 00:27:58,700 --> 00:28:03,220 It's actually way closer than I thought like the year 2035 is 353 00:28:04,380 --> 00:28:09,860 predicted to be the year when we actually start like losing our food and 354 00:28:10,860 --> 00:28:13,980 The the middle class is slowly starting to disappear 355 00:28:13,980 --> 00:28:18,100 And I'm part of the middle class and so I assume that the middle class is gonna become 356 00:28:18,220 --> 00:28:23,220 Lower class and it's just gonna be lower upper class and then the poor are gonna get poorer and poorer 357 00:28:23,220 --> 00:28:29,540 And so right now in my current situation, I am not gonna have a good future 358 00:28:30,540 --> 00:28:32,220 But I am 359 00:28:32,220 --> 00:28:35,340 Controlling my that's me in creating my reality 360 00:28:36,340 --> 00:28:39,460 And I I intend to be a part of the upper class 361 00:28:40,420 --> 00:28:48,140 By the time the hard times start to hit that's why we need to lock in right now lock in create our business 362 00:28:49,020 --> 00:28:51,540 lock in create a life that we actually 363 00:28:51,540 --> 00:28:58,340 Are happy about living like there is enough media not enough with 364 00:28:58,620 --> 00:29:01,780 Mediocracy enough with average normalness 365 00:29:03,420 --> 00:29:05,420 Like enough with all of that 366 00:29:06,060 --> 00:29:07,940 garbage 367 00:29:07,940 --> 00:29:09,940 because if we 368 00:29:10,380 --> 00:29:12,380 Just bear with me 369 00:29:12,700 --> 00:29:17,660 Let's say 10 years from now is when things just start to go downhill 370 00:29:17,660 --> 00:29:25,540 We start to lose our food sources. We start to lose nature. We start to lose our world as we know it 371 00:29:27,500 --> 00:29:29,380 People are suffering 372 00:29:29,380 --> 00:29:31,300 That's 10 years 373 00:29:31,300 --> 00:29:35,660 We are on the brink of catastrophe within the like in a decade 374 00:29:37,180 --> 00:29:41,060 So let's say it happens in 10 years. I'll be 28 375 00:29:41,060 --> 00:29:48,660 So I'll have lived most of my 20s and I plan on setting myself up. This is why I'm focusing so much on my foundation 376 00:29:48,660 --> 00:29:53,380 My spirituality my worldview because I I am setting myself up for the future 377 00:29:53,820 --> 00:29:56,700 Because I'm 18 right now and I plan on being 378 00:29:57,260 --> 00:30:02,060 financially free to start to live my life during my entire 20s. So then I'll have 379 00:30:03,180 --> 00:30:05,180 10 years to 380 00:30:05,180 --> 00:30:10,300 enjoy life and live exactly how I plan and 381 00:30:11,300 --> 00:30:13,620 Then by the time things go get hard 382 00:30:13,820 --> 00:30:20,620 I'll be ready because I'll have all the resources I need to push through it and actually survive it 383 00:30:22,900 --> 00:30:29,020 Like I'll be better off because I chose to put in the work now and I chose to change things 384 00:30:30,780 --> 00:30:32,220 And 385 00:30:32,220 --> 00:30:35,060 For some reason I'm starting to get a lump in my throat. I don't know why 386 00:30:37,460 --> 00:30:40,700 Like we tough times are ahead and we need to be prepared 387 00:30:42,660 --> 00:30:47,660 Like I have been working on business for the past four months I 388 00:30:48,940 --> 00:30:51,900 Knew that this is the path I wanted to take entrepreneurship and 389 00:30:52,620 --> 00:30:55,940 More and more I'm getting more and more convinced that this is the right path forward 390 00:30:55,940 --> 00:31:01,980 Especially now that I'm learning about like the demise of the world as we know it 391 00:31:03,460 --> 00:31:06,780 It's pushing me even more because now I know that 392 00:31:08,340 --> 00:31:13,880 We had to start living life. It's time to break free from this concrete 393 00:31:14,700 --> 00:31:18,580 World that we live in it's time to leave the school system 394 00:31:20,660 --> 00:31:22,660 And I feel as though 395 00:31:22,660 --> 00:31:28,900 Every every passing day it's getting harder and harder mentally for me to stay in school even though I 396 00:31:29,340 --> 00:31:36,420 Literally have less than 70 days until I'm done and that's not even school days. That's just 70 days 397 00:31:37,300 --> 00:31:39,740 70 days from now. I'll be done with school. I 398 00:31:40,700 --> 00:31:42,700 Have way less 399 00:31:44,220 --> 00:31:48,700 Time in school probably like 40 or 50 days maybe maybe less 400 00:31:48,700 --> 00:31:56,740 But every single day like I talked to my friend this morning he was he was like 401 00:31:57,740 --> 00:32:00,060 We're just talking and I was like dude. This is 402 00:32:01,580 --> 00:32:03,580 This is the hardest time 403 00:32:03,700 --> 00:32:07,700 mentally for me of my entire life because I'm going to school and 404 00:32:08,700 --> 00:32:10,700 I'm discovering the truth like 405 00:32:11,180 --> 00:32:16,740 School was hard in the first place to get through during the day. That's why I became a part-time student 406 00:32:16,740 --> 00:32:19,500 That's why I'm graduating early school is