January 2025 Monthly Update

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Last month I had a little preview.

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I was foreshadowing the thing that I was working on

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and I wasn't gonna reveal it until this month.

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Now it's because I was planning on actually doing it.

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And I did for one week.

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Here's what I did.

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The thing that I was planning on doing

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was learning how to play the guitar.

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Now for some context, about three months ago,

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on September 20th, 2024,

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I started learning how to play the piano

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so that I could make music for my YouTube videos.

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And one of my original desires was to play the piano

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in my music and have a, or play the piano in my videos

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and have it kind of as a secondary story.

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So I could record myself playing the background music

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and cut to me playing it throughout the video.

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So it'll be like a little story.

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And I actually saw a YouTube video.

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Some guy commented on my, one of my videos recently,

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my really bad video.

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It was the one, it was like my time capsule video.

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And he commented and I'd never seen him before.

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So I checked out his channel

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and he's actually posting similar content to me

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and he's got pretty good content.

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And I saw his most recent video and he actually does that.

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And I really liked it.

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And I'm, I just saw that video today

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where he has his actual video,

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but then he's got like a secondary story

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of him playing the music, the background music.

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It's kind of like a music video,

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but educational and good or well,

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music videos are good too.

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It's different.

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And here is what I,

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but I actually didn't end up doing that

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because I just wanted to make the actual music online

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using different instruments and stuff.

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And I'll play you my most recent song

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that I finished working on this morning.

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But the reason why I don't want to make the videos

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with me playing the piano as a story element

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is because I like having like different instruments

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and different produced sounds in the background.

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I think that it'll be more powerful

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if I'm able to make just better music

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than having that as a secondary story.

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And so instead, last month,

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I started having a desire to learn how to play guitar.

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So I thought, oh, maybe that's what I was gonna do.

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Instead of playing piano, I could have a guitar part.

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So I could have me playing like chords on the guitar.

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And in the background,

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also have that as the part of the song

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of the actual score for the video.

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And so I started learning how to play piano

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and I actually started memorizing like all the notes.

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It is actually insane.

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If you know all the notes, it takes like a month.

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And I was putting in hours into memorizing the notes.

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With piano, you just have to memorize like 13 positions

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and it repeats across the entire board.

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But if you want to do the same thing with guitar,

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where if you look at a note,

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you instantly know which one it is

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without having to count like with the second one.

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So if you only know the C note in that particular area,

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then you'd have to count up half steps to like C sharp, D.

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Oh wait, I don't even know what I'm, yeah, D.

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C sharp, D, D sharp, E.

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And you just have to keep counting.

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But if you want to know it instantly,

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like look at that fret and say,

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oh, that's E, then you have to be able

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to memorize every single position.

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And with piano, there's only 13 shapes to memorize,

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13 positions, all seven white keys,

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and then all five black notes,

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which are like the sharps and flats.

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But with guitar, there is no such like,

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of no such repetition.

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You have to know like, you have to memorize like 48 positions

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or like 60.

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I don't even, I did the math.

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It was like around maybe 60 notes.

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I don't know how, I forgot how much it was,

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but it was a lot.

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You have to memorize 60 things.

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And it's not just memorizing it

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because I did end up memorizing them all.

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You have to memorize them and be able to instantly say

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and instantly know what it is.

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So I'm looking at the D note on the piano

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and I don't even have to think about it.

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I just know this is D, this is G.

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I know. But with guitar, you also have to know that too.

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And I actually memorized a lot of it,

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but I didn't memorize it like instantly.

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And then after a while, I realized,

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after like a week, I realized I wasn't as motivated,

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as inspired to learn how to play guitar.

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So that was a telltale indicator

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that maybe that's not the right thing

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for me to do at the moment.

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And so I realized that what I actually wanted to do

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was finally start to apply all of this musical stuff

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that I learned because over the past couple months,

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I literally stopped making all YouTube videos,

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stopped everything just to learn how to make music

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for my videos.

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And last month I played a song that was very good.

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I still think it's pretty good.

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And I played a song

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and I realized after a week of playing guitar,

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I realized that it's time to get back into the videos

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because there was two compasses that I had.

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When you kind of jump into the deep end

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and you're like wandering around the dark forest,

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you don't really know what you're doing.

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You don't know if you're gonna get lost.

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And that's what I did.

