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Oct. 28, 2023
96. You Can Heal
Todays lessons:
- The system is designed to keep you trapped through your mind
- Heal after being exposed to the conditioning by reading, meditating and being in solitude in nature
- Develop your second bodies virtual senses
Transcript
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Did you know that we live in a system, a society that has manufactured a system to keep you
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down?
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If you've been following this podcast, you probably do know that, and you've probably
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been thinking a lot about it lately.
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I know I have.
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I've been really going down the rabbit hole over these past couple months.
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And I've come to the conclusion so far that the system is in place to keep you down and
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to keep you trapped.
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And it does it in many different ways, like the school system, like the education, all...
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That's the only one that I can think about right now, but that's like the main thing,
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the school system into the workforce, into the working a nine to five job.
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And then also there's the social aspect of things.
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Because everyone else around you is being conditioned, then they're also under that
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programming.
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So that means that they're conditioning you as well, especially people that are older
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than you.
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They've been conditioned a lot longer, so they're helping out to condition you.
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This is why teachers in the school system are part of the system, because they've been
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conditioned to teach the conditioning.
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And I wrote down that the whole system is designed to keep you trapped by programming
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your thinking.
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So basically it doesn't keep you trapped like a normal prison does inside of walls behind
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a locked gate.
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It keeps you trapped through your thinking.
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Like you feel trapped.
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This is why so many people find themselves if they have a job that they know they want
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to quit.
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They're like, they don't want to quit because they feel trapped.
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They want to quit, but they don't because they have a fear.
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And that fear stems from the fear of death, which is another part of the whole game.
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Society has, we live in a society where everyone expects to live another.
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Everyone feels like it's their right to live a long and full life in our society.
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Everyone takes, basically feels like it's an undisputed fact that they're going to live.
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They're going to live.
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When in other cultures, they know that life happens and they know that your life is not
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guaranteed.
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And our society with modern medicine has really a toll on us because death is a very big factor
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in keeping us trapped.
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Like I said earlier, people don't want to quit their job because they have a fear.
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And all fear stems from one main fear and it's the fear of death.
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So it makes sense that the society takes advantage of that one main fear and ingrains everyone
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in it with that fear.
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And it does it.
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I don't know how it does it quite yet.
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And I don't really know exactly all the specifics, but there's one thing for sure.
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And it's that we are dying a lot longer.
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Our deaths are lasting a lot longer than they have ever before.
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And I'm reading a book called Died Wise right now and I'm learning all about it.
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And I just started the book.
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I'm probably on like page 70.
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So I'm not too far in.
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And over the next couple weeks or days, over the next week, I will definitely be talking
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about it a lot.
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I'm writing a lot of notes because soon there's going to be a few episodes dedicated to Died
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Wise.
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But with all of this, like all this said, how we live in a society that is conditioning
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us, keeping us trapped.
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Well there is hope.
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And that hope is to heal yourself.
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This is what I'm doing.
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I'm going down this path of healing while I'm still in the system.
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I'm still going to school.
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I'm still a senior.
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I still have two months left of school.
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In two months today is my last day of school.
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As of recording this, this is October 21st.
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And I am done with school in December 21st.
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So two months I'm done with school.
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So I'm at the pinnacle of the conditioning just at the end.
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But I'm not going to college.
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So I'm not quite there yet.
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But with all that said, I've been conditioned for 18 years of my life.
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And that means that there's some healing to do in order to break free.
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Right now I'm still confined in this prison that we see in the American, even Western
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society.
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So there's healing that you have to do.
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And there's a few things that I've been doing lately to heal.
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The first thing is read.
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Learn all of the stuff.
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You can't heal unless you know what's going on.
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And so first I'm reading.
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I'm going extremely redpill.
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I'm learning all about everything, the reality of our nature, the nature of our reality.
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I'm learning, I'm reading a lot of books that are going to teach me all this stuff.
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Really Transurfing is a big one.
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Dancing After The Music Stops was an introduction book to a lot of the stuff that I'm about
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to be reading in the coming days and weeks.
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Die-Wise right now I'm reading.
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Ascent on Humanity is one of the books that's going to start to lay out the foundation to
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the truth.
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I don't know what that means.
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I just read it in Dancing After The Music Stops.
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Gene Pasco-Rieman said that a scent of humanity, that book will lay out the foundation for how
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the world works and it will start your quest for the truth.
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So all these books are teaching me exactly like what I'm against, exactly what is going
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on and it's teaching me how I can fix it for myself.
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It's really allowing me to understand what parts of my brain to pick out, what parts
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of the conditioning or even what has been programmed into my brain.
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And so once you learn all that stuff, you got to heal and you do that through meditation.
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And I see meditating as healing ever since I used to watch TikTok and YouTube.
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I used to watch movies all the time.
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I used to be just a normal American citizen watching TikToks, scrolling on their phone
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all day, going on Snapchat, social media, all of that garbage.
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And so I realized, there was a certain point of time during this last summer when I realized
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that that's like I was on TikTok for years.
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So I was filling my head with a bunch of garbage, my focus, my concentration and my attention
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all plummeted.