hard already 407 00:32:21,660 --> 00:32:25,540 But now that I'm discovering the truth and now my worldview is changing now 408 00:32:25,540 --> 00:32:29,580 I'm actually learning about how and why school is so bad and what it's doing to us 409 00:32:30,500 --> 00:32:32,620 It's becoming even harder and harder 410 00:32:32,620 --> 00:32:33,780 and 411 00:32:33,780 --> 00:32:40,020 I also have built up this extremely strong foundation in my school because in school 412 00:32:40,020 --> 00:32:46,580 There's a grading system and that's the way they determine if you succeed or not or the way you you pass or not and 413 00:32:47,340 --> 00:32:48,620 I 414 00:32:48,620 --> 00:32:50,540 Have straight A's and 415 00:32:50,540 --> 00:32:55,660 So I was telling my friend that I have straight A's and I I believe that if I do nothing for the rest of the year 416 00:32:55,660 --> 00:33:00,380 Turn in nothing. I think that I'll still pass because you have to have a D to pass I 417 00:33:01,100 --> 00:33:06,740 Believe that I'll still pass for the rest of you because we're halfway done and I have like perfect scores in all my classes 418 00:33:06,740 --> 00:33:14,680 Or at least in like a few weeks if I maintain this grade and a few weeks 419 00:33:14,680 --> 00:33:18,900 I can do nothing so that gives me some very good 420 00:33:19,660 --> 00:33:26,540 mental space because I kind of locked in on school in the first semester first quarter and 421 00:33:27,660 --> 00:33:34,380 Now this leaves me the second quarter to kind of just not care not give a F 422 00:33:34,380 --> 00:33:37,380 No F's given 423 00:33:38,700 --> 00:33:42,780 Yes, I'm still gonna turn in my work, but I'm not gonna turn in good quality work 424 00:33:42,780 --> 00:33:48,300 I'm just gonna do random stuff like in in my fourth period class today. My sports lit 425 00:33:48,300 --> 00:33:50,300 we had to listen to an audiobook and 426 00:33:51,780 --> 00:33:55,500 We had to answer questions about it on a Google form and 427 00:33:56,460 --> 00:34:03,300 I was basically just looking off of the person that I sit in front of I was basically copying some of his stuff and 428 00:34:03,300 --> 00:34:07,100 Then he submitted it before I could see the rest so I literally just 429 00:34:07,660 --> 00:34:09,780 Wrote in a bunch of gibberish and turn in it 430 00:34:10,740 --> 00:34:12,740 Like that's how much I don't care anymore 431 00:34:14,540 --> 00:34:19,540 Especially in that class as long as we turn in something of content we get a hundred percent 432 00:34:20,300 --> 00:34:21,860 so 433 00:34:21,860 --> 00:34:23,860 That's easy 434 00:34:23,860 --> 00:34:31,220 Things are things are moving forward and I really believe that I'm on the right path forward 435 00:34:35,220 --> 00:34:43,060 And the main thing that I'm working on in my spiritual spiritual journey my meditation is just practicing my senses because I know that 436 00:34:43,300 --> 00:34:45,300 all of this stuff 437 00:34:45,820 --> 00:34:47,820 past focus 10 like 438 00:34:47,860 --> 00:34:50,700 all of the every single focus level 439 00:34:50,700 --> 00:34:59,460 involves a virtual body like once you get into the focus 12 you enter a virtual body essentially 440 00:34:59,860 --> 00:35:07,220 So you and the more deeper the deeper and deeper you get into the focus levels the less and less 441 00:35:08,300 --> 00:35:12,900 physical inputs you receive so the more and more your consciousness is 442 00:35:13,340 --> 00:35:15,340 inside of the 443 00:35:15,340 --> 00:35:21,700 Utility of the universe and the less and less your consciousness is actually listening to your body 444 00:35:22,060 --> 00:35:24,060 so the way I see it is 445 00:35:24,940 --> 00:35:27,380 the deeper you get 446 00:35:28,900 --> 00:35:30,900 inside of 447 00:35:31,860 --> 00:35:34,940 Focus levels so basically I focused 10 448 00:35:36,100 --> 00:35:40,620 Your body is asleep your mind is awake. So you have reduced 449 00:35:40,620 --> 00:35:46,580 Used sensory input like you you can still feel senses from your body 450 00:35:46,580 --> 00:35:51,140 You can still feel things and hear things and see things or 451 00:35:52,100 --> 00:35:55,220 You can still feel things from your body 452 00:35:55,860 --> 00:36:02,620 And then once you get focus 12, that's the state of expanded awareness and then you 453 00:36:03,020 --> 00:36:08,900 Actually feel your body a lot less and you actually like experience a lot less inputs 454 00:36:08,900 --> 00:36:14,740 And then once you get to focus 15, that's the state of no time and I have not been to focus 15 yet 455 00:36:14,740 --> 00:36:19,540 But I imagine that you can't even like you barely feel your body 456 00:36:19,540 --> 00:36:26,460 And then the more deeper and deeper you get focus 21 focus 27 deeper and deeper you get the less 457 00:36:26,460 --> 00:36:31,820 You can actually feel your body and I imagine that focus 27 you don't even feel your body 458 00:36:32,460 --> 00:36:35,420 and so in that sense you enter a 