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When I started, when I decided to learn music and piano,

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it was like I was going into the forest

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and I could have gotten lost.

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So for two months, I was wandering around the forest

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and it's very easily to get lost in a dark forest.

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And so you have to have a compass

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in order to know if certain things,

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you have to have a compass to know your way back.

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And I had two compasses.

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One was if I have a feeling of inspiration

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and motivation to get back into YouTube,

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for example, not just YouTube in general,

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but if I have a motivation

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or if I get inspired to make a certain video,

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then that's an indicator that it's time to get back.

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And that actually happened with the video

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that I didn't complete because I wanted to drop it

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and start learning music.

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About a month into music,

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I was inspired to finish that video and I actually posted it.

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But then I went back into music

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because I wasn't ready to make the actual song for it.

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And then a couple of weeks later,

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I reminded myself of my compass.

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And the second compass was if I'm simply afraid

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to get back into YouTube.

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Because when you start doing something,

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like when I first started my YouTube channel

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and started all that stuff,

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it was the scariest times of my life.

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So scary.

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And I'm not exaggerating, I'm not trying to...

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Like when I decided to make a business,

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when I filed for my LLC, which was literally nothing

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because I didn't actually need it,

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but to me that was like a commitment.

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Like this was the path that I'm taking.

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When I filed that LLC, I was shaking.

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Like that was the scariest moment.

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So not the scariest moment,

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but that was one of the most scariest moments of my life.

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And so the compass that I had was if I get afraid

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of going back into YouTube where I'm like,

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oh, I don't really want to do this anymore.

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Then that's like, okay, it's time to get back into YouTube

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and start making videos.

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Now, thankfully, the second one didn't happen.

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I was not afraid.

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I was a little nervous, but that was like more excitement

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to obvious nervousness.

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So what happened was I got inspiration

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to make a certain type of video

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and I started making videos.

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And I've made, I think, two videos so far

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that I posted with my own music in the background.

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And then the third video that I actually made

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is not posting until one year from now

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because last year, January 1st, 2024,

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I recorded a video and scheduled it for one year

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in the future just so I can see where I'm at.

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And I realized that that was posting.

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So I made another one and scheduled it

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for one year from now.

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And so I basically have three reps with music,

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three reps with applying my music skills to videos.

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That's not that many.

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That's not very much reps

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because I can already tell that my scores for videos

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are not as good as my scores just that I'm making

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because what I do is I've got a process that I do,

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a new process that I've came up with

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for my creation of YouTube videos,

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which I'll get into in a little moment.

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But first I wanna talk about how,

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or actually let me just play the song

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that I made this morning

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so you can hear what I've, all the progress I've made.

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workout begins

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It's decent and I think that it could be a lot better because there are a few parts

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in there. For example, one part where everything went quiet and then it hit. I

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should have done that more often towards the end and the intro I just did not

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like. But I'm moving on because there's something I'm trying to practice and it's

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my ability to feel a feeling and execute it because I learned this in a book

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called On The Track. It's a book on how to score films, how to write the music

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that they play in the background of movies. And there are two main

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components that I've been focusing on and it's the color and the composition.

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Last month I thought it was all composition which is very important but

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the color is very important too. And the color is like what sounds are being used.

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So you could play the same composition on a tuba or a flute and it will sound

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radically different. And so that's what I've been paying attention to. What I do

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is I've incorporated this into my video production process, my creative process.

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I don't know if it's gonna stay there forever simply because I don't know how

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practical it is for the actual video but it is very good for getting more

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repetitions. What I do is first I come up with an idea, a feeling, an experience, a

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memory I've had. So for example one one of my videos it was a memory that I had

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of laying in bed in the morning and just feeling hopeless, like being so miserable.

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Completely immobile, unable to get out of my bed. And so I was like okay that's the

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memory I have. How do I feel? And I wanted to be able to basically put that idea

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into music, like create a song around that idea. And I did that and then I used

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that song and I have an mp3 player, I downloaded that song onto my mp3 player

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and I started brainstorming the title and the thumbnail of the video. And then

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once I have the title and the thumbnail I come up with the intro or the log line

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which is like the description of the video, what it's about in a short amount

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of words as possible, like under 25 words. And then I come up with the intro, the

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first couple, like the first one or two sentences of the video, the hook. And once

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I do all that then I have a better idea of what the video will be. And then I make

