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Dec. 4, 2024
December 2024 Monthly Update
I have gotten a LOT better at composing music. I am now working on something I will reveal next month.
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Man, oh man. Last time I thought I had it all, but I realized that importance is actually
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not the sole factor in your happiness levels. Yes, I still think it plays a critical role.
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For example, I just spent the last hour trying to figure out how to record this podcast on
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a software that I've been using to make music, and I just couldn't figure it out because all
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of these problems arose and I could literally feel, you might even be able to hear it in
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my voice. I could feel my mind just going into that spiral of just experiencing extreme,
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not extreme, but experiencing discomfort, discomfort because of all of the problems that I'm facing.
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When you experience one problem and it doesn't have a solution straight away, you tend to
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go even deeper into the spiral. What I mean by that is if you observe the process of that
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happening, you can feel yourself losing awareness, and then you can feel yourself becoming more
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immersed in this situation. That's exactly what happened for the last hour. So many different
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problems, and the solution I came up with was to just record in a different software,
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simple as that. So that's what I'm doing. I'm recording in audacity instead of Reaper,
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which is what I was going to record in because I've been making music in Reaper. Reaper is
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a software. It's called a DAW. I forgot what it stands for, but it's basically a software
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you can use. You can plug in your keyboard and make music. That's what I've been doing
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for the past couple weeks. Last month, I played a song. I think it was my 14th composition.
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That was so bad. Every single month, I re-listened to, right before I start recording my next
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monthly update, I re-listened to the previous one so that I can basically write down a bunch
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of items to talk about. For example, right now I'm talking about a recap on the music
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that I've been working on. While I was listening to the last episode, I couldn't listen to
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that song. It was just so terrible. The main reason was because I didn't edit it. My technique
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was poor. I only spent a couple hours, maybe like three hours practicing that song. But
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I started editing my songs. If you make a mistake, you can just delete that note. I
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am so happy with the progress that I've made so far. I actually am starting to make songs
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that sound competent. Two months ago, actually, three months, not even a little over two
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months ago, I didn't even know how to play piano. I barely knew anything about music.
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My music background is playing saxophone from fourth grade until eighth grade, which is
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essentially just a couple months' worth of experience because I didn't practice at all
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in middle school. I only practiced in fourth grade and maybe fifth grade. Basically, two
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months ago, I didn't know anything about music. I've just been putting in the reps.
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Now my song that I'm about to play for you in a moment, I think it sounds pretty decent.
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There was an idea that I had where if you put 100 hours of practice into something, just
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pure reps, then you'll reach a turning point where you no longer get as great of returns
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from just putting in reps. That's when you have to switch to focusing on the quality.
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I had that theory because that's what I did with my podcast. I basically did 100 episodes
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over 100 days and the majority of them were 100 hour or the majority of them were one
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hour each. I put in 100 hours of reps in the podcasting and that was the turning point
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where I started to focus on quality. Now I remember now that the turning point actually
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happened a lot earlier than that. It's just that I was kind of afraid or I didn't really
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know what to do because I remember thinking around episodes 70 maybe even earlier than
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that where I was thinking that I was not making that much progress. Maybe for an entire
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month I was just kind of plateaued putting in extra reps that I didn't really need. That's
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kind of what happened with this composition because I announced that I was going to do
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30 compositions just focusing on reps and that got into my head where I was okay, that's
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my number, 30 days of 30 compositions and that will be the turning point where I can
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start focusing on quality. Instead of paying attention to my actual skill level and making
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a decision in time, I made a decision beforehand and I made myself stick to it which caused
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problems because for maybe six days I remember once I got to composition 24 or maybe even
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21 I started to feel ready to start focusing on quality but I kept pushing it and I started
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to get that struggling feeling that I remember experiencing when I was doing the podcast around
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episode 70 when I reached the turning point but I stuck to it and that's the moment where
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you actually don't want to stick to it because if you stick to it you're simply just plateauing
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and you're not making as much progress which brings into mind another idea that I have
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been thinking about lately. My friend Franklin, he mentioned something in passing a couple
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weeks ago, we were talking and he basically said that his new thing is and not like his
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new thing but like something that he's noticed in his life recently is that one month feels
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like an entire year. Now he was mentioning that in a different context to what I'm explaining
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but it basically translates. What I noticed is that one month if you are learning and
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you are basically the process of learning is a constant, it's like an extreme period of,
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not even period but it's just learning is the process of brain cells dying and new ones
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being born. That's essentially what learning is. Actually I don't even know the first
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thing about learning. I'm no scientist but that's kind of like the idea I like to think
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of in my mind. That's what, it's just a useful belief for me. So when you're learning and
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you're in that period of kind of discomfort but if it's something that you want to learn
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that it's like good discomfort, if you're doing that a lot like pretty much all day
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is just learning then you, your time basically moves so much slower. There are, were times
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in my life where one week would go by and it felt like a day. Like I remember last Monday
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just like it was yesterday but then recently it's been the complete opposite where one
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week would go by and it feels like an entire month passed. Like it feels like it's been
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an entire month. I talked to my friends once a week and that is what I noticed recently
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is every time I talk to them I'm like, oh my goodness it's been only a week. It felt
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like so long and it's because I'm learning so much and that connects to the 100 hour
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idea. When you're in that phase of pure repetitions you're basically learning and you're laying
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out the foundation to what's to come and that's what I was doing with the podcast and up until
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around episode 70, maybe 70 hours in, I started plateau and I wasn't learning as much so time
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was kind of going quicker and that, I didn't start, I didn't shift the focus right away
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and as a result I didn't learn as much as I could have and how that happened in recent
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times with my music composition I was on maybe composition number 21 and I told myself I
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was going to do 30 days of 30 compositions or it was more of just 30 compositions and
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once I got to 21 I started to reach the point where I wasn't learning as much because I
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was just focused on quantity and once you reach a certain point in order to learn more
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you have to focus on quality and just get better and so for a couple days I was just
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kind of not as excited about doing another rep and that's exactly what happened with
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the podcast and that's kind of how you can tell instead of focusing on the 100 hours,
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yeah 100 hours is a good kind of milestone, not milestone but a good thing to be aware
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of like the 100 hour idea but you should also just make the choice at the time and be aware
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of how much you're learning and I did a lot better this time around because I ended up
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fasting for like a day and a half and just cranking out the final four compositions in
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two days instead of doing one composition per day I did four compositions in like a day
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and a half and I was able to finish the 30 reps just because I wanted to finish the 30
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reps because I said I was going to do 30 reps and it's kind of cool to do 30 I don't it
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was just something and I finished it in a quicker amount of time and then I was able
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to move on and what I moved on to was starting to actually work on quality so that means
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composing a song but also playing it into Reaper which allows you to edit your notes
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and it allows you to basically make your notes on time one huge issue that I had because
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I didn't have enough skill was I wasn't able to play on time but you can just click a button
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and it puts everything on time for you in that software and so the songs actually sound
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competent and I noticed that I am going such a great path for learning music because as