459 00:36:35,420 --> 00:36:40,740 Higher your higher self or you enter your second body, which is basically 460 00:36:41,740 --> 00:36:44,980 Your like virtual body your imaginary body 461 00:36:45,620 --> 00:36:51,340 Yet, it's real you enter your virtual body. And so right now my virtual body is 462 00:36:52,260 --> 00:36:57,380 Very weak because I never developed it. It's like I believe it's like a skill 463 00:36:58,900 --> 00:37:03,620 Right now, I don't even I barely feel any senses from this virtual body 464 00:37:03,620 --> 00:37:06,100 and if I do it's for a brief moment and 465 00:37:07,180 --> 00:37:10,660 I can barely perceive things just like I said about that 466 00:37:11,100 --> 00:37:15,980 Flash of light that I perceive for an instant moment and then it instantly left 467 00:37:16,780 --> 00:37:24,180 Like I barely perceive things and this is because I see it as my virtual body is not developed 468 00:37:24,180 --> 00:37:29,140 And it's like a low level right now, but the more and more I practice with it the more and more I develop it 469 00:37:29,140 --> 00:37:37,300 Then it'll get stronger and stronger until it'll actually be natural for me to actually walk around and perceive things 470 00:37:39,140 --> 00:37:40,700 And 471 00:37:40,700 --> 00:37:44,420 That's why I'm really focusing on my senses during my meditation 472 00:37:44,940 --> 00:37:48,700 building up my virtual body building up all these virtual senses because 473 00:37:49,340 --> 00:37:55,780 This is I feel like this is the foundation like if you want to even experience these higher focus levels 474 00:37:55,780 --> 00:38:01,540 You need to have the vehicle to get there and you need to have the vehicle to actually see it and feel it and 475 00:38:02,100 --> 00:38:05,180 experience it one of my goals is to be in 476 00:38:05,780 --> 00:38:07,660 focus 27 and 477 00:38:07,660 --> 00:38:09,820 like reach these other 478 00:38:10,820 --> 00:38:15,260 Beings like these other human souls that are in focus 27 and 479 00:38:16,020 --> 00:38:20,420 Learn from them and be guided by them and get a mentor and 480 00:38:20,420 --> 00:38:24,540 And so I 481 00:38:25,580 --> 00:38:34,140 I'm locking in on the five senses because I feel like you really need to build your senses to be able to even perceive any of this stuff 482 00:38:34,140 --> 00:38:44,980 Like I've never been able to even visualize and so now I'm gonna be able to learn how to visualize. I just have to build up the senses and 483 00:38:51,220 --> 00:38:58,220 Another thing that another thing that I did during my meditation was I just had this 484 00:38:58,220 --> 00:39:06,100 I just did it naturally like I didn't really think to do it. I just did it and 485 00:39:06,980 --> 00:39:11,620 it was because I'm learning more about the school system and how it's like destroying me and 486 00:39:14,020 --> 00:39:17,780 Yet I'm still going so I need some sort of protection and I know that the 487 00:39:18,220 --> 00:39:26,620 Resonant energy balloon helps you for helps protect you and so I had that on my mind as well as the school system was destroying me 488 00:39:26,620 --> 00:39:29,780 And then I also had the higher self on my mind 489 00:39:30,300 --> 00:39:34,020 so in focus 12 at the end I was like 490 00:39:34,940 --> 00:39:39,180 Protect me from school or protect me at school protect me during school 491 00:39:40,060 --> 00:39:44,860 And that's just I just did that and I actually feel like that's helped a lot. I 492 00:39:46,180 --> 00:39:48,020 Don't know what 493 00:39:48,020 --> 00:39:54,980 Like a lot of times I can tell that whether my meditation was good or bad or whether I got a lot out of the meditation 494 00:39:54,980 --> 00:39:56,780 by 495 00:39:56,780 --> 00:39:59,260 how I feel after it and 496 00:40:00,100 --> 00:40:05,380 I did based on my feelings after today's meditation I 497 00:40:06,300 --> 00:40:10,260 can tell that I definitely got a lot out of it because I 498 00:40:11,260 --> 00:40:12,940 got up 499 00:40:12,940 --> 00:40:19,340 Stretched sat up and my mind was completely tranquil. It was like at peace and 500 00:40:19,340 --> 00:40:26,660 And then it was like completely cleared as well every once a while a few thoughts popped in but for the most part 501 00:40:26,660 --> 00:40:30,180 It was like very clear. I was in that meditative state and 502 00:40:31,220 --> 00:40:37,220 Then slowly but surely it did go back to like it's normal, but like that's how I could tell 503 00:40:37,900 --> 00:40:39,900 When I get better at that 504 00:40:40,500 --> 00:40:46,380 And I want to talk more about that metaphor that I said about scraping away the black 505 00:40:46,380 --> 00:40:50,540 left in my brain by the school system and 506 00:40:51,140 --> 00:40:56,020 I really think that's extremely important especially now while I'm in the school system because 507 00:40:57,100 --> 00:40:59,820 The way I see it is my whole life 508 00:40:59,820 --> 00:41:05,580 I was part of the system my whole