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another song of what that video will be, trying to describe the essence of that,

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of the video with this song. Before I was describing the essence of the idea and

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now I'm describing the essence of the video with this, with my music. And so I

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make another video or another song with called Sample. The first song was

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brainstorm music and the second one was Sample. And then I use the sample once

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I'm done making that song, I listen to it and I use it to brainstorm the script

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and come up with all the shots that I'm gonna take. So all the different, all the

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actual videos that you see me put together into the final product. And then

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once I do that I execute, I record, edit, and finally once I'm done editing I

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score the whole thing. And so I make a third song, the final soundtrack for the

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actual video. And that's where, that's where the actual final song that you hear

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in the actual video is. And the way that I do that is you basically ask, you watch

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the video through and you ask yourself, what do I want to feel? So while I'm

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watching this, what do I want to feel? Do I want to feel motivated? Do I want to

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feel approved? Do I want to feel like I'm being taken seriously? Do I want to feel

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like hearted? Like what do I want to feel? For example in the video that I'm

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currently working on right now, it's the working title that I've decided on so

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far. I have two titles. One is a new type of title that I'm testing out. Is

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something like, this will happen to you after watching this for 60 seconds or

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something like that. And the other title, the shorter title is like, you have 60

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seconds to choose. And then the thumbnail is like on the left, one

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idea that I have is on the left, it's a picture of like a derp skin on Minecraft

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which if you play Minecraft, if you've watched Minecraft YouTube videos you

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probably know what that is. A derp skin on the left and then the on the right it's

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me, just a picture of my face. It's just a brand new, I'm testing a lot of

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radically different ideas on this video. And I'll actually get into why that is

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in a little bit, or actually not in a little bit. I'll talk about that next

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month. But I asked myself, how do I want to feel? And you want to basically

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confirm that feeling with the music. And that's what I'm practicing. It's not

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the easiest thing to do, but it just takes practice. And that's what I'm doing

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with my ability to convey an emotion with music through, and then also my

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ability to have strengthened a feeling that the viewer is having. And here's

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why I care so much about the music. Because I always think in terms of

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bottlenecks. So I look at my goal and I see that my current skills, like the

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current creations that I'm producing, the videos I'm making, and I see like what

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is missing. What's the thing that's holding me back? What skill is just

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sucking compared to everything else? And it's the thing that if I can improve

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that, then everything will get a little boost. Currently, my two bottlenecks are

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not even bottlenecks. One is a bottleneck, and it's my packaging. But the other

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music is those two things, packaging and music, are both what I currently believe

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to be the most important aspects of my current video style. And here's why.

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Packaging, first of all, packaging is my bottleneck because you can, you look at

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channels who have 100 subscribers, and then all of a sudden they make a video

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that has like a very, it just has the right title. And then they blow up. 250k.

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There's a case study on YouTube, you can look them up. His name is Hoff, H-O-F-F.

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I've talked about him in a past. I haven't checked his channel in a while,

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but he had a video where he was at like 100 subscribers or something like that,

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and then he had a video just blow up. And it's simply because the title,

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something about the video was good, and it was probably the packaging. Because my

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theory is the packaging, because I think that my videos, my execution for my

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videos are the best that they have ever been, and yes, I could have said that at

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any moment in my journey, but now I think that they're actually watchable. And I'm

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saying that with data to prove my point. I have like about 50% of people stick

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till the end of my videos, and I also have people regularly say that I'm

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underrated in the comments. And I've been very careful with looking at the comments,

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because right now I'm in a very critical point in my journey, where I actually

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think that I have a good chance of blowing up, and I'm saying that with a sober mind,

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because I believed that for my entire journey so far, all the entire time, ever

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since I started. But now I actually think that it's true, like I genuinely know

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that it could happen at any day, and it's not like just an optimistic

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belief that I have anymore, it's like a true knowledge. And so I'm at a critical

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point where I've seen people blow up just on one video, where they don't have

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like the greatest, they haven't really developed their craft too much yet, and

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they've get like a million views on one or two videos, and then they just do not

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get any views. And so now their channel looks like they have a lot of subscribers,

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but they're getting like no views. I do not want that, because I want to be able

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to grow organically without getting diluted by my subscriber count. And that's

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why I am so grateful for this period in time that I'm at, because I have like

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300 subscribers. I have 300 subscribers, but I'm actually producing like pretty

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good videos, and people are like, oh you're so underrated, you deserve more views.