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I'm learning about this I'm seeing other paths that other people trying to learn how to make
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music take and they're just taking like a cheap route but this route that I'm taking
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allows I'm just building such great skills that is like found fundamental to music composition
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and I'm so grateful for that I put in like an extra month or two of practice of building
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fundamental skills that a lot of people simply just don't build and it's giving me a huge
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advantage I think and so the hundred hours framework I think there's something to it
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but maybe it's a little less than that and also pay attention to what you're feeling
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at the time if your inspiration drops because you're not learning as much then it's time
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to transition so let's just let's just listen to the song because I was focusing on just
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getting adding different instruments like trumpets piano strings like violins and string
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instruments like cello violin viola I was that's what I was working on with the song
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or with Reaper the quality phase was just focused on adding different instruments and
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getting used to the sounds of different instruments so that when I hear things in my head I can
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be like oh that needs to be trumpet or oh that needs to be strings and what I realized
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recently was that I actually don't need to focus too much on all of that kind of complicated
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stuff because the core the 80% of music composition I think so far what I believe so far is melody
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and a compliment being able to have a good melody and have a good accompaniment like
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I'm pretty sure a compliment is like the background stuff I don't even know I don't know any of
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the music stuff I bought a book on how to compose is like it was called fundamentals of music
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composition and I could not read it because it was talking about music theory and I am
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fine with music theory but it was talking about just all the all the terms that it was
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using in that book made it unreadable because it or unreadable for me because I don't really
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have any knowledge of music theory and I don't really care to gain the knowledge of music
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theory I just want to make good good music and you don't need to know music theory to
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be able to make good music because people made music theory to describe good music and to
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figure out how people made that good music but the people who made the good music didn't
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necessarily know the music theory the music theory was derived from the music itself it's
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like a secondary source instead of the primary source so let's just listen to this song and
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it's I yeah let's just listen to it I'm gonna quit rambling
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man I'm actually just so happy with how much
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progress I made I couldn't even play piano two months ago and I just made that song it
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is so crazy you know there's a huge limiting belief that I used to have and what I noticed
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a lot of people have it's the idea of oh this person's been playing or oh this person's
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been doing this for a year I've only been doing it or I haven't even started doing it
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how am I ever gonna catch up no it's not about how much time you do something someone can
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a taxi driver can have 20 years of experience driving a taxi but that doesn't make him a
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NASCAR racer he is not going to be able to compete against a NASCAR racer who could have
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been driving for maybe 10 years or less I don't know but the point is it's not about
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how much time you put into something it's about the depth or the quality of the time
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that you put into it there was a perfect way to explain this that I had I wrote down in
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my journal a couple weeks ago multiple times actually throughout the past couple months
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I always remind myself that it's not about how much time you put into it it's it's about
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how you make that how what use you make of that time because I played saxophone for five
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years five years and I'm already better at piano than I was at saxophone after two months
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that is the better the better you can get at learning and the better you can there's
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a skill you can get good at something then you can also get good at getting good so you
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can I use to play video games you can get good at one video game or you can get good
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at getting good at video games so that when the next game comes out and all your friends
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are playing that next one you can get good really quick at that next one too and that's
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exactly what I've been doing with real life or I'm not okay video games are a real life
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skill and I'm not saying that as like a child addicted to video gaming I'm saying that as
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yes video games are part of the real world and that's that's a completely different discussion
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I don't even care about that I haven't thought about much about that but I just thought about
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that okay whatever going on with the point is that it doesn't matter how much time don't
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ever be discouraged if someone has ten years of experience no you can catch up to someone
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really quick with just a season of just going all in just pushing pushing yourself I didn't
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even push myself that hard to learn this stuff I wanted to learn it and that's that's a huge
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piece of the puzzle if you don't want to learn something or if your whole being is not on
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board you're not going to make as much progress and you're simply not going to learn as much
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it's just a fact but I my entire being just wants to make music and learn how to make
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better music as quick as possible and that is what that's what allows me to make so much
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progress and I'm so happy with the progress that song in a week from now I'm probably
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going to look at that song and be like man that was terrible but I look at my song that
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I put on this podcast last episode one month ago and it's like comparing a piece of poop
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to a real thing that you want to look at I don't I don't even know where I'm going
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with this basically you can get good really quick at things and a good way to tell if
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you're getting good really good or really quick is well obviously if you look back at
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one week ago and you see that you've grown a lot then that's another telltale sign but
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another sign is if you start learning something in the morning and then you are not already
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competent or you've made significant progress at that thing by a couple hours or not even
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a couple hours but just maybe an hour or by the end of the day you'll have progressed
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significantly in that direction for example when I first started learning the piano the
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day one I was literally sitting in my room looking at the keyboard with flashcards out
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and the flashcards had letters A B C D E F G I almost forgot all of them but A B C D E
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F G all the letters of the white notes on the piano and I literally just looked at the
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flashcard and I'm like oh that one says F so I gotta find F on the piano and then the
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first day when I first looked at the piano obviously I didn't even know anything but
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then after 10 minutes I was like oh I kind of know where F is after a little while of
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practice and then after by the end of the day I was able to spot and find identify F
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or and every single note I was able to identify every single white note so seven notes within
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a couple seconds and by the end of the next day I was able to just do it instantly basically
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and that is a way you can tell if you're making significant progress and I'm basically talking
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in the context of something I'm working on right now that I don't want to reveal because
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I literally started working on this last night and it's something I've kind of felt drawn
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to for the past couple days maybe even weeks but I never really allowed myself to dive
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into it until this morning or maybe last night but this morning today is the first day that
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I started working on this thing that I'm not going to reveal this month simply because
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I don't want to talk about something that I'm doing until I've done it and that's something
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that I've done in the past that there's no benefit to saying your plans so next month
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I will reveal the thing that I'm talking about and I hope that I know it's going to be obvious
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to me that I know alright whatever basically I'm working on something and I'm going to
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reveal it next month that is another item checked off the list I'm yes I have a list
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of discussion topics like I talked about earlier where I listen every every single month I sit
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down and re-listen to the last month's episode and just write down a bunch of talking points
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and in this particular month I have five talking points and I just finished all of them except
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for these last two things in the beginning of this episode I mentioned something I said
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that importance is not the only piece of the puzzle now let's go a little deeper because
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I think that instead of yes I still hold my belief that importance is an addiction but
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there is another thing that I was vaguely aware of it's kind of like a thing that you're
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kind of aware of but you can't really put your finger on it until I became aware of