life. I lived in this concrete box grew up 509 00:41:06,940 --> 00:41:13,500 Getting taught a bunch of lies about reality getting taught a bunch of garbage and 510 00:41:13,500 --> 00:41:15,140 And 511 00:41:15,140 --> 00:41:19,180 The way I see it is I have a broken world view right now 512 00:41:19,460 --> 00:41:27,300 Which is considered a normal world view, but the way I see it is it's broken. It doesn't reflect the reality of things and 513 00:41:28,740 --> 00:41:30,740 so I 514 00:41:30,860 --> 00:41:32,860 Have to kind of 515 00:41:33,100 --> 00:41:35,580 scrape it like I have to slowly but surely 516 00:41:36,300 --> 00:41:37,980 work on 517 00:41:37,980 --> 00:41:39,780 destroying it and 518 00:41:39,780 --> 00:41:42,300 shaping it back to how I how it should be and 519 00:41:42,300 --> 00:41:47,340 and trans reading trans surfing has actually like done a big 520 00:41:48,740 --> 00:41:55,220 Very good job at like destroying it and shaping it to what it's supposed to be 521 00:41:56,380 --> 00:41:58,540 Reading all these books are actually helping a lot 522 00:41:58,540 --> 00:42:00,900 But one thing that is actually helping 523 00:42:01,700 --> 00:42:03,260 tremendously is 524 00:42:03,260 --> 00:42:05,260 meditating because the inner work 525 00:42:06,100 --> 00:42:09,460 Like ever since I heard this one quote from Eman Gazi 526 00:42:09,460 --> 00:42:13,620 Most people don't do the inner work and that's why they're not successful 527 00:42:15,380 --> 00:42:19,260 Like ever since I heard that I've always like been 528 00:42:20,340 --> 00:42:24,820 Thinking about the inner work and I've obsessed over it because I'm just constantly 529 00:42:25,460 --> 00:42:30,820 Working on the inner work because I believe that that is exactly what will help me develop this 530 00:42:31,820 --> 00:42:37,300 like character that I want to become and world that I want to shape and 531 00:42:37,300 --> 00:42:43,020 And so one like meditation has helped so much just plain meditation 532 00:42:43,540 --> 00:42:48,860 I've been doing meditating consistently for the past like four months. Maybe three months and 533 00:42:49,900 --> 00:42:53,580 In the first few months like three or two or three months 534 00:42:53,580 --> 00:42:58,140 I was simply just sitting and clearing my thoughts sitting in silence 535 00:42:58,940 --> 00:43:02,300 Just clearing my thoughts not doing any exercises in my mind 536 00:43:03,020 --> 00:43:04,100 and 537 00:43:04,100 --> 00:43:09,340 That was helping and I definitely felt that that was like clearing all of the 538 00:43:10,460 --> 00:43:12,780 it was helping to clear and 539 00:43:14,020 --> 00:43:20,700 Kind of heal my mind and my focus and my concentration and my attention. It was helping to 540 00:43:21,700 --> 00:43:24,540 Undo what tick tock did tick tock 541 00:43:25,420 --> 00:43:27,420 Destroyed my mind social media 542 00:43:27,820 --> 00:43:33,340 YouTube all that stuff destroyed my mind in the sense where it lowered my attention span a 543 00:43:33,340 --> 00:43:39,620 Reduce my focus my concentration all that so just plain meditation helped to 544 00:43:40,020 --> 00:43:43,420 Bring my focus back and my attention to my concentration back 545 00:43:44,500 --> 00:43:48,420 But then it wasn't until I started to do 546 00:43:49,060 --> 00:43:53,660 Exercises like I did I started the gateway experience and in that you 547 00:43:54,140 --> 00:43:56,140 The first exercise that you do 548 00:43:56,700 --> 00:44:01,740 Every single meditation is called the energy conversion box is basically where you place in a bunch of 549 00:44:01,740 --> 00:44:03,740 bad things into it 550 00:44:04,980 --> 00:44:09,500 So there's like eight or nine things that I place into it every single exercise and 551 00:44:10,140 --> 00:44:13,940 that I felt was the first step to actually like 552 00:44:15,620 --> 00:44:23,140 Do the inner work and clean up all the garbage that is in my mind because I see my mind as a 553 00:44:23,140 --> 00:44:33,180 Just I see my mind as land and then when you grow up in a society like what I grew up in 554 00:44:34,060 --> 00:44:36,060 the American society 555 00:44:36,460 --> 00:44:39,580 Normal the Western civilization if you grow up in that 556 00:44:40,140 --> 00:44:44,940 Then over your lifetime like or even over in your childhood 557 00:44:45,740 --> 00:44:52,180 They start dumping trash into your sacred land like they dump trash through the school system 558 00:44:52,180 --> 00:44:54,180 they dump trash 559 00:44:54,420 --> 00:44:56,260 rapidly through 560 00:44:56,260 --> 00:44:58,260 TikTok and social medias and 561 00:45:00,340 --> 00:45:08,220 It eventually your mind your sacred land your sacred space becomes a dump and that's why most people can't even control 562 00:45:08,700 --> 00:45:10,700 their attention from a 563 00:45:10,820 --> 00:45:14,700 Long period of time they can't even control their attention for more than like three seconds 564 00:45:15,420 --> 00:45:18,100 Which that was