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But honestly, I'm like this is an ideal spot to be, where I have this thing that

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I notice where if I'm getting more views than my subscriber count, then that shows

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that I'm doing something right. And that's what I've been doing. Not five

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videos ago, I was getting like 20 views. But for the past couple of videos, I'm

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getting them all more views than my current subscriber count. And I think that

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means that I'm doing something right. And I'm trying very hard not to get diluted,

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because that is a very dangerous path to walk down, because I've walked it

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before. Now packaging is the most, is my bottleneck right now, because if I have,

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I'm good, I believe that I'm good at executing videos, but I'm not great yet

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at coming up with viral ideas. Like great ideas. Jack Pickett is an example of

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someone who's excellent at coming up with very viral, like he's excellent, he's

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very good at coming up with titles and thumbnails that will probably go viral.

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Because he has had probably the most success in the type of videos that I'm

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creating on all of the history of YouTube, potentially, or at least close to it.

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So packaging is a bottleneck, but then the second component is music. And

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here's why, because when I scroll through people's videos, their channels, and

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I see the packaging, it is garbage. Like if I see garbage packaging, low-quality

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pictures and the thumbnails, I'm like, this channel sucks. Like this is a terrible

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channel, like I'm not watching them. But then when I actually click on their

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video, it is actually pretty good. Like the packaging is just a dump, it's

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garbage. But the video is like a hidden gem. I don't want that for my channel. And

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I noticed that that's exactly what my channel is kind of like. Maybe not as

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much recently, but definitely in the past. My channel is like, my thumbnails are

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garbage, but the video is actually pretty decent. I don't want that. And so that

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reframes the viewer, where if they see a garbage thumbnail, they're probably not

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even gonna want to click. And if they do, they're not gonna think it's as high

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quality, even if it is. So that's why packaging is like your branding. If you

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see MrBeast's channel, you don't even have to look at his videos and you know

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that that's a high quality channel, because his thumbnails are top-line, state

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of the art. And if you look at someone else's channel, who may have excellent

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video quality, but garbage thumbnails, then you're not gonna think their channel

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is that good. And I want my channel to look good. I want it to look high quality,

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like it's a piece of art. And the second component is music, because once you get

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them on the video, I want to make better videos, which is like the YouTube game,

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also the artistic aspect of it. I want to get better at the YouTube game by

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having more views and all that. But I also want to make videos that transform.

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And one of the most effective ways that I've noticed to be able to transform

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people is art, and more specifically music. I started to view my content as a

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work of art. Not like in a self-important sense, but while I'm making it, I'm not

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thinking anymore that this is business. Like I'm not thinking, oh, I'm gonna make

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a lot of money. I'm thinking like this is my creation, like this is my art. I want

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it to be as good as possible. Because before, early in my journey, and I know

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that I am still very early in my journey, but like a year ago, I was in the mindset

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of business and it's very not good. It's very harmful for your, I think it's

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harmful for your success, but it's also just not good for the viewer either.

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Because you're, the viewer just, you're not gonna have a great connection with the

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viewer. And it makes YouTube just very saturated. That's what people talk about,

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how it's very saturated. But if you make art, then it's impossible for YouTube to

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be saturated, because that's the nature of art. It's art. And music is one

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component of the art where it's like a personal expression, but it's also a way

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to transform people. Because I read a music book. It was called The Music

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Lesson. And he talked about this dude, who this musician back in the day, like

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maybe 50 years ago, 70 years ago, who was considered the world's most dangerous

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man by the FBI. Now I did look into it, like an hour, like 30 minutes ago when I

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started, just before I started recording. And I didn't really care too much to look

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very far into it, but I did see like documents about him on the FBI list. I

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don't, I don't know anything about it. Don't, this might be misinformation. I don't

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know. And to be honest, I don't really care. But what I do care about is the fact

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that music has an ability to completely change people, and not necessarily

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change people, but influence people tremendously and touch them to the core.