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it when my friend mentioned it or I don't even remember how I became aware of it but
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probably my friend mentioned it and we realized that transurfing is an addiction me and my
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friend have been becoming super aware of this herd instinct it's this idea of how humans
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developed with a herd mentality that's how we were able to survive and it's obvious like
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look at mobs for example when you get into a crowd your awareness kind of becomes the
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awareness of the herd and then you do things that maybe you wouldn't have done in other
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circumstances there are some extreme examples in history for example world war two there
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was the enemy party of world war two they kind of had the herd mentality where ordinary
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people just like you and I end up doing terrible things another example is like in American
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history with the Native Americans and the settlers and like the American soldiers there
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were examples of the massacres of Native Americans where soldiers would just do terrible things
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but in other circumstances they're just normal people and so that's like the idea of the
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herd mentality where you kind of do things that you wouldn't necessarily do in other
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situations and it's also it also relates to your beliefs for example if you identify as
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a person a part of ex-religion so let's say I'm a Christian if you say I'm a Christian
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then you identify with that herd you your kind of awareness is in that herd and then
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you kind of say oh am I following the rules of the Bible or oh let me look to the Bible
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for answers oh let me look to the priest for answers and this is not just like religion
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this is also literally anything that you can identify with being a YouTuber I don't call
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myself a YouTuber I don't call myself a podcaster I don't call myself any of that because when
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you call yourself something you basically identify with that herd mentality and it can be very
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damaging for example I have been a part of the herd mentality for transurfing and what
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I mentioned earlier was or a moment ago was that me and my friend have been noticing the
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herd mentality in ourselves and we've kind of started to have a dislike for it for example
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when we say the word transurfing to explain or to just convey the idea that we're trying
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to convey at the moment when we say transurfing to convey the essence of transurfing like
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conscious awareness and all that stuff a way of living when we say that we start me and
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my friend start getting a little uncomfortable we start feeling like I don't really like
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that word same thing with self-improvement that would that's a big herd that I've always
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kind of had this feeling of I don't really like it same thing with religion like I grew
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up in Christian household and I never sat right with me just being a part of that herd
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and it's simply because when you're a part of the herd you look for answers outwards
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instead of internal and that's a huge reason why I have the oscillations with transurfing
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when I like I mentioned for the past couple months when I read transurfing I'm happy but
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then for when I finish reading it I start going downhill and I forget it's more like
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when I'm reading transurfing that's like the one text that I am that I found so far that
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really gives me the information that I need to apply and so it's basically me looking
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for answers outwards and then applying them inwards it's no different to the herd mentality
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like you have to look for the answers in the Bible you have to look for the answers to
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you have to ask the priest for answers all the answers but what I realize is that it's
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actually if you start looking for the answers within then that's where like happiness comes
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from and I noticed my friend basically spoke it perfectly the more you listen to in transurfing
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he calls it the heart in Christian Christianity it's called Jesus or Christ or God the more
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you listen to like that voice in and I'm not talking about the the bad voice because there's
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lots of different voices in the mind but I'm talking about that silent kind of knowing
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in your in your being when you kind of know that you have to do something for example
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if you're just sitting on the couch and all of a sudden you're like oh I kind of want
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to learn how to play the piano and you like just have an extreme desire to learn the play
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of piano and that's kind of what I'm talking about here if you start the more you listen
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to that and also when you're making decisions for example when you're making decisions after
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you make a decision you're that kind of voice in your in your being your heart will either
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be comfortable or it will be really happy or it'll just kind of be neutral and the more
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you listen to that during decisions during life whatever it is the more you listen to
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that thing in your mind the happier you become and that's kind of looking for the answers
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within because you can also ask questions for example I had I walk or my neighbor went
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out for vacation a couple weeks ago and she asked me to walk her dogs and so I one day
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I was walking her dog and I had to lock up the house and so I finished walking the dogs
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and I feed them do everything and I lock up the house and I leave but as I'm leaving I
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hear the dogs going crazy like I hear the dog barking and I'm like oh no like I'm kind
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of getting nervous like should I go back in and so instead of just going back into investigate
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and then inevitably the dog will start barking again because that's whatever instead of doing
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that I start walking away and I asked myself am I safe to leave and I I kind of felt that
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feeling I felt for that feeling that I'm referring to in my mind or in my being because it's
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not it's more of like in your chest like I feel it in my chest a lot of times then I
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also sometimes I feel in my head I don't know it's hard to explain but everyone kind of
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intuitively knows what I'm talking about like when you have that feeling that you knew there
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was nothing good that could have come out of it that's what I'm talking about that feeling
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and so I looked for that feeling and the thing I was looking for was inner discomfort if
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there was inner discomfort that would mean that I have to go back and go check on that
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dog because that means that it's not safe to leave but there was no inner discomfort
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it was just kind of empty so I left and the next day I went to go walk the dogs again
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and you know what you know what happened nothing everything turned out perfectly so that's
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what I mean by the more you listen to that voice in your like that quiet voice that
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we often ignore the more you listen to it the happier you become and that's another
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piece of the puzzle yes importance plays a huge role because when you have importance
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you can't listen to that voice when you're you have importance is basically the equivalent
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of putting ear mufflers on and you can't hear anything in regards to that voice so importance
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is it's essential to eliminate importance to be able to hear it but then you also have
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to take the step to hear it and actually pay attention to it that's that's another piece
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of the puzzle where how I have those oscillate or I had those oscillations with Transurfing
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where I would only be happy when I'm reading Transurfing and it's because I forget to look
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inside for the answers and now that I'm aware now that I am aware of it it is a lot easier
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to move forward when you are aware of something it is just it it's a game changer when you're
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aware of something I've had this insecurity with my posture my where it's called rib flare
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it's basically when your upper ribs your push your abs out and it kind of from the side
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if you're wearing a shirt from the side even if you have a six pack from the side it looks
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like you're fat like you have a a big bulging belly but and that was a huge insecurity of
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mine and that it wasn't really an insecurity it was something more of like oh this is kind
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of stupid like I have a six pack I should I should have I want to look like I have a six
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pack from the side so it wasn't like a insecurity where I was beating myself up over it was more
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of like like this is something I want to fix but I just don't know how to fix it and I
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remember I for years I spent years doing stretches trying to trying to fix it and I've I made
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probably like 10% improvement and it was just ridiculous and then all of a sudden I was
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aware of the solution and I found the answer and then over the past couple weeks I've been
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working on it and I've made significant improvements in just a couple weeks when it took years
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to get no progress so that's it's so amazing how how much of a game changer it is when
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you're aware of something and that's you can become aware of it it's so hard to believe
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it when you're not aware of something but you can become aware of it simply by listening
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to that voice like you that voice will lead you in the direction for example recently
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I've been thinking to myself like all areas of my life are on the uphill like everything