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And so I saw meditation as a way to heal from that and to fix that.
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But I still see that.
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I still am meditating to heal and increase my focus.
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And I use meditation.
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Another way that I saw it as is a way to help me train my control over my thoughts.
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But lately, a month ago, a little over a month ago, I started this meditation exercise or
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this meditation tape.
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I started using the gateway experience, which is basically auditory.
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It's like sounds that you listen to that, it's like a guided meditation with sounds in it
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that help you like attune your brainwave frequencies to get to deeper levels of meditation.
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So it helps you, but it doesn't get you there.
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And I understood that from the get go.
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I understood that it was going to be a process and it was more like a long term game.
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It wasn't going to happen right away.
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It wasn't going to actually know.
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To be honest, I don't think I understood that in the beginning.
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But I had this vague sensation or intuitive understanding that I would have to do it in
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the long run because I added it to my routine.
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So that's how you can tell.
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Because I remember in the beginning, I was expecting it to take me a week to get focus
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12.
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No, it took me a month.
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But none of that matters because now I know.
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And I see meditating when you're using these gateway experience and when you're like pushing
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hard or what's the word?
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I see meditation similar to reading.
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Reading opens your understanding to all of these new ideas and concepts.
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You initially learn about this stuff.
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But then meditation, you have experiences.
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You have crazy experiences.
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If once you meditate for long enough using the gateway experience and you get advanced
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enough, you start to have crazy experiences.
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I haven't had any true crazy experiences yet, but I know that they're like, I don't know
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about the crazy experiences, but I know that eventually I'll be able to learn a lot and
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it'll help to destroy my worldview.
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Because meditation is the nature of these deep meditations like focus 12 and focus 15.
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Really go against normal society's worldview, Western civilization's worldview.
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And so it helps to break down those barriers and it helps to break down the walls of your
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worldview.
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But another thing is you see it, you feel it, you know it and you understand it for yourself
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because you experience it yourself.
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You don't just read it where there's a sliver of a doubt, but once you actually experience
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this stuff, that's when you start to know and that's when the real progress happens.
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And there's the after meditation, after healing, I see the third step, which is growth.
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And this like three step process is not really like a step for step process.
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I see it as just three things that you should focus on to heal.
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And currently I'm only doing number one and two because number three is solitude in nature.
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I read about it in Dancing After Music Stops.
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He towards the end of the book, he said the best piece of spiritual advice he can give
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is to go out, go in solitude out in nature, like go, go observe nature alone, go rent a
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cabin in the woods for a month and be alone.
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Go rent a cabin in Alaska for six months and be alone.
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Solitude in nature is when you start to actually grow spiritually.
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And so I see that as like another step to the healing process.
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Currently I'm like I said, I'm only doing number one and two.
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I'm only reading and I'm only meditating, which for my current position in life, my
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current situation, I feel like those are the best to do right now.
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Because though I could go out in nature in solitude, I could, I absolutely could.
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I'm still choosing not to for some reason.
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I still have work to do to really get that into my worldview.
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And to be honest, I'm waiting.
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I'm waiting on seeing success in my business, which I fear once I actually start to see
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success, I'll still be trapped and I'll find something else to wait on before I actually
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go out and do stuff.
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So I'm kind of in this crossroads where on one hand, I'm genuinely waiting because I'm
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growing spirit, I'm still growing spiritually and I'm still destroying my worldview.
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I'm still figuring these things out.
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But on the other hand, I know enough information I can take action now.
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But I'm also waiting for me to be financially free so I can set myself up for the rest of
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my life.
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So it's kind of either or and I'm prepared for it to take a year.
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I'm prepared for it to take over a year.
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Like I said, when I first started this podcast, I started it to get financial freedom.
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I started it for my own selfish reasons.
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But the reason why I'm staying, like if I truly started it for my own selfish reasons,
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I would not have made it to episode 95.
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I'm doing it for much more because early on in my podcasting like journey, I realized
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that it's really a personal development journey, this podcast, because if you listen to my
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first episode, my trailer, which by the way, I'm planning on making a new trailer soon
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I don't know what I want to do with that current one because I want to keep it up.
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I want to make sure that people can see like where I started.
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The best case scenario is that trailer becomes an episode and then I replace it with a new
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real trailer.
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So I don't know when I'll make the new trailer soon I will.
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But I might even do it after this episode.
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Who knows.
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But the thing is, this, I see this as a self improvement journey.
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I am my initial kind of starting my initial objective for this podcast was financial freedom.
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But it quickly switched, it quickly shift gears to I realized that I was doing this
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for much more.
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I was doing this one for my own personal development journey.
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I'm finding my voice and I'm actually practicing and speaking better.
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You can tell to compare this episode to episode one.
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There's a major difference and not even, I'm not even talking about the quality of the
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sound because episode one was recorded on a voice recorder, a tiny little voice recorder.
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And I, right now I have a microphone, but what I'm saying is my actual speech, the words
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that are coming out of my mouth are much more, I don't know, educated or just much more practiced.
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And so that's one reason this podcast has been helpful.
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And then another reason is because I want to document the journey.