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Because the reason why he was on the FBI most wanted, or not most wanted list, but

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he was on a watch list by the FBI was because, I think it's because he was, he

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had a lot of political opinions, and he had a lot of, now I actually don't even

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know what to talk about. And I'll get into that concept of me not knowing what

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I'm talking about at the end of this episode. But basically this dude had the

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ability to sway a large portion of the public, and that was very dangerous. Like

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if you have the ability to sway a large portion of the public, for example, if you

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just look at any leader in history, Hitler, Jesus, and I'm listening like

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extremely effective leaders, not necessarily good or bad, because if you

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have the ability to sway a large portion of the public, then that can be a very

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dangerous movement. Hitler and Jesus were very different people, just like

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everyone is very different, but they're just good examples of how you can

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influence people. And music is one way to influence people, and this guy was

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able to influence a large portion of the public, and he was put on the FBI's most

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wanted list. Not most wanted list. What am I even saying? Let's move on. Don't

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even listen to anything I just said. Basically I think that music has the

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ability to transform people's lives, because when I used to watch videos, or I

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still watch videos, but over the years, the videos that really changed me were

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not necessarily like self-improvement videos, like where it was just a dude

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that I was listening to giving me advice. Yeah, those were practical, and I got

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valuable information from them that I could apply, but it didn't necessarily

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change who I... like it didn't necessarily change the way I see the world, and that

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is way more important than practical advice, in my opinion. If you can change

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people's worldview, then they will do the rest of the work on their own, and so

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that's what I really think that music and treating your content as a creation,

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and not just business, is the key to being able to transform people, just like I

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was transformed. I want to be able to create... okay, I read a lot of books, and

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what I noticed over the years is I am wondering why not a lot of people read,

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because... or not a lot of people read effectively, because if you pick up a book,

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as long as it's the right type of book, like it's a book that will change the

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way you see the world, as long as you just read the book and just keep reading,

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you are guaranteed to have a different looking life and a different way of seeing

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the world over the course of the next couple weeks, months, and years. Your

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life will be completely different, as long as you just keep on reading, and so I

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want to... I've noticed that when I read books, I change, like I completely

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transform just by reading books, and I want to do that with my videos. I want

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people to be able to watch my videos and do nothing else, just watch my videos, but

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be transformed. That's what I want, and I think that music, trading near videos as

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art, having... putting a lot of effort into it, is the prime components to that.

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Man, I repeat so much stuff, and that's what I want to talk... I was gonna save

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this till the end, but I want to talk about that right now. I was talking with

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my friend the other day, and I kept on repeating the same thing over and over

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again, trying to figure out what I was trying to say as I was saying it, and I

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was like... at the end of my statement, I was like, man, I gotta stop that. I keep

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on repeating, and he was like, no, like we're learning, like that's... you're not

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gonna be good at talking about something unless you're... unless you're very

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knowledgeable in that subject. And I noticed that with my actual videos, or

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not my videos, I think that I'm pretty knowledgeable on my YouTube video subject,

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but on my podcast, I talk about a lot of stuff that I'm learning at the moment, and

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I have to repeat a lot of things over and over again, and that's just the nature

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of documenting my progress, my process, because I'm learning along the way, and

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I'm documenting along the way, so fundamentally, I'm probably not gonna be able

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to understand too effectively, at least in the beginning. And this is a long-term

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investment. Like, I don't even know how many people are listening to this.

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One month, I had a thousand downloads, like a thousand views in one month, which

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is nothing, but then the next month, I had like 10 views. So I don't even know how

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many people are listening to this. I don't even know if anyone is listening to

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this, and it doesn't really matter because this is a long-term investment. I'm

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doing this for myself now, but I know that this will pay off a lot in the

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future, because that's just the nature of it. And so I don't really care too much

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if I'm not very knowledgeable in my subject, because what I noticed recently,

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I've been really aware of this concept, because I have fallen

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prey to it. And to be honest, I don't think that I am under the influence of

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this concept at the moment, but it's very possible that I could be deluded. And

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this concept is that there's a generation, my generation, of online

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content creators who are all about, find your purpose, live true to yourself. And

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I am all for that. I love that concept, but I notice that our generation is just

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the most lost, because I've noticed that, for example, one person may get a sudden

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growth. Oh, here it is. In a lot of videos I noticed, people get a radical

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improvement, or a radical spike in their viewership. They get a lot of

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subscribers, and then they kind of stop getting views, and so they're not able to

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really replicate it, but then they make a video on how to do what they did,

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how to blow up on YouTube, how to grow on YouTube. And I noticed that, I'm like,

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that is just, you're just selling yourself short. I noticed that so much, and I did