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is going great and every part of my life is getting better in what in one year from now
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literally every aspect of my entire life is going to be better physical social mental
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financial literally everything is on the uphill except for one thing and that one thing is
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eyesight and I that's kind of been something I've been vaguely aware of it's like that
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it's like that like I mentioned earlier when you're kind of aware of something but you
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can't put your finger on it it's like that where all my life I'm like okay I have crappy
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vision that's ridiculous like there's no way it's a genetic thing I like I have this
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belief where there's this phrase that I've been repeating to myself lately it's the fact
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that in our society there's this super popular limiting belief of oh it's a genetic thing
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oh you need genetics for that like you need good genetics and then I always repeat to
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myself in my mind oh it's a genetic thing well good thing I have genetics I don't know why
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I just love that phrase so much but basically I feel like it's ridiculous that I have bad
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vision like that's just ridiculous how how silly is that a human being it's your birth
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right to have excellent everything human beings are the most excellent creatures in the entire
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animal kingdom we're the most advanced creatures in the entire world and you're telling me
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I have bad eyesight I can't read things far away you're telling me that and you're telling
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me I have to wear glasses for the rest of my life that I have that it's gonna be on the
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decay for the rest of my life no that's ridiculous I completely reject that notion and I've always
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rejected that notion I always kind of didn't really like wearing glasses I always didn't
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really like wearing contacts and actually I haven't worn glasses or contacts in years
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I only wear it when I drive and I don't even remember the last time I drove probably a
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year and that's the thing it's ridiculous it's our birthright to have excellent every
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aspect of our life excellent health excellent mental health excellent vision literally everything
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should is our birthright we and if you don't believe me well too bad for you too bad for
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you that is such a why would you not want to adopt that belief that belief will do nothing
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but help you belief is such an interesting topic that I've been learning a lot about
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lately and I just I just love how you can have just so stupid beliefs that you cling
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on to it's like that herd mentality that I talked about and I do it all the time like
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or I've been doing better at avoiding that but like I used to I don't even remember if
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I used to do I don't know whatever I basically beliefs are something very important in life
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and the example that I'm saying this was a long tangent whatever the example I'm saying
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is that when you're aware of something it's a game changer for example for a long time
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I didn't want my vision to decay I wanted to fix my vision and I was kind of like aware
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that there's there's definitely a solution out there in the world but I don't know what
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it is and all the solutions that have been brought to my attention like I heard someone
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say that they manifested vision better vision that's just not practical for me I yes I want
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to manifest it but I it doesn't it doesn't work if it doesn't work if that I don't even
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know if that makes sense I manifested myself a better looking physique stronger physique
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but there was a practical way that I actually went about doing that alright whatever basically
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the it's a game changer when you're aware of the solution and I recently talked to a
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guy that I haven't talked to in months like literally months I haven't talked to him and
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he mentioned this thing about red light exposure and how there was a study done with where they
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took a bunch of old people with cataracts and they put them in a room with red light exposure
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for two weeks and after two weeks like all the cataracts were gone and I'm not even sure
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I think I did look up the study and they said that there was more research needed to prove
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its validity I don't know doesn't matter basically that was like oh shoot there is a deaf there
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is a legitimate solution to this now I wasn't super satisfied with the solution of red light
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therapy I don't know why just I just wasn't so I looked a little bit further and what
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do you know I look up how to fix your eyesight and I find a book that explains just that
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it's written by a guy who was born blind and he had to have eye surgery and he was left
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with 99% scar tissue in both of his eyes and so he was basically blind 1% vision and then
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when he was 17 years old he wanted to fix his eyes and so he learned how to like he learned
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exercises like a bodybuilder exercises their muscles and they get stronger so this guy
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exercised his eyes so they got stronger and by within a year he regained 50% vision back
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from being blind to being able to see halfway that's pretty significant and then he is he's
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like 50 years old now he wrote a book and now he's got perfect vision he's able to drive
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he's got like all this stuff and he wrote a book about it and so that that now that
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I'm aware of that book I am no longer unaware that's the power of being aware of something
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I have not taken any action I didn't buy the book I'm probably not gonna buy the book for
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quite a while but now I'm aware of it and now it's not something that is like tormenting
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me where I'm like it's on the back of my mind where all my vision is going downhill now I'm
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completely aware that there is definitely a future version of me that has perfect vision
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and that is what I mean by the power of awareness so that is basically shoot I have one more
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thing to talk about competition there is something that I vaguely been aware of and
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it's the idea of competition like oh I'm competing against all these other entrepreneurs all
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these other youtubers but in reality you're not like there is no competition you are not
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physically put up against another person and you have to beat them down with boxing gloves
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or you are not physically put up against another person and you have to race them and beat them
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to the finish line you are not in that competition in life life is a cooperation and one aspect
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of this is the idea of how everything is a cooperative effort which I became aware or
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I learned a lot about in a book called the sin of humanity but the aware that the aspect
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that I want to talk about is the idea that you don't it's not we're not in competition
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with each other I used to have this idea and while I had this idea I was like uncomfortable
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with it I never really liked the idea of competing with other people I always thought the reason
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why I allowed it into my life was because I thought I would have value in the sense that
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when you're competing against someone you push yourself further and you're motivated
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to act better or to be better but I'm reading this book called the courage to be disliked
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and they're talking about how when you see life as a competition you start to see people
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as your enemies or like your adversaries and instead of and with your friends when you
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have this competitive outlook and your friends have wins then you start to see yourself as
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losing because when you have this competition worldview then it's either win or lose like
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you either win or lose but then when your friend wins let's say your friend does something
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good that does not affect you at all it's just a win for the friend then you start to
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see that as your loss and I noticed that 100% because I noticed it in myself and other people
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where let's say another person it has a huge win I can't fully celebrate them because deep
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down I interpret that as my loss and that's just ridiculous I want to be able to celebrate
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my friends win with my entire being and I learned that potentially the root cause of
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that is the idea that we're all in competition or even the idea that there is any competition
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it's more like we're all in a horizontal plane kind of moving forward in our own direction
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like there is no competition it's you are moving forward and it's the idea of your competing
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against yourself like you are the only person in competition with yourself there is no other
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person in this competition it's just you and that's something I've started to I'm
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glad that I became aware of that once again it's the idea of when you're aware of something
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you you win half the half the battle because this is something I I it didn't sit right
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with me having the idea of competition because it's ridiculous how you can't her or how I
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can't fully celebrate my friends wins like that's just outrageous it's unacceptable
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to me so that's that's why I'm glad that I learned about competition that's it that
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was a long episode I'm about to go to bed it's about to be five o'clock all right peace
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Man, oh man. Last time I thought I had it all, but I realized that importance is actually
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not the sole factor in your happiness levels. Yes, I still think it plays a critical role.