me a few months ago now 565 00:45:18,100 --> 00:45:23,980 I'm able to control it for maybe like 15 seconds and then I lose control so I still have a long way to go 566 00:45:25,140 --> 00:45:27,140 but I 567 00:45:27,780 --> 00:45:29,980 I feel as though my whole life 568 00:45:29,980 --> 00:45:34,900 I've been dumping a lot of trash in it and so now I have to start cleaning it up and 569 00:45:36,940 --> 00:45:41,260 Meditation and doing the energy conversion box really helps to clean that up 570 00:45:42,020 --> 00:45:45,300 Reading really helps to find all the trash and help me 571 00:45:45,300 --> 00:45:50,900 Like figure out because I definitely know that once I start reading like die-wise 572 00:45:50,940 --> 00:45:56,740 I'll be able to pinpoint a lot a big trash area because currently the death 573 00:45:57,020 --> 00:46:00,660 Thing like being afraid of death is kind of unknown to me 574 00:46:00,660 --> 00:46:05,180 So I don't know where that trash pile is in my mind once I start reading die-wise 575 00:46:05,420 --> 00:46:08,900 I'll be able to know exactly what to do during my meditations 576 00:46:08,900 --> 00:46:15,780 And I'll slowly but surely start to put in like certain things in the energy conversion box as well as add affirmations 577 00:46:16,100 --> 00:46:18,980 and I found that affirmations actually help a lot because 578 00:46:20,300 --> 00:46:25,180 Tiktok especially has like shaped my mind to 579 00:46:26,740 --> 00:46:28,940 Look at girls and women 580 00:46:30,020 --> 00:46:32,020 sexually and like 581 00:46:32,260 --> 00:46:34,420 basically look at them and 582 00:46:35,500 --> 00:46:37,500 basically idolize them and 583 00:46:37,500 --> 00:46:39,300 just all around 584 00:46:39,300 --> 00:46:41,300 Not good for my mental 585 00:46:41,820 --> 00:46:45,420 And that was a bad thing and I still like do this to this day 586 00:46:45,420 --> 00:46:49,740 But I found that energy conversion box. I put girls in the energy conversion box 587 00:46:50,500 --> 00:46:55,300 That helps but another thing that is extreme like one of the better things that that I've done 588 00:46:55,700 --> 00:46:57,780 to kind of fix this is 589 00:46:58,860 --> 00:47:03,340 State in my affirmation. I am a man with high standards when it comes to women 590 00:47:03,340 --> 00:47:07,740 Simple as that. I just say that three times in my affirmation and 591 00:47:08,900 --> 00:47:11,300 Every single time I see it like a girl 592 00:47:12,060 --> 00:47:20,100 That I would like lost over I always just I've been more like usually I would just instantly fall asleep and 593 00:47:20,780 --> 00:47:25,260 just like stare or not even stare but like think about them and like all that 594 00:47:26,180 --> 00:47:28,340 garbage that society has basically 595 00:47:29,100 --> 00:47:31,100 taught us to do 596 00:47:31,100 --> 00:47:36,820 But now I actually have this moment where I actually start to wake up and I'm starting to wake up a lot more and more 597 00:47:36,860 --> 00:47:40,220 To the point where a lot of times when I instantly see 598 00:47:41,420 --> 00:47:43,420 Like catch a sight of a girl I 599 00:47:45,100 --> 00:47:50,700 Instantly like say I'm a man with high standards when it comes to women and I say I'm like I've 600 00:47:51,060 --> 00:47:53,060 standards high standards and 601 00:47:53,180 --> 00:47:57,700 That like does two things it allows me not to chase a 602 00:47:58,300 --> 00:48:00,300 like low quality girl 603 00:48:00,300 --> 00:48:04,460 Not to waste energy on low quality girl as well as it keeps me focused 604 00:48:04,820 --> 00:48:08,820 Keeps me focused on my mission because these are all distractions around me 605 00:48:09,580 --> 00:48:10,820 and 606 00:48:10,820 --> 00:48:15,860 That's another that's a one quote that I read in the book dance. That's me as a sasua's I 607 00:48:17,500 --> 00:48:21,460 Forgot what it was. It was like the average man chases 608 00:48:22,940 --> 00:48:26,860 Like fake girls or low quality girls and 609 00:48:26,860 --> 00:48:28,860 Like the 610 00:48:29,820 --> 00:48:35,780 Mediocracy is all about low quality girls like fake fake girls or something like that 611 00:48:36,660 --> 00:48:41,940 But I understand the concepts and it's basically just don't go for low quality 612 00:48:42,660 --> 00:48:44,660 Don't chase low quality 613 00:48:46,220 --> 00:48:48,380 Focus on your mission focus on your purpose 614 00:48:49,300 --> 00:48:51,820 my friend a couple weeks ago 615 00:48:51,820 --> 00:48:59,460 He's one year younger than me and he was asking me if he said he has girl problems and he was like 616 00:48:59,460 --> 00:49:05,420 I want a girlfriend. I'm like and then he was like do you have a girlfriend? I said no he said 617 00:49:06,740 --> 00:49:08,980 Do you want to get a girlfriend? I was like no 618 00:49:08,980 --> 00:49:12,980 I gotta stay on my I have to stay on my purpose stay on my mission 619 00:49:13,180 --> 00:49:18,740 And he was like well, do you think I should get one