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it too. I did 1% dad, I was selling myself short. And to be honest, it was

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really just, it wasn't for the money, because I actually thought that was part

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of my path, and it was. And I'll get into why it was. But I have a theory that it

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might be because people, I actually don't even know, this is just a new idea that

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I've came up with, how people, our generation is just lost. That's what

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I'm trying to say. And me too, I'm lost. But I really think that I, how am I

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trying to say this? Our generation is lost, but I think that if we just keep

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moving forward, and keep being aware, then everyone will be able to find their

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place. And here's why I, I know that the 1% dad thing was a part of my path, and

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it was because I was super intolerant. Like I, you go back on my YouTube channel,

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search up a video called, mediocrity is not your own model. That video was, was

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not the original video that I made. There was another video that I made just

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before that I was going to make, or I actually did make, and I was going to

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post a different video instead. That was way more intolerant, but mediocrity is

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not your own model, was actually the censored version. And man, I really needed

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to go through the 1% dad phase because you know what that taught me? It taught

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me like tolerance, and not, not just tolerance, but it expanded my worldview

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because it, the type of intolerance that I had was just ignorance. It was just, it

452
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was like delusional. It was self-importance. And going through the 1% dad

453
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thing that I did, I actually studied people. I, I took YouTube comments that

454
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were commented, and I wrote them out. And I actually taught myself to grow and

455
00:38:13,200 --> 00:38:20,760
appreciate people. And that was just the most valuable experience ever because I

456
00:38:20,760 --> 00:38:29,440
would not be as, like I, I wouldn't be who I am today if I didn't do that, if I

457
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didn't go through that phase, where I just grew and I became, I don't like the

458
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word tolerant because it's, it still implies that I'm somehow better. And I

459
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also don't like accepting because, but I hope you understand that that period

460
00:38:51,440 --> 00:38:56,960
really helped me to grow as a person and not be so limited and self-important

461
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based. Like don't, don't think of myself as so important. That's why that period was

462
00:39:03,160 --> 00:39:10,800
so powerful for me. And that's also why I think that the period where I don't

463
00:39:10,800 --> 00:39:15,760
necessarily think is good. For example, there's a concept like the fake guru. It's

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the person who didn't really get successful doing their own thing, but

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00:39:24,200 --> 00:39:27,960
they got successful and they made a lot of money teaching people how to get

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successful and make a lot of money. That's a concept that I think a lot of

467
00:39:32,360 --> 00:39:39,440
people are falling prey to lately. And I, I am no, I'm not immune to that either

468
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because I did fall prey to that with the 1% dad, but like I explained, I think it

469
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was essential to my journey. And the reason why I think that I did fall

470
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prey to that was because simply because I was not a father. I was not credible to

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talk about that topic. And, but it was one of most valuable moments or a couple

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of months in my entire life for my development. And that's why I think that

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it's not necessarily a bad thing as long as people keep being aware and keep

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being true to themselves. If other people are also doing that thing where they're,

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for example, if they blow up, one video blows up on YouTube and they start

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teaching how to blow up on YouTube, but they're not able to do it again. That is

477
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one thing that I don't, I don't necessarily dislike it. I just think that

478
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it's kind of weird. I think that I just feel like icky about it. If I, I don't

479
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even know. I hope that makes sense. It's almost like they're selling themselves

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short. Like they're being content with less for themselves because they did

481
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something and they went deep into something. Like they were able to build

482
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their skills enough to blow up on YouTube, like get one video to blow up, but

483
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then they're like accepting of it and they are kind of like content with that.

484
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Instead of going deeper, they stop and turn around and they say, oh here I did

485
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this, so now let me teach other people how to do this. Let me teach you how to do

486
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this. But I think is, and this is just from my very limited perspective, I think

487
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that they're being accepting of a lot less. They're cutting themselves short. I

488
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don't really, I hope you understand. Like this is, they're, they have such higher

489
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potential, but they're not going for it. Does that make sense? It's, it's why I, I

490
00:41:52,400 --> 00:41:58,080
have so much respect for Mr. Beast because over the years he has had a

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tremendous amount of success. His initial success, he had like a hundred thousand

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or counting 200,000. Video blew up and I don't, I don't know. I didn't study, I

493
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didn't analyze his, his channel around that time to know if he did this or not,

494
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but he never turned into a how to grow on YouTube YouTuber. He never went around

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and taught people how to do that. Yes, he went on podcasts and shared his tips, but

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he didn't really make a living off of that. Like he didn't turn that into his

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main thing. He just kept going deeper and deeper into his own field, his own

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craft. And I have so much respect for that. And also it's not that I don't have

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respect for turning around and teaching people. I, I get so much value from

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people doing that. I really appreciate it when people go deep into their field and

501
00:42:55,320 --> 00:42:59,760
turn around and say, here, I learned all this stuff. Let me teach other people. That

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is an essential part to life. Like that is very valuable, but when a lot of people

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do that and also people don't go so deep, it's valuable when someone goes deep.