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I want to look back at my growth.
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I want to be able to see like I've been doing in all these episodes.
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I compare myself to right now to where I was three months ago.
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And I want to be able to see once I reach episode 365, which by the way, that's the
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end number.
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Like that's a number I plan on finishing, but I don't plan on stopping recording.
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365 is that is kind of like the target number.
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That doesn't mean that I'm going to stop recording once I get 365 episodes.
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It just means that that's my target number that I'm going for.
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And once I get 365, I'll be able to look back at my journey of the past year, which is,
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if you've never done that, if you are on self improvement and you have never looked back
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at your progress, fit like if you've never written down your progress somewhere, somehow
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form you're missing out.
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And I recommend you start because this reminds me a couple like at the beginning of this
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year, 2023, January 1st, I wrote down all of my stats.
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So at the time I was not doing entrepreneurship.
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I was just focused on health.
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So my stats at the time were kind of swayed towards what I was experiencing, what I was
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actually improving at the time.
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For example, one of my stats is like my bench, how much I can bench, how much I can squat,
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like my, how heavy weight I can lift.
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But it wasn't my one rep max because I don't, I don't do that.
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It was like my reps, how much I can do for 10 reps or 12 reps.
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My current diet at the time was vegan.
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I was a vegan.
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I didn't write diet until January 7th, I believe it was, because January 7th, I was vegan.
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After I read a book called The China Study, but now I'm not vegan.
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I was vegan for like three months.
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And then I wrote down one thing towards the bottom because I was just trying to think
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like what other stats are there to write because I was, I really only had lifting and my fitness
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journey on my mind.
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What other things can I write down?
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So I was like, oh, money.
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What's my income?
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And I wrote down my income and I said zero, zero dollars.
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And I was like, I'm probably not going to actually work on that this year.
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Nope.
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I started working on it.
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Probably June or no, July.
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Just a couple of months ago I started working on it.
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Like I started working on business four months ago.
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Or not, I started like learning about business and getting serious.
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And then I started actually taking action, real action on my podcast, which you guys
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can see look back at time.
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It was 95 days ago.
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Looking back, there's a concept that I learned about in 10X is easier than 2X.
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gain.
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So there's a concept called the gap in the gain.
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If you look back at your growth and compare it to some unattainable, impossible goal,
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like you look at your progress over the past couple months and you're like, oh, I didn't
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make as much progress as I wanted.
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When you like getting at it yourself for that, that's called being in the gap.
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But when you look back at your progress and you like with a happiness and excitement and
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joy, that's called being in the gain.
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And I like being in the game because that is where you make the most of growth.
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You make the most progress.
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And it's also, it goes along with a trans surfing principle of coordination.
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Everything plays out for you.
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Everything works out for you.
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So all of this stuff, this journey, it doesn't happen right away.
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And it's actually quite, it's going slow.
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So in the gateway experience manual for Wave 1, there's a, in like, I don't remember which
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part it was in, but some of, one of the things that it said was over time, you'll become,
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you'll be able to perceive these, the energies more and more.
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to the gym per incremental growth over time.
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Or the other option is it will be like a flooded dam where you all of a sudden just know and
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you can see it all now.
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And I feel like that goes along with this business journey, this journey of documenting
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my growth.
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Because yeah, I'm growing incrementally, like on my RSS.com, my analytics for this podcast,
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the graph is incrementally getting better.
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Like last month, like in the first month, I had four rolling average subscribers.
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And then the second month, it was like six.
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And then the third month, it was seven.
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And then now it's like six.
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But it's like slowly incrementally getting higher and higher.
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Like the downloads per month in the beginning, it was low.
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And then it was a little bit higher and then slightly higher.
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Like that is slow incremental growth.
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And I can see that on my TikTok as well.
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On my TikTok, when I first started a couple of weeks ago, I had probably, well, I had
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zero followers.
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And then in like the first couple, in like the first week, I got one follower.
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And then every other day, I added another follower and then another.
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And now I have like 10 followers.
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So that's slow incremental growth.
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But I know once, I know this is more possible with the TikTok.
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Once I get like one viral video, that will like, that will be like the damn flooding.
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And then it'll be, it may or may not be free from there, depending on how much followers
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I receive, but it'll definitely be a huge boost.
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And on the podcast, I know once certain events happen, for example, once I talk on, like
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be a guest on another podcast, once I do that, then I'll get that exposure and then it'll
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be like a little boost.
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Or once like certain things happen, then I'll be able to really grow more on the podcast,
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which I definitely plan on changing the description.
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I'm definitely going to change a lot of this stuff on my channel because there is, I wrote
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like the description right when I first started and I had no idea what, where the podcast
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was going to go.
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And right now, it's definitely, I definitely have honed in on my message and I've definitely
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started to understand a lot more with what's going on.
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So with that said, I definitely plan on changing some stuff on my channel, but I'm going to
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take screenshots and I'm going to take, I'm going to like copy and paste everything that
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I delete in a Google doc because I still want you guys to be able to see my journey.
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I want you guys to see that I started from bad.