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For example, I just spent the last hour trying to figure out how to record this podcast on
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a software that I've been using to make music, and I just couldn't figure it out because all
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of these problems arose and I could literally feel, you might even be able to hear it in
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my voice. I could feel my mind just going into that spiral of just experiencing extreme,
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not extreme, but experiencing discomfort, discomfort because of all of the problems that I'm facing.
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When you experience one problem and it doesn't have a solution straight away, you tend to
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go even deeper into the spiral. What I mean by that is if you observe the process of that
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happening, you can feel yourself losing awareness, and then you can feel yourself becoming more
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immersed in this situation. That's exactly what happened for the last hour. So many different
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problems, and the solution I came up with was to just record in a different software,
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simple as that. So that's what I'm doing. I'm recording in audacity instead of Reaper,
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which is what I was going to record in because I've been making music in Reaper. Reaper is
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a software. It's called a DAW. I forgot what it stands for, but it's basically a software
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you can use. You can plug in your keyboard and make music. That's what I've been doing
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for the past couple weeks. Last month, I played a song. I think it was my 14th composition.
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That was so bad. Every single month, I re-listened to, right before I start recording my next
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monthly update, I re-listened to the previous one so that I can basically write down a bunch
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of items to talk about. For example, right now I'm talking about a recap on the music
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that I've been working on. While I was listening to the last episode, I couldn't listen to
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that song. It was just so terrible. The main reason was because I didn't edit it. My technique
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was poor. I only spent a couple hours, maybe like three hours practicing that song. But
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I started editing my songs. If you make a mistake, you can just delete that note. I
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am so happy with the progress that I've made so far. I actually am starting to make songs
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that sound competent. Two months ago, actually, three months, not even a little over two
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months ago, I didn't even know how to play piano. I barely knew anything about music.
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My music background is playing saxophone from fourth grade until eighth grade, which is
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essentially just a couple months' worth of experience because I didn't practice at all
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in middle school. I only practiced in fourth grade and maybe fifth grade. Basically, two
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months ago, I didn't know anything about music. I've just been putting in the reps.
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Now my song that I'm about to play for you in a moment, I think it sounds pretty decent.
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There was an idea that I had where if you put 100 hours of practice into something, just
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pure reps, then you'll reach a turning point where you no longer get as great of returns
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from just putting in reps. That's when you have to switch to focusing on the quality.
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I had that theory because that's what I did with my podcast. I basically did 100 episodes
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over 100 days and the majority of them were 100 hour or the majority of them were one
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hour each. I put in 100 hours of reps in the podcasting and that was the turning point
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where I started to focus on quality. Now I remember now that the turning point actually
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happened a lot earlier than that. It's just that I was kind of afraid or I didn't really
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know what to do because I remember thinking around episodes 70 maybe even earlier than
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that where I was thinking that I was not making that much progress. Maybe for an entire
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month I was just kind of plateaued putting in extra reps that I didn't really need. That's
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kind of what happened with this composition because I announced that I was going to do
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30 compositions just focusing on reps and that got into my head where I was okay, that's
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my number, 30 days of 30 compositions and that will be the turning point where I can
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start focusing on quality. Instead of paying attention to my actual skill level and making
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a decision in time, I made a decision beforehand and I made myself stick to it which caused
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problems because for maybe six days I remember once I got to composition 24 or maybe even
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21 I started to feel ready to start focusing on quality but I kept pushing it and I started
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to get that struggling feeling that I remember experiencing when I was doing the podcast around
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episode 70 when I reached the turning point but I stuck to it and that's the moment where
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you actually don't want to stick to it because if you stick to it you're simply just plateauing
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and you're not making as much progress which brings into mind another idea that I have
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been thinking about lately. My friend Franklin, he mentioned something in passing a couple
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weeks ago, we were talking and he basically said that his new thing is and not like his
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new thing but like something that he's noticed in his life recently is that one month feels
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like an entire year. Now he was mentioning that in a different context to what I'm explaining
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but it basically translates. What I noticed is that one month if you are learning and
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you are basically the process of learning is a constant, it's like an extreme period of,
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not even period but it's just learning is the process of brain cells dying and new ones
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being born. That's essentially what learning is. Actually I don't even know the first
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thing about learning. I'm no scientist but that's kind of like the idea I like to think
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of in my mind. That's what, it's just a useful belief for me. So when you're learning and
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you're in that period of kind of discomfort but if it's something that you want to learn
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that it's like good discomfort, if you're doing that a lot like pretty much all day
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is just learning then you, your time basically moves so much slower. There are, were times
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in my life where one week would go by and it felt like a day. Like I remember last Monday
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just like it was yesterday but then recently it's been the complete opposite where one
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week would go by and it feels like an entire month passed. Like it feels like it's been
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an entire month. I talked to my friends once a week and that is what I noticed recently
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is every time I talk to them I'm like, oh my goodness it's been only a week. It felt
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like so long and it's because I'm learning so much and that connects to the 100 hour
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idea. When you're in that phase of pure repetitions you're basically learning and you're laying
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out the foundation to what's to come and that's what I was doing with the podcast and up until
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around episode 70, maybe 70 hours in, I started plateau and I wasn't learning as much so time
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was kind of going quicker and that, I didn't start, I didn't shift the focus right away
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and as a result I didn't learn as much as I could have and how that happened in recent
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times with my music composition I was on maybe composition number 21 and I told myself I
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was going to do 30 days of 30 compositions or it was more of just 30 compositions and
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once I got to 21 I started to reach the point where I wasn't learning as much because I
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was just focused on quantity and once you reach a certain point in order to learn more
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you have to focus on quality and just get better and so for a couple days I was just
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kind of not as excited about doing another rep and that's exactly what happened with
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the podcast and that's kind of how you can tell instead of focusing on the 100 hours,
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yeah 100 hours is a good kind of milestone, not milestone but a good thing to be aware
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of like the 100 hour idea but you should also just make the choice at the time and be aware
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of how much you're learning and I did a lot better this time around because I ended up
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fasting for like a day and a half and just cranking out the final four compositions in
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two days instead of doing one composition per day I did four compositions in like a day
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and a half and I was able to finish the 30 reps just because I wanted to finish the 30
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reps because I said I was going to do 30 reps and it's kind of cool to do 30 I don't it
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was just something and I finished it in a quicker amount of time and then I was able
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to move on and what I moved on to was starting to actually work on quality so that means
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composing a song but also playing it into Reaper which allows you to edit your notes
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and it allows you to basically make your notes on time one huge issue that I had because
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I didn't have enough skill was I wasn't able to play on time but you can just click a button
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and it puts everything on time for you in that software and so the songs actually sound
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competent and I noticed that I am going such a great path for learning music because as
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I'm learning about this I'm seeing other paths that other people trying to learn how to make
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music take and they're just taking like a cheap route but this route that I'm taking