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They have like 10 years of just putting it in and then they teach. That's valuable.

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But when people do it for like a year or two and they have this like basic thing,

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like if you have a basic skill, like I'm trying to think of an example. Let's say

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you, like YouTube is one example, but another example, one, let's say you have a

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basic skill, like you improved your sleep. Okay. And you improved your, you read like

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a sleep book. That's what I did. I read a sleep book and I improved my sleep over

510
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the course of a year or a little bit. I improved my sleep and I look at myself and

511
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like, okay, what, what have I done? And I'm like, oh, I did improve my sleep. So let me

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become a sleep expert and let me teach other people how to do that. How to do

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that. Well, it's, I, if I did that, I'd be like cutting myself so much short and I

514
00:44:16,880 --> 00:44:22,520
don't know if cutting short is like a great way to describe it. Basically, I

515
00:44:22,520 --> 00:44:26,560
could have gone so much deeper into, let's say I was actually interested in

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learning sleep. I could have gone deeper, done a lot of research, done a lot of

517
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studies, become like a scientist, become a researcher, become, I could have gone

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way, way, way, way, way, way deeper. And sleep is not the greatest example, but let's

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00:44:40,680 --> 00:44:48,600
say like YouTuber, Mr. Beast, this relates to Mr. Beast, he went way deeper and he

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was basically able to fulfill way deep, way more of his potential, if that makes

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sense. Anyways, I just think that it's very interesting how I've noticed a lot of

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people are kind of doing this, but I'm also not necessarily against it because

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I know that it was very valuable for me with the 1% dad thing, but it was only

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valuable because I stopped. People can do what they want, basically, but that's

525
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just an idea that I've had that is very, it's a, I think it's an interesting point

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of view of allowing yourself, or of keep pushing deeper instead of just staying at

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the surface level and cutting yourself short. Let's move on to the next thing.

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Transurfing addiction. That's one thing I'd noticed or I talked about last month,

529
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how it's kind of like an addiction where I can only feel happy when I go back and

530
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reread Transurfing. Now, I come up with a lot of ideas and there are probably some

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in this video that are like this too. These ideas I come up with and I obsess

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over them in the time being, but then after a couple weeks or months of

533
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contemplation, I realize, oh, that's probably not the case, or oh, that's

534
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probably not as great as I thought, or oh, that's actually probably really stupid

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to think. And it's the idea that I realized was stupid. One idea I realized was

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stupid was the idea that I can only be happy when I'm reading Transurfing. That

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idea is stupid, but the solution that I came up with had good intentions, but it

538
00:46:37,400 --> 00:46:43,920
was not that great because I said, I noticed that when I'm reading Transurfing,

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I'm happy, but then when I'm not reading it, I slowly started to decline and then

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I can only be happy again when I read it. So the solution I came up with was just

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to remind myself constantly be super aware and look inwards, which did work.

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But not that great because like a week ago or maybe even a couple weeks ago, I

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had like this breakdown in my mind. Not physically like I wasn't screaming and

544
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slamming doors, but my mind was just shutting down because I was just, I was

545
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unable to experience happiness and I remember sitting at my kitchen table

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just preparing myself some food and I was super aware. I was just paying

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attention to my mindset and I was like, man, I am not happy right now. Like this

548
00:47:34,040 --> 00:47:41,920
is unacceptable. I want to be happy. How do I be happy? And I kept on repeating

549
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that to myself like, why is it so complicated to be happy? And so I realized,

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oh shoot, I'm actually just making this complicated. I just have to let go and be

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happy. But that wasn't really that great of a long-term solution. And here's why.