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And to be honest, I still am bad and it's apparent that I am because I have seven people
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listening to me, not the thousands or millions that I want to be listening to me.
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So I still have a lot of growth to go and that goes with just my skill as well as the
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business, like the quality of the podcast, the like perception that I'm giving to people
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because if people click on my channel and they listen to the trailer and it sucks, they're
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just going to click away.
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And I can tell because my trailer is my most viewed video.
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There's like 27 downloads on that trailer.
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I think it's 27, but there's like, like my trailers, my most viewed video.
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So it makes sense to change the trailer to something that's more how like, should I,
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how should I say it better for now?
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It's more, it actually represents my current growth, my current phase better, which I may
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change the trailer now and I may change it in another hundred days.
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Like I'm like in a hundred days, I'm probably going to be a lot better off.
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I will be a lot better off.
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Like my channel will be a lot better than it is now.
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So I'm probably going to change the trailer over time, multiple times.
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And that's like, it's just growth.
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Like things, you need to change things for growth to happen.
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And that's one of the hardest things to do yet.
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It's the most powerful and impactful things for your, for your growth change.
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It's cause there's, it's like a natural human instinct to not like change.
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We like things being consistent.
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But if you can overcome that, then you can actually manage to do good.
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And one thing that me and my friend Franklin actually did, which was to be honest, it was
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a pretty tough thing to do.
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It wasn't that hard, but it was like socially difficult.
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Cause we're both in a class called business incubator and we are, we initial, our initial
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plans were to complete the entire two semester course in one semester.
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But then we kind of like didn't like the idea anymore.
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actual businesses.
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And so lately we've, we haven't done anything for the, for that class.
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Like we've just been slacking the whole time.
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And so we realized that we don't want to do all this stuff.
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So we need to find an escape.
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Like we need to figure out how to get out of this.
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And so we made like this big, we like actually decided to quit the idea and switch groups,
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just like join with another group.
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So that was like a socially tough thing to do cause we announced it to everyone and people
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are like, what?
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Like it was, I mean, it, it wasn't like tough, but it was like mentally, it was like mentally
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difficult.
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Similar to how cold approach, like walking up to a girl and asking them for their number.
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That's difficult.
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Now, it was not nearly as difficult as that, but you get the idea.
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And that's all about like, that's all about making change.
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And as a result of that one action that we did, we saved a lot of our own personal time
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and mental power.
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So that's huge.
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All right.
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So I want to talk to you about something during summer.
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I really locked in on my fitness.
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I like lifted and then I went to the park every day, ran, did sprints.
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I was like barefoot outside on the park in the sun.
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Like my fitness and my health was at a peak.
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And then once school started, I was like, oh, I don't have any time to do, I don't have
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time to do cardio anymore.
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I don't have time to go outside anymore.
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So, and also I actually lowered the amount of gym time that I go to now.
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So I go to the gym three days on and two days off, which I was using that as an excuse because
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I heard that Hamza did that.
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He like dropped down his gym time to one day a week just to maintain.
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And so I was like, oh, maybe I can do that too.
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And then like I'm feeling the effects.
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I'm feeling not necessarily the gym, but I'm feeling the effects of not doing cardio.
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Cardio is so important to your success.
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And I haven't done cardio in a good two months.
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I've done a here and there, but not like consistently for two months.
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So I'm out of shape and I know it.
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Today there's this one thing that I've noticed.
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Once people get out of shape and they get like roll into their routine, it's difficult
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for them to get back into it.
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And I see that time and time again with people around me.
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And this morning when I was like reading, I was doing my morning studies and it was the
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week, it's the weekend.
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So I had extra time.
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I took my nap and then studied some more and I was like, oh, I'm kind of losing focus
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right now would be a perfect time to go to the park and do some sprints.
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And I was like, and I could tell that I was not wanting to do it.
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I could tell that I was resisting.
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I could tell that was becoming complacent and lazy.
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And I want to expose that factor right now.
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I want to expose it out in the open publicly because over the past two months, I thought
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that it was okay to not do any conditioning.
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No, absolutely not.
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It's essential.
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Your focus is better when you're more crystal.
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Like your attention is more dialed in.
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Your concentration is stronger.
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Everything goes well when you're in good shape.
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Video wise, fitness wise, your gym experience is so much better.
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I noticed that over summer I was able, I was lifting good and I wasn't really out of breath
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after.
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And then now when I go to the gym, I'm out of breath.
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I'm like breathing.
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I'm taking, I have to take time to breathe after every set.
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And it's like it affects every single aspect of your life.
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Like do you know when, do you ever experience waking up, especially on the weekends and
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you like, like I do my normal routine, but this feeling of feeling, feeling like lazy.
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Even though I'm studying, I'm not like on my phone, feels lazy because I'm not going
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out, I'm not doing physical labor.
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I'm not doing like physical exercise.
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So something's got to change in my day.
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I've got to figure out where I can add in cardio because this is like not acceptable.
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Is unacceptable that I am out of shape?
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Like that's unacceptable.
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So I wanted to expose that on the open and let that be known.
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So one other thing, I want to talk, okay, so I want to completely shift the topic.