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allows I'm just building such great skills that is like found fundamental to music composition
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and I'm so grateful for that I put in like an extra month or two of practice of building
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fundamental skills that a lot of people simply just don't build and it's giving me a huge
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advantage I think and so the hundred hours framework I think there's something to it
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but maybe it's a little less than that and also pay attention to what you're feeling
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at the time if your inspiration drops because you're not learning as much then it's time
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to transition so let's just let's just listen to the song because I was focusing on just
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getting adding different instruments like trumpets piano strings like violins and string
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instruments like cello violin viola I was that's what I was working on with the song
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or with Reaper the quality phase was just focused on adding different instruments and
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getting used to the sounds of different instruments so that when I hear things in my head I can
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be like oh that needs to be trumpet or oh that needs to be strings and what I realized
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recently was that I actually don't need to focus too much on all of that kind of complicated
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stuff because the core the 80% of music composition I think so far what I believe so far is melody
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and a compliment being able to have a good melody and have a good accompaniment like
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I'm pretty sure a compliment is like the background stuff I don't even know I don't know any of
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the music stuff I bought a book on how to compose is like it was called fundamentals of music
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composition and I could not read it because it was talking about music theory and I am
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fine with music theory but it was talking about just all the all the terms that it was
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using in that book made it unreadable because it or unreadable for me because I don't really
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have any knowledge of music theory and I don't really care to gain the knowledge of music
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theory I just want to make good good music and you don't need to know music theory to
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be able to make good music because people made music theory to describe good music and to
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figure out how people made that good music but the people who made the good music didn't
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necessarily know the music theory the music theory was derived from the music itself it's
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like a secondary source instead of the primary source so let's just listen to this song and
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it's I yeah let's just listen to it I'm gonna quit rambling
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man I'm actually just so happy with how much
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progress I made I couldn't even play piano two months ago and I just made that song it
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is so crazy you know there's a huge limiting belief that I used to have and what I noticed
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a lot of people have it's the idea of oh this person's been playing or oh this person's
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been doing this for a year I've only been doing it or I haven't even started doing it
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how am I ever gonna catch up no it's not about how much time you do something someone can
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a taxi driver can have 20 years of experience driving a taxi but that doesn't make him a
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NASCAR racer he is not going to be able to compete against a NASCAR racer who could have
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been driving for maybe 10 years or less I don't know but the point is it's not about
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how much time you put into something it's about the depth or the quality of the time
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that you put into it there was a perfect way to explain this that I had I wrote down in
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my journal a couple weeks ago multiple times actually throughout the past couple months
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I always remind myself that it's not about how much time you put into it it's it's about
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how you make that how what use you make of that time because I played saxophone for five
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years five years and I'm already better at piano than I was at saxophone after two months
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that is the better the better you can get at learning and the better you can there's
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a skill you can get good at something then you can also get good at getting good so you
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can I use to play video games you can get good at one video game or you can get good
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at getting good at video games so that when the next game comes out and all your friends
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are playing that next one you can get good really quick at that next one too and that's
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exactly what I've been doing with real life or I'm not okay video games are a real life
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skill and I'm not saying that as like a child addicted to video gaming I'm saying that as
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yes video games are part of the real world and that's that's a completely different discussion
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I don't even care about that I haven't thought about much about that but I just thought about
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that okay whatever going on with the point is that it doesn't matter how much time don't
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ever be discouraged if someone has ten years of experience no you can catch up to someone
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really quick with just a season of just going all in just pushing pushing yourself I didn't
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even push myself that hard to learn this stuff I wanted to learn it and that's that's a huge
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piece of the puzzle if you don't want to learn something or if your whole being is not on
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board you're not going to make as much progress and you're simply not going to learn as much
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it's just a fact but I my entire being just wants to make music and learn how to make
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better music as quick as possible and that is what that's what allows me to make so much
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progress and I'm so happy with the progress that song in a week from now I'm probably
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going to look at that song and be like man that was terrible but I look at my song that
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I put on this podcast last episode one month ago and it's like comparing a piece of poop
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to a real thing that you want to look at I don't I don't even know where I'm going
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with this basically you can get good really quick at things and a good way to tell if
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you're getting good really good or really quick is well obviously if you look back at
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one week ago and you see that you've grown a lot then that's another telltale sign but
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another sign is if you start learning something in the morning and then you are not already
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competent or you've made significant progress at that thing by a couple hours or not even
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a couple hours but just maybe an hour or by the end of the day you'll have progressed
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significantly in that direction for example when I first started learning the piano the
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day one I was literally sitting in my room looking at the keyboard with flashcards out
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and the flashcards had letters A B C D E F G I almost forgot all of them but A B C D E
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F G all the letters of the white notes on the piano and I literally just looked at the
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flashcard and I'm like oh that one says F so I gotta find F on the piano and then the
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first day when I first looked at the piano obviously I didn't even know anything but
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then after 10 minutes I was like oh I kind of know where F is after a little while of
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practice and then after by the end of the day I was able to spot and find identify F
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or and every single note I was able to identify every single white note so seven notes within
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a couple seconds and by the end of the next day I was able to just do it instantly basically
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and that is a way you can tell if you're making significant progress and I'm basically talking
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in the context of something I'm working on right now that I don't want to reveal because
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I literally started working on this last night and it's something I've kind of felt drawn
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to for the past couple days maybe even weeks but I never really allowed myself to dive
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into it until this morning or maybe last night but this morning today is the first day that
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I started working on this thing that I'm not going to reveal this month simply because
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I don't want to talk about something that I'm doing until I've done it and that's something
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that I've done in the past that there's no benefit to saying your plans so next month
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I will reveal the thing that I'm talking about and I hope that I know it's going to be obvious
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to me that I know alright whatever basically I'm working on something and I'm going to
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reveal it next month that is another item checked off the list I'm yes I have a list
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of discussion topics like I talked about earlier where I listen every every single month I sit
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down and re-listen to the last month's episode and just write down a bunch of talking points
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and in this particular month I have five talking points and I just finished all of them except
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for these last two things in the beginning of this episode I mentioned something I said
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that importance is not the only piece of the puzzle now let's go a little deeper because
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I think that instead of yes I still hold my belief that importance is an addiction but
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there is another thing that I was vaguely aware of it's kind of like a thing that you're
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kind of aware of but you can't really put your finger on it until I became aware of
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it when my friend mentioned it or I don't even remember how I became aware of it but