and I said no, absolutely not you need to stay focused on your mission 620 00:49:18,740 --> 00:49:22,060 Stay focused on your purpose because these are all distractions and 621 00:49:23,300 --> 00:49:25,300 the thing is I 622 00:49:25,420 --> 00:49:27,420 Heard Hamza talk about it one time where 623 00:49:28,420 --> 00:49:29,500 you 624 00:49:29,500 --> 00:49:35,620 He basically went through a few girlfriends and he found that he like outgrew them 625 00:49:37,140 --> 00:49:42,500 And he was on self-improvement and by the time within like a few months 626 00:49:42,500 --> 00:49:50,420 He had grown so much as a man and improved himself so much and the girl the woman the woman couldn't keep up 627 00:49:50,420 --> 00:49:55,860 And so he broke up and then went to a different one and then the same thing happened 628 00:49:55,860 --> 00:50:00,880 And then he decided to stay alone for a little bit because you simply outgrow them like 629 00:50:01,860 --> 00:50:03,860 another thing is in 630 00:50:04,140 --> 00:50:05,660 like 631 00:50:05,660 --> 00:50:07,660 one year two years 632 00:50:07,660 --> 00:50:12,180 We're gonna be so far ahead of like everyone else 633 00:50:12,180 --> 00:50:19,420 We're gonna be so far ahead of everyone else like in our society in our school because if you look around 634 00:50:19,860 --> 00:50:22,380 Look around at everyone surrounding you 635 00:50:22,900 --> 00:50:28,380 They they don't even like most people aren't even on self-improvement and the people that are on self-improvement 636 00:50:28,380 --> 00:50:33,580 Like they're not even like learning about spirituality and meditation and like getting deep into this stuff 637 00:50:33,580 --> 00:50:39,900 They're not they're not listening to this podcast. They're not learning about the gateway experience. They're not learning about 638 00:50:41,220 --> 00:50:47,220 The world and how we're dying like the world is dying global warming. They're not worried about spirituality 639 00:50:49,500 --> 00:50:51,700 And I'm so grateful that I went down this path 640 00:50:52,940 --> 00:50:54,940 Because all around me I see people 641 00:50:56,620 --> 00:51:02,580 Now I've kind of started to tune it out which is good because before I I got into a lot of 642 00:51:02,580 --> 00:51:04,580 Before I actually 643 00:51:04,740 --> 00:51:10,740 Especially when I was first becoming conscious of this I was extremely aware of the people around me and how everyone was asleep 644 00:51:10,740 --> 00:51:12,740 Everyone was on their phones 645 00:51:13,340 --> 00:51:16,980 But I'm starting to nail it like I don't even notice people on their phones anymore 646 00:51:16,980 --> 00:51:22,340 I don't notice people like being asleep. I don't notice like this stuff much anymore 647 00:51:22,340 --> 00:51:33,500 Which is good because it's starting to exit my worldview. I'm starting to tune all this stuff out because it's a waste waste of energy and 648 00:51:33,500 --> 00:51:37,260 It's just a matter of time just maintain this path and then 649 00:51:37,900 --> 00:51:41,500 Over time I'll add more and more things to my routine like I'll add more 650 00:51:42,420 --> 00:51:48,260 I'll add more get rid of more like one of another quote is is easier to be great by 651 00:51:48,260 --> 00:51:52,740 Getting rid of things than to add things like 652 00:51:53,660 --> 00:51:55,660 if you 653 00:51:55,820 --> 00:52:01,660 Want to see through a window that has like a bunch of post-it notes or pictures on it 654 00:52:02,420 --> 00:52:09,020 It's easier to see through it if you get rid of a bunch of that stuff rather than add a little bit more stuff to it 655 00:52:09,020 --> 00:52:21,340 Like the ability to get rid of things is one of the greatest abilities all I remember when I was 656 00:52:22,460 --> 00:52:28,180 First getting self-improvement and I was like, oh, I'm never gonna delete YouTube or oh, I'm never gonna delete 657 00:52:28,620 --> 00:52:32,500 Tiktok or Instagram. Oh, I'm not gonna not go on my phone 658 00:52:32,500 --> 00:52:38,780 Oh, I'm not never gonna delete clash of clans like clash clans was a big game that I played throughout my childhood and 659 00:52:39,020 --> 00:52:41,020 I developed like 660 00:52:41,100 --> 00:52:44,500 My base a lot on that game and I was like, oh, I'm never gonna delete this 661 00:52:44,500 --> 00:52:49,340 I'm just I'm gonna have this on my phone for the rest of my life and I'm gonna play it all of 662 00:52:50,140 --> 00:52:53,140 Throughout my entire life and I'm gonna show my kids how good I am 663 00:52:53,980 --> 00:52:54,860 and 664 00:52:54,860 --> 00:53:02,180 Then literally like a week later. I deleted the app. I deleted the game. I haven't I haven't downloaded that ever since and 665 00:53:02,700 --> 00:53:04,700 I'm not on my phone anymore 666 00:53:04,820 --> 00:53:12,340 The only reason I am on my phone at all is to record shorts every day and then post it and that's it 667 00:53:12,340 --> 00:53:14,340 That's all I do on my phone 668 