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Go back to my meditations.
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If you've been following these past couple of weeks, honestly like this past week or
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two, I don't, I don't remember the exact day I started.
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Let's just say two weeks ago, I started Wave 2 on the gateway experience and right now
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I'm talking about meditation.
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So two weeks ago, I started Wave 2 just for argument sake or just for conversation sake.
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Let's just say two weeks ago.
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I have been like getting into focus 12 three times a day, practicing and practicing because
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I know that right away I'm not going to be able to actually achieve focus 12 because I
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have not practiced my second body.
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So basically when you're meditating or just anytime, you have a second body and that's
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like your body that you experience your meditations through out of body experiences and dreaming
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as well when you're asleep.
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So you perceive all of these things through your second body and if it's out of practice,
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it just makes sense.
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If you've never practiced it, just like anything else, if you've never practiced juggling,
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well then you're not going to be able to do it.
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But then once you practice and get those reps in over time after a couple days, weeks, months
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of practice, you'll be able to actually do it.
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So I see it as the same way for meditation.
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I see the gateway experience as helping you be able to be more efficient at practicing.
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But you still have to do the practice and I've understood that ever since I started
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the gateway experience, which is why I added it to my routine.
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I have initially it was two times a day and now it's three times a day.
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And it is definitely beneficial to do that.
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Like I've definitely noticed that I'm incrementally getting better.
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Like I said, there's two routes.
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There's either incremental improvement over time or incremental improvement over time
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until the damn floods, like the flood, the dam is flooded and then it's a burst of growth.
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And so right now for me, it's just incremental improvement.
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And one thing that I've noticed, I want to give some context, which I read this in the
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gateway experience, wave one manual, but I forgot about it and then I re-read it today.
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And in it, there's a, in the frequently asked questions FAQ page, there's one question that
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said like, is the surge of light Jesus or is it God?
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That was the question.
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And so they basically explained that it's common amongst travelers to experience the
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like surge of light and like sudden extreme light.
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And what that means is that they're becoming more perceptive to these energies and more
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perceptive to the deeper focus levels.
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And then they said that they don't like endorse any religion or the other.
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Like some people may perceive it as Christ, some people Buddha, like they just said that.
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But one thing that I realized is that that meant that I'm getting more perceptive.
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And if you guys been listening over the past couple, I don't know when I got my first like
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flash of light, but a couple, let's just say a couple, like a week ago, I got my first
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kind of flash of light.
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I was in my meditation and I noticed that I was kind of like dozing off, but I was trying
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to stay like disciplined and stay focused.
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But I was like tired.
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So it was like inevitable that I was going to lose my focus, but I just had to bring
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it back and back every time.
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And so I noticed that my, I was like, my mind was like losing its control.
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It's, it was releasing in script of control.
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And then there was like one instant where just for an instant moment, my mind like like
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release its control for just a moment.
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And in that moment, like my entire, by the way, I, I do my meditations in a pitch black
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room.
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Like my room is fully optimized for sleep.
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It's pitch black.
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I nailed, I nailed curtains, blackout curtains on the door frame.
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So there's no air like, uh, what's called no light going in through there.
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And I nailed it on my window frame as well.
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So my room is pitch black.
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You can't see a thing in there.
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And so when I was in that meditation, my, when my mind like release its control for
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one instant moment, like a flash of light, like flooded my perception and my eyes were
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closed and my room was pitch black and no one came in my room.
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So they couldn't have turned on the lights.
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And just for an instant, I saw like just pure brightness, pure light.
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And then I was like, whoa, what is that?
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And then I like my mind woke up and then it ended.
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And then just the other day, maybe like yesterday or two days ago or three days ago, I had a
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similar experience, same, same environment, same situation.
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I was a little tired and then my mind like clicked out, essentially like my mind like
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released its grip.
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And then I had the same experience of pure light, except this time there was like three
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dark like shadows on, and they looked like human figures.
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They looked in the shape of humans, three dark shadows on the bottom right of my perception.
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And when I say perception, it's because like I said, it's practiced through second body.
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So right now you're not going to be able to perceive the meditations through your physical
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senses, your physical body, what you're in right now.
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But you have to develop your second body's senses and you have to develop your perception
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from your second body.
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And that's what I've been doing.
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I've been practicing it.
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And so my perception was getting clearer, but it was still an instant moment.
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I was like, oh, that's cool.
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And then today during my meditation just before this episode, I had a similar experience,
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except it was not, it was like the same circumstances, same dark environment, same, but I always
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sleep in the same position, same bed, same everything, or not sleep, but meditate and
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sleep actually, but I don't sleep in the same position.
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Okay, whatever.
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So I sleep or I meditate in that position.
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And this time, like my mind was tired again.
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And this time I like clicked out my mind releases grip, except this time it was not like brightness,
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it was not pure light.
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This time I just saw like this, it looked like a piece of page like a page from a book.
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And it was instant, it was another instant moment where I saw a, it looked like black
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ink, but it looked like a foreign language and I couldn't make out because it was, I
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couldn't make out what it was or what it was saying because it was just an instant moment.