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probably my friend mentioned it and we realized that transurfing is an addiction me and my
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friend have been becoming super aware of this herd instinct it's this idea of how humans
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developed with a herd mentality that's how we were able to survive and it's obvious like
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look at mobs for example when you get into a crowd your awareness kind of becomes the
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awareness of the herd and then you do things that maybe you wouldn't have done in other
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circumstances there are some extreme examples in history for example world war two there
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was the enemy party of world war two they kind of had the herd mentality where ordinary
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people just like you and I end up doing terrible things another example is like in American
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history with the Native Americans and the settlers and like the American soldiers there
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were examples of the massacres of Native Americans where soldiers would just do terrible things
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but in other circumstances they're just normal people and so that's like the idea of the
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herd mentality where you kind of do things that you wouldn't necessarily do in other
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situations and it's also it also relates to your beliefs for example if you identify as
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a person a part of ex-religion so let's say I'm a Christian if you say I'm a Christian
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then you identify with that herd you your kind of awareness is in that herd and then
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you kind of say oh am I following the rules of the Bible or oh let me look to the Bible
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for answers oh let me look to the priest for answers and this is not just like religion
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this is also literally anything that you can identify with being a YouTuber I don't call
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myself a YouTuber I don't call myself a podcaster I don't call myself any of that because when
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you call yourself something you basically identify with that herd mentality and it can be very
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damaging for example I have been a part of the herd mentality for transurfing and what
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I mentioned earlier was or a moment ago was that me and my friend have been noticing the
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herd mentality in ourselves and we've kind of started to have a dislike for it for example
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when we say the word transurfing to explain or to just convey the idea that we're trying
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to convey at the moment when we say transurfing to convey the essence of transurfing like
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conscious awareness and all that stuff a way of living when we say that we start me and
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my friend start getting a little uncomfortable we start feeling like I don't really like
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that word same thing with self-improvement that would that's a big herd that I've always
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kind of had this feeling of I don't really like it same thing with religion like I grew
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up in Christian household and I never sat right with me just being a part of that herd
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and it's simply because when you're a part of the herd you look for answers outwards
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instead of internal and that's a huge reason why I have the oscillations with transurfing
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when I like I mentioned for the past couple months when I read transurfing I'm happy but
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then for when I finish reading it I start going downhill and I forget it's more like
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when I'm reading transurfing that's like the one text that I am that I found so far that
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really gives me the information that I need to apply and so it's basically me looking
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for answers outwards and then applying them inwards it's no different to the herd mentality
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like you have to look for the answers in the Bible you have to look for the answers to
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you have to ask the priest for answers all the answers but what I realize is that it's
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actually if you start looking for the answers within then that's where like happiness comes
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from and I noticed my friend basically spoke it perfectly the more you listen to in transurfing
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he calls it the heart in Christian Christianity it's called Jesus or Christ or God the more
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you listen to like that voice in and I'm not talking about the the bad voice because there's
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lots of different voices in the mind but I'm talking about that silent kind of knowing
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in your in your being when you kind of know that you have to do something for example
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if you're just sitting on the couch and all of a sudden you're like oh I kind of want
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to learn how to play the piano and you like just have an extreme desire to learn the play
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of piano and that's kind of what I'm talking about here if you start the more you listen
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to that and also when you're making decisions for example when you're making decisions after
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you make a decision you're that kind of voice in your in your being your heart will either
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be comfortable or it will be really happy or it'll just kind of be neutral and the more
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you listen to that during decisions during life whatever it is the more you listen to
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that thing in your mind the happier you become and that's kind of looking for the answers
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within because you can also ask questions for example I had I walk or my neighbor went
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out for vacation a couple weeks ago and she asked me to walk her dogs and so I one day
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I was walking her dog and I had to lock up the house and so I finished walking the dogs
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and I feed them do everything and I lock up the house and I leave but as I'm leaving I
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hear the dogs going crazy like I hear the dog barking and I'm like oh no like I'm kind
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of getting nervous like should I go back in and so instead of just going back into investigate
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and then inevitably the dog will start barking again because that's whatever instead of doing
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that I start walking away and I asked myself am I safe to leave and I I kind of felt that
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feeling I felt for that feeling that I'm referring to in my mind or in my being because it's
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not it's more of like in your chest like I feel it in my chest a lot of times then I
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also sometimes I feel in my head I don't know it's hard to explain but everyone kind of
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intuitively knows what I'm talking about like when you have that feeling that you knew there
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was nothing good that could have come out of it that's what I'm talking about that feeling
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and so I looked for that feeling and the thing I was looking for was inner discomfort if
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there was inner discomfort that would mean that I have to go back and go check on that
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dog because that means that it's not safe to leave but there was no inner discomfort
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it was just kind of empty so I left and the next day I went to go walk the dogs again
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and you know what you know what happened nothing everything turned out perfectly so that's
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what I mean by the more you listen to that voice in your like that quiet voice that
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we often ignore the more you listen to it the happier you become and that's another
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piece of the puzzle yes importance plays a huge role because when you have importance
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you can't listen to that voice when you're you have importance is basically the equivalent
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of putting ear mufflers on and you can't hear anything in regards to that voice so importance
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is it's essential to eliminate importance to be able to hear it but then you also have
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to take the step to hear it and actually pay attention to it that's that's another piece
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of the puzzle where how I have those oscillate or I had those oscillations with Transurfing
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where I would only be happy when I'm reading Transurfing and it's because I forget to look
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inside for the answers and now that I'm aware now that I am aware of it it is a lot easier
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to move forward when you are aware of something it is just it it's a game changer when you're
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aware of something I've had this insecurity with my posture my where it's called rib flare
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it's basically when your upper ribs your push your abs out and it kind of from the side
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if you're wearing a shirt from the side even if you have a six pack from the side it looks
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like you're fat like you have a a big bulging belly but and that was a huge insecurity of
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mine and that it wasn't really an insecurity it was something more of like oh this is kind
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of stupid like I have a six pack I should I should have I want to look like I have a six
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pack from the side so it wasn't like a insecurity where I was beating myself up over it was more
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of like like this is something I want to fix but I just don't know how to fix it and I
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remember I for years I spent years doing stretches trying to trying to fix it and I've I made
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probably like 10% improvement and it was just ridiculous and then all of a sudden I was
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aware of the solution and I found the answer and then over the past couple weeks I've been
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working on it and I've made significant improvements in just a couple weeks when it took years
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to get no progress so that's it's so amazing how how much of a game changer it is when
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you're aware of something and that's you can become aware of it it's so hard to believe
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it when you're not aware of something but you can become aware of it simply by listening
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to that voice like you that voice will lead you in the direction for example recently
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I've been thinking to myself like all areas of my life are on the uphill like everything