00:53:15,340 --> 00:53:20,140 Like the ability to just delete things from your life is so valuable 669 00:53:20,140 --> 00:53:22,860 I was holding my self back for so long 670 00:53:22,860 --> 00:53:29,380 Just holding on to the phone holding on to YouTube all that stuff 671 00:53:30,420 --> 00:53:31,660 and 672 00:53:31,660 --> 00:53:36,780 I remember junior year towards the end of the year. I was really going through the 673 00:53:37,500 --> 00:53:42,500 I was going through all my social medias and I was just deleting my accounts. I wasn't just deleting the apps 674 00:53:42,500 --> 00:53:45,980 I was deleting my entire account off of the app and 675 00:53:45,980 --> 00:53:54,820 And there if you've ever deleted an account, you know that there's a 30-day period of where you delete the account and then 676 00:53:55,220 --> 00:53:59,260 If you log in within 30 days your account gets reactivated 677 00:53:59,740 --> 00:54:03,340 So you have to wait 30 days until it's completely deleted 678 00:54:03,860 --> 00:54:06,740 and so I did that for all of my 679 00:54:07,980 --> 00:54:09,980 like social media stuff and 680 00:54:09,980 --> 00:54:16,940 I remember those 30 days were a very long and like kind of stressful period of my 681 00:54:18,340 --> 00:54:22,060 Junior year not because I was like wanting to get on it 682 00:54:22,060 --> 00:54:26,660 But because I wanted it to be deleted so soon. I wanted it to be gone 683 00:54:26,660 --> 00:54:30,380 I wanted it just be out of out of sight out of mind 684 00:54:31,700 --> 00:54:33,700 and 685 00:54:34,140 --> 00:54:37,180 That was one of the best decisions that I've ever made 686 00:54:37,180 --> 00:54:41,900 because even if it was deleting the actual account 687 00:54:42,500 --> 00:54:47,220 Was so much better of a decision. I got so much more benefit out of it than simply 688 00:54:47,820 --> 00:54:51,500 deleting the app and maintaining the account because I 689 00:54:52,500 --> 00:54:56,060 was I remember over summer when I was telling my friend about this and 690 00:54:56,460 --> 00:55:03,100 Like I had deleted social media for quite some time, but my friend hadn't he just deleted the apps. He didn't delete his accounts and 691 00:55:03,100 --> 00:55:10,580 So I remember telling him about this and I was like, well, you got to delete the accounts because the moment you 692 00:55:11,060 --> 00:55:13,300 Like delete it. It just gets 693 00:55:14,220 --> 00:55:16,220 deleted out of your subconscious 694 00:55:18,340 --> 00:55:24,540 Like when you completely eradicate it and have no point of return it's deleted off your subconscious 695 00:55:26,100 --> 00:55:30,500 And so you instantly alleviate so much more mental energy 696 00:55:30,500 --> 00:55:36,540 So the ability to delete things off of your life is so valuable and 697 00:55:37,860 --> 00:55:42,220 Right now one of the biggest things that I'm struggling with to delete out of my life is school 698 00:55:43,100 --> 00:55:47,620 It will be deleted automatically in 70 70 days, but I 699 00:55:48,620 --> 00:55:50,620 Wanted to be deleted earlier and 700 00:55:51,660 --> 00:55:53,660 the thing is I 701 00:55:53,660 --> 00:55:59,820 Could just not go to school for the rest of the semester and still 702 00:56:00,820 --> 00:56:06,460 Graduate which is all that my parents want. They just want me to graduate, but they do want me to have good grades. I 703 00:56:07,140 --> 00:56:09,020 could do all that but 704 00:56:09,020 --> 00:56:11,020 the thing is that 705 00:56:11,020 --> 00:56:14,700 The as of this year like it wasn't like this last year 706 00:56:14,700 --> 00:56:21,180 But this year the school added a 12-day attendance policy where you have to be in school 707 00:56:21,180 --> 00:56:24,900 You only get 12 days 12 absences 708 00:56:26,860 --> 00:56:33,780 Until you fail the class so if you are absent 12 times you're out of there you're you fail the class so then 709 00:56:34,380 --> 00:56:40,620 My the number one thing I do not want to happen is to fail the class and then have to take it again next semester 710 00:56:40,860 --> 00:56:45,500 Which means that I'll have to become another part-time student because you can't just take one class 711 00:56:45,500 --> 00:56:54,060 You have to take an entire schedule and the small schedule they offers for four periods, which is what I'm doing 712 00:56:55,700 --> 00:57:01,260 So I'd have to maintain this schedule all of next semester if I if I fail the class 713 00:57:01,340 --> 00:57:03,780 So that's why I'm not feeling class 714 00:57:05,420 --> 00:57:08,020 Because I know that I would rather a 715 00:57:10,420 --> 00:57:13,260 Rather stay in school for 716 00:57:13,260 --> 00:57:20,540 Just 70 days then fail and be in a situation where I'm forced to go for an entire another semester 717 00:57:20,540 --> 00:57:22,540 I cannot I can't 718 00:57:23,100 --> 00:57:25,100 survive another semester 719 00:57:26,020 --> 00:57:30,860 That would be the epitome of like death for me I 720 00:57:31,580 --> 00:57:36,140 Would be able to survive it, but I just that would not be a very good time for me 721 00:57:39,100 --> 00:57:40,620 But 722 00:57:40,620 --> 00:57:42,620 every day like 723 00:57:42,620 --> 00:57:44,860 There there's one thing that I would talk 724 00:57:46,820 --> 00:57:48,820 Right now I am 725 00:57:49,380 --> 00:57:56,740 The dangerous thing about adding things to your identity is that once you realize that you need to outgrow it to make the next 10x jump 726 00:57:57,140 --> 00:57:59,820 It's hard to because it's part of your identity 727 00:57:59,820 --> 00:58:07,820 And one of the things that added to my identity is recording a one hour long podcast every single day or at least 728 00:58:08,100 --> 00:58:11,300 Posting a one hour long podcast every single day 729 00:58:11,300 --> 00:58:18,500 which a one hour long podcast daily is a lot and I'm just realizing that because 730 00:58:19,460 --> 00:58:22,420 It's good for the first maybe 80 days 731 00:58:23,340 --> 00:58:30,140 But I reach a certain point where my I don't know if my actual episodes are gaining much quality 732 00:58:30,700 --> 00:58:32,820 So I'm reaching a point where it's simple 733 00:58:32,820 --> 00:58:39,160 It's simply just quantity now and the way to actually make it quality is to have more time to prepare and 734 00:58:39,160 --> 00:58:41,160 script like or actually 735 00:58:42,160 --> 00:58:44,160 create a 736 00:58:44,680 --> 00:58:48,000 Outline like lately I've been writing out outlines for my episode 737 00:58:49,640 --> 00:58:56,320 But I feel as though it needs to be like more or I need a little bit more time to actually learn more 738 00:58:57,440 --> 00:59:01,520 So I've been kind of thinking maybe I should do like less time 739 00:59:01,520 --> 00:59:09,040 Episodes maybe not one hour maybe like 30 minutes or 20 minutes or maybe I should like 740 00:59:10,120 --> 00:59:14,720 Make every other day or once a week. I don't know I just 741 00:59:15,200 --> 00:59:23,040 My first goal or my first like the reason why I created this podcast in the first place was to try and prove or disprove 742 00:59:23,840 --> 00:59:25,840 the statement that Russell Brunson 743 00:59:26,400 --> 00:59:30,280 Said well, I'm actually trying to prove it. I'm not trying to disprove it because that'd be dumb 744 00:59:30,280 --> 00:59:36,000 I'm trying to prove Russell Brunson statement of that if you post every day for an entire year 745 00:59:36,360 --> 00:59:38,360 You'll never have to worry about money again 746 00:59:39,240 --> 00:59:43,920 So that's why I'm trying to prove it and so I figured that if I do one hour episodes 747 00:59:45,120 --> 00:59:47,120 Then it will be good 748 00:59:48,040 --> 00:59:50,960 So I'm at a position where right now in my current 749 00:59:51,760 --> 00:59:53,440 like 750 00:59:53,440 --> 00:59:58,680 For the next 70 days, I'm still in school where it's just a grind to get all these episodes out 751 00:59:58,680 --> 01:00:01,840 Not really like that. It's not a lot of work 752 01:00:01,840 --> 01:00:07,040 It's just a grind to keep up and actually learn enough to actually talk about it 753 01:00:08,800 --> 01:00:12,960 But oh in the next seven like one school is over for me 754 01:00:12,960 --> 01:00:18,720 I'll have like a lot of time freed up and so I'll be able to 755 01:00:19,600 --> 01:00:26,680 Have a rent brand new schedule and I know I talked about how it was gonna have a new schedule during this school year. I 756 01:00:26,680 --> 01:00:28,680 Don't think I'm gonna do that 757 01:00:29,560 --> 01:00:35,520 Because it's it's not much worth it to have two rest days when I would only have like four 758 01:00:35,800 --> 01:00:42,360 Less than like four hours of rest by the time I get home. No, I'm not honestly like one hour of rest 759 01:00:42,600 --> 01:00:44,600 It's not really much worth it 760 01:00:44,680 --> 01:00:50,760 I'm just gonna maintain this until I get to the end. But there's one thing that I haven't done yet that I need to do is 761 01:00:51,840 --> 01:00:53,840 discover my five pillars 762 01:00:53,840 --> 01:01:01,760 for the podcast like right now I only have two pillars meditation and spirituality and if you guys haven't noticed or no 763 01:01:02,760 --> 01:01:06,680 spirituality and worldview which spirituality is meditation but 764 01:01:07,880 --> 01:01:11,640 If you guys haven't noticed all of my episodes lately have just been about 765 01:01:13,040 --> 01:01:19,920 spirituality and meditation honestly like all my episodes in my entire show have been about meditation and spirituality in some way or another 766 01:01:19,920 --> 01:01:23,160 or spirituality and worldview so 767 01:01:24,720 --> 01:01:31,400 I'm trying to figure things out along the way but to wrap things up. Don't forget to download your favorite episodes and 768 01:01:32,080 --> 01:01:34,080 Subscribe to the ascend momentum show 769 01:01:34,080 --> 01:01:50,200 But before you guys leave make sure to look up at the sky. I