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And I saw the, it was like a page like my entire perception was filled with a piece
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of paper with black writing on it, black ink that looked like a different language and
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I couldn't tell what language it was.
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And to be honest, I don't really remember like much other than that.
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It was just white page black ink with text throughout the whole thing, just like a piece
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of paper from a, taken out from a book, but it was white and black on the, and I instantly
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knew it was like, I kind of had the sense that it was a piece of paper with, with like
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text on it, but I didn't know what it was.
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And when it ended, when my mind woke up, I was like scared, my heart rate rose.
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Like when, like in the first two experiences, when I experienced light, I was not scared.
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I was like, oh, that was cool.
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But this time I was like scared, I was startled and I don't know why.
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Like I was scared and I was like, oh my gosh, that was crazy.
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And I was, and then I instantly was like, oh, when's the next one going to happen?
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Maybe another one will happen in this meditation, which I instantly became conscious of that
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because that's an expectation.
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You have to drop those expectations.
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But that's good.
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That's good that these are happening because that is giving me another kind of motivation
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or not motivation, but it's giving me another kind of guidepost or sign that I am actually
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making progress and I'm actually working towards something better because for the whole first
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month I didn't experience anything because I was just doing focus 10.
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And to be honest, I believe that all of these experiences occurred in focus 10.
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Like right when I got into the meditation, once I got into focus 10, it like happened.
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So I don't know.
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It may have happened in focus 12, I don't know, but it just shows that I'm getting better.
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Like my virtual senses are getting stronger, more used, like they're actually being able
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to be used.
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And if you guys are interested in like learning what I'm doing, some of the tips that I learned
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is in order to build your virtual senses, which for me it's difficult because I don't, I'm
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like, I can't visualize, but I can kind of feel.
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So I can't like see things in my mind's eye, but I can feel it, if that makes sense, but
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I can still kind of see in the sense to, if I could translate it on paper and like draw
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out what I can visualize.
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For example, I can like draw out my current goal on paper, even though I can't see it,
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I can kind of feel it, but whatever.
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So pretty much I only see blackness, the only times that I've ever actually experienced
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anything other than blackness are when I just see those random like color shapes in my mind,
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which are rare, I can't induce them on purpose.
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Like sometimes I see like a red shape that changes form constantly, that I don't really
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count that.
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And the only other time ever is those three experiences during those meditations that
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I experienced, the pure light, the pure light with the three dark figures, and then the
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like page, a piece of paper with text written on it.
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Those are the three times that I've ever actually experienced a like something other than darkness.
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And so the strategy that I use to develop my second body, to develop my senses, my virtual
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senses basically, is exactly what someone who could visualize well would do.
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Because I learned that there are a few ways you can do it.
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First of all, you practice, you visualize things that you do in real life.
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So that's why once I learned about that, I started visualizing my routine at my slide.
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So initially, I was just in my slide, just like walking or like kind of being there,
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not really doing anything.
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But now I actually have a purpose, I go through my daily routine, more obviously it's more
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optimal for like the resources I have at my slide, like my goal.
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So basically I visualize my goal, which is my slide.
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My slide is me visualize my goal.
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By the way, if you're not familiar with that trans surfing term.
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So I visualize my goal, which is me at Hawaii, at a nice house that I own on my own, that's
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like a beach house that is on my own private beach with surfing waves.
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So I visualize my slide, but I go through my routine because I do my routine in real
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life.
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So basically the first tip is to do things in your visualization that you would do in
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real life.
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So for me, I wake up and in my real life, I always wake up and then right away, like
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do this, like I pick up my blanket and roll it around to like make it a ball and then
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pick up my pillow and put it in my closet.
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So that's what I do.
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The thing I do in my visualization is I wake up from my bed, which is not my normal bed,
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what I have now, it's my bed that I plan on having in the future, which is grass.
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And I basically pick up my pillow and put it in the closet and then I walk over to my
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kitchen and I always, it's like very detailed and I pour my water with all the supplements
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and I drink it.
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That's pretty much what I like all these things I do in real life.
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So that's the first tip for building your virtual senses, do things that you do in real
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life.
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And then the other tip is to actually use the senses.
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So when you're visualizing actually kind of feel things, hear things, taste things,
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not just see things because you're visualizing.
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So you are practicing that visual sense, but you're missing all of the five other ones
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here, taste, smell, touch and see.
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Basically what I do is like I said, I have a grass bed in my visualization.
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So I wake up and I feel the grass, feel it like on my back, feel it on my hands, my feet
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when I stand up.
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And then when I'm pouring my water, I hear the water pouring and then I use a like glass
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stick kind of thing to spin around the supplements.
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So I hear like that clicking, like that clanging noise.
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And then I kind of try to taste the water, which I'm not good at the taste, but and I
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actually haven't tried to do this.
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I have tried to do the smell.
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The worst that smell, second worst that taste, and then I can kind of do here, but and I
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can do touch.
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So for me, the order of easiness is see, touch, ear, taste, smell.
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I'm pretty sure that's like I can see and feel things pretty easily and taste or in
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here things pretty easily.