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is going great and every part of my life is getting better in what in one year from now
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literally every aspect of my entire life is going to be better physical social mental
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financial literally everything is on the uphill except for one thing and that one thing is
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eyesight and I that's kind of been something I've been vaguely aware of it's like that
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it's like that like I mentioned earlier when you're kind of aware of something but you
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can't put your finger on it it's like that where all my life I'm like okay I have crappy
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vision that's ridiculous like there's no way it's a genetic thing I like I have this
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belief where there's this phrase that I've been repeating to myself lately it's the fact
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that in our society there's this super popular limiting belief of oh it's a genetic thing
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oh you need genetics for that like you need good genetics and then I always repeat to
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myself in my mind oh it's a genetic thing well good thing I have genetics I don't know why
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I just love that phrase so much but basically I feel like it's ridiculous that I have bad
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vision like that's just ridiculous how how silly is that a human being it's your birth
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right to have excellent everything human beings are the most excellent creatures in the entire
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animal kingdom we're the most advanced creatures in the entire world and you're telling me
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I have bad eyesight I can't read things far away you're telling me that and you're telling
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me I have to wear glasses for the rest of my life that I have that it's gonna be on the
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decay for the rest of my life no that's ridiculous I completely reject that notion and I've always
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rejected that notion I always kind of didn't really like wearing glasses I always didn't
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really like wearing contacts and actually I haven't worn glasses or contacts in years
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I only wear it when I drive and I don't even remember the last time I drove probably a
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year and that's the thing it's ridiculous it's our birthright to have excellent every
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aspect of our life excellent health excellent mental health excellent vision literally everything
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should is our birthright we and if you don't believe me well too bad for you too bad for
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you that is such a why would you not want to adopt that belief that belief will do nothing
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but help you belief is such an interesting topic that I've been learning a lot about
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lately and I just I just love how you can have just so stupid beliefs that you cling
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on to it's like that herd mentality that I talked about and I do it all the time like
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or I've been doing better at avoiding that but like I used to I don't even remember if
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I used to do I don't know whatever I basically beliefs are something very important in life
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and the example that I'm saying this was a long tangent whatever the example I'm saying
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is that when you're aware of something it's a game changer for example for a long time
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I didn't want my vision to decay I wanted to fix my vision and I was kind of like aware
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that there's there's definitely a solution out there in the world but I don't know what
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it is and all the solutions that have been brought to my attention like I heard someone
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say that they manifested vision better vision that's just not practical for me I yes I want
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to manifest it but I it doesn't it doesn't work if it doesn't work if that I don't even
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know if that makes sense I manifested myself a better looking physique stronger physique
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but there was a practical way that I actually went about doing that alright whatever basically
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the it's a game changer when you're aware of the solution and I recently talked to a
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guy that I haven't talked to in months like literally months I haven't talked to him and
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he mentioned this thing about red light exposure and how there was a study done with where they
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took a bunch of old people with cataracts and they put them in a room with red light exposure
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for two weeks and after two weeks like all the cataracts were gone and I'm not even sure
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I think I did look up the study and they said that there was more research needed to prove
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its validity I don't know doesn't matter basically that was like oh shoot there is a deaf there
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is a legitimate solution to this now I wasn't super satisfied with the solution of red light
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therapy I don't know why just I just wasn't so I looked a little bit further and what
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do you know I look up how to fix your eyesight and I find a book that explains just that
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it's written by a guy who was born blind and he had to have eye surgery and he was left
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with 99% scar tissue in both of his eyes and so he was basically blind 1% vision and then
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when he was 17 years old he wanted to fix his eyes and so he learned how to like he learned
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exercises like a bodybuilder exercises their muscles and they get stronger so this guy
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exercised his eyes so they got stronger and by within a year he regained 50% vision back
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from being blind to being able to see halfway that's pretty significant and then he is he's
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like 50 years old now he wrote a book and now he's got perfect vision he's able to drive
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he's got like all this stuff and he wrote a book about it and so that that now that
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I'm aware of that book I am no longer unaware that's the power of being aware of something
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I have not taken any action I didn't buy the book I'm probably not gonna buy the book for
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quite a while but now I'm aware of it and now it's not something that is like tormenting
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me where I'm like it's on the back of my mind where all my vision is going downhill now I'm
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completely aware that there is definitely a future version of me that has perfect vision
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and that is what I mean by the power of awareness so that is basically shoot I have one more
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thing to talk about competition there is something that I vaguely been aware of and
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it's the idea of competition like oh I'm competing against all these other entrepreneurs all
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these other youtubers but in reality you're not like there is no competition you are not
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physically put up against another person and you have to beat them down with boxing gloves
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or you are not physically put up against another person and you have to race them and beat them
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to the finish line you are not in that competition in life life is a cooperation and one aspect
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of this is the idea of how everything is a cooperative effort which I became aware or
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I learned a lot about in a book called the sin of humanity but the aware that the aspect
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that I want to talk about is the idea that you don't it's not we're not in competition
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with each other I used to have this idea and while I had this idea I was like uncomfortable
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with it I never really liked the idea of competing with other people I always thought the reason
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why I allowed it into my life was because I thought I would have value in the sense that
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when you're competing against someone you push yourself further and you're motivated
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to act better or to be better but I'm reading this book called the courage to be disliked
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and they're talking about how when you see life as a competition you start to see people
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as your enemies or like your adversaries and instead of and with your friends when you
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have this competitive outlook and your friends have wins then you start to see yourself as
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losing because when you have this competition worldview then it's either win or lose like
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you either win or lose but then when your friend wins let's say your friend does something
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good that does not affect you at all it's just a win for the friend then you start to
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see that as your loss and I noticed that 100% because I noticed it in myself and other people
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where let's say another person it has a huge win I can't fully celebrate them because deep
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down I interpret that as my loss and that's just ridiculous I want to be able to celebrate
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my friends win with my entire being and I learned that potentially the root cause of
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that is the idea that we're all in competition or even the idea that there is any competition
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it's more like we're all in a horizontal plane kind of moving forward in our own direction
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like there is no competition it's you are moving forward and it's the idea of your competing
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against yourself like you are the only person in competition with yourself there is no other
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person in this competition it's just you and that's something I've started to I'm
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glad that I became aware of that once again it's the idea of when you're aware of something
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you you win half the half the battle because this is something I I it didn't sit right
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with me having the idea of competition because it's ridiculous how you can't her or how I
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can't fully celebrate my friends wins like that's just outrageous it's unacceptable
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to me so that's that's why I'm glad that I learned about competition that's it that
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was a long episode I'm about to go to bed it's about to be five o'clock all right peace
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out.
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