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So that's like those are the two tips that I have for developing that roots.
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Like do your things that you do in real life, physical life, I should say, because everything
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is real.
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And then do things that you are and actually practice the senses.
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So actually develop those senses.
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And then the third tip is just practice.
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Like it's not going to happen in a week.
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If you're at my position, it's going to happen in like a month or a year.
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Who knows?
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Like it's not going to happen right away and practice a lot to practice often.
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So that's pretty much what I do for that.
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Let me get some water.
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So like I said, I had that another meditative experience, the piece of paper with text on
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it.
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So that's three times I've had something.
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And they're happening quicker and quicker next to each other.
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Like the first time happened and then I had to wait like a week and then the second one
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happened and then a couple of days and then the third one happened.
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So that tells me two things.
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I'm getting better.
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Like I'm actually building my virtual senses, which is it's telling me that I'm actually
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doing the right things.
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Like I'm actually helping build my senses because I've been doing this for over a week
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or over a month, three times a day.
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And there's definitely been times where I'm like, is this, am I really doing this?
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Like is this actually helping me?
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Because I haven't seen any physical tangible results other than those three experiences.
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So like the whole first month, I did not experience anything.
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And to be honest, like even like the first week of focus 12, I didn't experience anything.
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Like I'm just starting to experience this stuff.
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And to be honest, from someone who just the other a couple of months ago when I was reading
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Transurfing and I found out that I can't visualize just from that.
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And someone that thought that, oh, I'll never be able to visualize.
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It's just like a genetic thing.
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No.
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Now I'm like, this is growth because now I know that I'm actually going to be able to
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visualize because it's not just visualize.
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It's I'm stepping into the second body.
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Like I'm, I'm learning about the focus levels as well.
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And I'm realizing that focus 10 is mind body, mind awake body asleep.
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That's basically the first kind of stage of you separating from your physical body.
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You're actually like forgetting about your physical body and your like soul is kind of
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traveling through the second body.
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But the mind of awake body sleep, your, your body is asleep, but you can still kind of
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perceive senses from it.
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You can still take it.
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It's just a little like censored or a little bit, um, not what's, I don't know the word.
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There's a, there's a good word for this, but I forgot.
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And then focus 12 is the first state of expanded awareness where you can still kind of perceive
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your physical body a little bit, but you're more and more aware that you're, you're more
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and more aware of your second body.
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And then focus 15 is the state of no time, which you barely perceive your physical body
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and you're more aware of your second body.
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So like you're even higher awareness.
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So I see the further down your focus levels you get, that's when, that's when you start
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to actually like, okay, so in waking life, I still can't visualize like right now I can't
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visualize.
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Um, I don't think I'd be able to have that same experience that I experienced three times
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like the brightness and the card or the paper with text.
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I don't think I'd be able to experience something like that in waking life, which tells me that
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this is actually real.
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Like right now I'm in my physical body, but then once you get in your meditation, the
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deeper and deeper you get, the more and more into your second body you get, which actually
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gives me hope because that means that I'll be able to perceive things.
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00:55:04,320 --> 00:55:10,880
Once I build up practice as well as actually getting deeper levels of focus, which I've
686
00:55:10,880 --> 00:55:16,600
only bought wave one and wave two, which if I had the money, I'd buy wave three right
687
00:55:16,600 --> 00:55:20,640
now, but I don't have any money to be honest.
688
00:55:20,640 --> 00:55:28,560
And I'm saving my money to use on the members like the subscriptions for my podcasting stuff.
689
00:55:28,560 --> 00:55:33,720
And so I don't have money to buy the wave two or four or wave three or four.
690
00:55:33,720 --> 00:55:36,160
If I did, I'd buy them right now.
691
00:55:36,160 --> 00:55:40,800
I'd buy wave three, four and five right now.
692
00:55:40,800 --> 00:55:50,360
But with that said, I've basically just been doing the second exercise, which is like,
693
00:55:50,360 --> 00:55:51,920
like the questioning.
694
00:55:51,920 --> 00:55:57,000
It's like basically where you send a question out and you receive an answer from your higher
695
00:55:57,000 --> 00:55:58,400
self.
696
00:55:58,400 --> 00:56:04,480
And I've just been doing that one on repeat, even though it's like not, I haven't actually
697
00:56:04,480 --> 00:56:05,840
been doing the question.
698
00:56:05,840 --> 00:56:07,160
I haven't been following along with that.
699
00:56:07,160 --> 00:56:12,400
I just been doing my own thing because that's like, that's the one that is not talked on
700
00:56:12,400 --> 00:56:13,400
the most.
701
00:56:13,400 --> 00:56:15,840
Like it's talked on the lease on that one.
702
00:56:15,840 --> 00:56:17,600
Like Robert Monroe talks the least on that one.
703
00:56:17,600 --> 00:56:21,280
So that's the one I chose to repeat.
704
00:56:21,280 --> 00:56:28,840
And like I'm practicing more and more, but I'm only on focus 12 and I did try to get
705
00:56:28,840 --> 00:56:33,520
to focus 15, which I think I might have actually gone to focus 15.
706
00:56:33,520 --> 00:56:35,400
I just can't perceive it.
707
00:56:35,400 --> 00:56:36,680
Same thing with focus 12.
708
00:56:36,680 --> 00:56:40,200
I can't perceive it yet because I haven't built up practice.
709
00:56:40,200 --> 00:56:46,600
So I had to, and then I also tried to get into focus 21, which again, I don't think that
710
00:56:46,600 --> 00:56:47,600
I didn't perceive.
711
00:56:47,600 --> 00:56:50,760
I didn't perceive anything in that.
712
00:56:50,760 --> 00:56:59,960
But I did try and do, I basically like counted from 12 to 15 by like seeing the colors correlated
713
00:56:59,960 --> 00:57:00,960
with it.
714
00:57:00,960 --> 00:57:07,920
So focus 12 is green and then focus 13 is purple and then focus 14 is white and then
715
00:57:07,920 --> 00:57:18,760
focus 15 is blue and then focus 16 is red and then focus 17 is yellow and then 18 is
716
00:57:18,760 --> 00:57:25,840
rose and then 19 is, what is it?
717
00:57:25,840 --> 00:57:26,840
Green.
718
00:57:26,840 --> 00:57:27,840
Is that right?
719
00:57:27,840 --> 00:57:28,840
Yeah, green.
720
00:57:28,840 --> 00:57:29,840
Wait.
721
00:57:29,840 --> 00:57:37,040
Blue, red, yellow, green and then 20 is purple.
722
00:57:37,040 --> 00:57:40,320
Wait, I missed one.
723
00:57:40,320 --> 00:57:45,320
Blue, red, yellow, rose, green, purple.
724
00:57:45,320 --> 00:57:49,120
All right, so 20 is purple and then 21 is white.
725
00:57:49,120 --> 00:57:51,120
So those are the seven resident colors.
726
00:57:51,120 --> 00:57:57,960
I learned about that in the seven resident colors book.
727
00:57:57,960 --> 00:57:58,960
It's not like a book.
728
00:57:58,960 --> 00:58:01,520
It's like a packet or a document.
729
00:58:01,520 --> 00:58:06,640
It's 100 pages long and I recommend reading that because it's very interesting and it
730
00:58:06,640 --> 00:58:07,640
helps you learn a lot.
731
00:58:07,640 --> 00:58:12,080
So I basically read that and I'm not done with that.
732
00:58:12,080 --> 00:58:17,640
I'm only on like focus 24, which it goes through all the focus levels out of 49.
733
00:58:17,640 --> 00:58:20,240
So I'm only on focus 24 on that one.
734
00:58:20,240 --> 00:58:25,720
So I've just been reading it at school because I don't have anything else to read at school
735
00:58:25,720 --> 00:58:26,720
other than that.
736
00:58:26,720 --> 00:58:30,720
So I've just been doing it there.
737
00:58:30,720 --> 00:58:36,800
And it's definitely helpful because I learned about how you actually get from focus 15 to
738
00:58:36,800 --> 00:58:43,400
21 by imagining those colors and then counting to 21.
739
00:58:43,400 --> 00:58:49,880
And I try to do that but it's unsuccessful and I believe that it's simply because I haven't
740
00:58:49,880 --> 00:58:50,880
practiced it.
741
00:58:50,880 --> 00:58:57,440
So it may be that focus 12 is like the foundation to all of this.
742
00:58:57,440 --> 00:59:01,880
Like I see focus 10 as the foundation to my whole entire gateway experience because you
743
00:59:01,880 --> 00:59:04,920
have to get to focus 10 to access all this other stuff.
744
00:59:04,920 --> 00:59:10,400
But then I also, it may be focus 12 as the foundation to the rest simply because focus
745
00:59:10,400 --> 00:59:12,560
12 is where you build the virtual senses.
746
00:59:12,560 --> 00:59:18,920
So I have a theory that I am wanting to confirm once I actually get good enough where once
747
00:59:18,920 --> 00:59:23,080
you build the virtual senses using focus 12, then that will actually be able to translate
748
00:59:23,080 --> 00:59:29,020
and then you won't have to like start over from scratch once you get to focus 15.
749
00:59:29,020 --> 00:59:34,800
So what I'm saying is once you build focus 12 and you're able to perceive it fully,
750
00:59:34,800 --> 00:59:38,720
then maybe like I said, I have not experienced any of this stuff yet.
751
00:59:38,720 --> 00:59:40,680
So this is just my theory.
752
00:59:40,680 --> 00:59:48,720
Maybe once you have like, have your second body developed, then once you move to focus
753
00:59:48,720 --> 00:59:52,640
15, you won't have to start seeing nothing in darkness.
754
00:59:52,640 --> 00:59:54,360
I don't know.
755
00:59:54,360 --> 01:00:01,280
But yesterday I cut out the outro to the episodes.
756
01:00:01,280 --> 01:00:05,720
So I'm just going to say follow for more.
757
01:00:05,720 --> 01:00:06,720
That feels weird.
758
01:00:06,720 --> 01:00:31,480
I'm going to say follow for more and have a good day.
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