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Because I started reading this book and I realized, okay, this idea is stupid where

553
00:48:04,000 --> 00:48:08,080
you have to figure out and you're on note. That's stupid. Happiness is one of the

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most valuable things where I am going to do whatever it takes as long as I feel

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authentic happiness. Now, I hope you take those words into context because I'm not

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saying like I'm going to do drugs or anything like that because that's not

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authentic happiness. I'm talking like, if it takes me to read a book, I'm not going

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to stop myself from reading a book if I can be reminded how to be happy. And so

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there's a book that I picked up is called Living with the Law and it was on

560
00:48:41,040 --> 00:48:46,600
this guy's reading list. And I started reading it and immediately, if it reminded

561
00:48:46,600 --> 00:48:51,600
me, it was very similar in power to Transurfing where Transurfing always

562
00:48:51,600 --> 00:48:55,920
reminds me how to be happy. And this has reminded me how to be happy. And one idea

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I realized in that book was when you start learning or when you start training

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your mind early on, you're going to make a lot of mistakes. But then you just keep

565
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going, keep going. And then over the course of the years, your mind will get

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stronger and stronger and stronger. And then maybe 30 years later, you're not

567
00:49:15,840 --> 00:49:21,080
going to make as many mistakes. You're going to be a lot firmer, a lot, a lot

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00:49:21,080 --> 00:49:27,320
more stable. You're going to be able to maintain your happiness a lot more often.

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And I realized that I'm super early in the game of training my mind. I

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only started learning about this stuff maybe one and a half, maybe two or three

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00:49:39,520 --> 00:49:47,400
years, maybe two years ago, I don't know. And so it makes sense that I got to keep

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00:49:47,400 --> 00:49:52,360
reminding myself, keep training myself, especially early in the game. So it's

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fundamentally stupid, I think, to prevent yourself from reading books about it,

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especially early in the game. Now it might be a different story 30 years down

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the road when I've built a very strong foundation, but I don't know, I'm not

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there yet. So that's why I'm actually taking back that idea of

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transurfing addiction. But there is still an idea of like the, what is it called,

578
00:50:26,520 --> 00:50:31,320
the herd mentality. Like I still think that, like that is definitely a very

579
00:50:31,320 --> 00:50:39,320
prevalent thing where people identify with that identity and it, they have to

580
00:50:39,320 --> 00:50:45,280
act within that limited sense. I disagree with that. Like I do not want any herd

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00:50:45,280 --> 00:50:52,800
mentality in my life. I still think that that is not good, but I still think it's

582
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valuable to read the book. And one very valuable concept that I learned in the

583
00:51:01,240 --> 00:51:06,240
book, that was exactly what I needed to hear on how to be happy. Like I said, I

584
00:51:06,240 --> 00:51:09,800
was going through like the, I was going through the oscillations where I was

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00:51:09,800 --> 00:51:18,520
feeling the negative feelings. And I read this paragraph or this little example in

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00:51:18,520 --> 00:51:25,640
this book. When you're cold, you don't try and like eliminate the cold. You don't

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00:51:25,640 --> 00:51:35,160
try to make the cold less prevalent. You just start a fire and get heat. There is

588
00:51:35,160 --> 00:51:46,320
no, there is no less cold. It's just, it's you're cold. So then introduce warmth. And

589
00:51:46,320 --> 00:51:52,360
the cold will automatically disappear. And so that's what I was, I was making a

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00:51:52,360 --> 00:51:57,320
massive mistake with when I realized I was not happy. I was sitting at the

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kitchen table preparing my food and I noticed I wasn't happy. And so I was

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00:52:01,640 --> 00:52:09,400
trying to reduce my unhappiness. I was trying to reduce the amount of coldness

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that I felt. But that's just fundamentally not the way nature works. If

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00:52:16,560 --> 00:52:24,720
instead you introduce fire to your, your experience, then the coldness will just

595
00:52:24,720 --> 00:52:29,520
disappear. It'll delete on its own. And so that's what I needed to realize if you

596
00:52:29,520 --> 00:52:41,200
just introduce joy or I, I have no idea. It's such a difficult thing to talk

597
00:52:41,200 --> 00:52:45,000
about because I am not very knowledgeable on the subject. Like I had

598
00:52:45,000 --> 00:52:52,040
mentioned earlier how I have to repeat and kind of figure out what I'm trying to

599
00:52:52,040 --> 00:52:57,200
say along the time. But that's actually the value of it. Because I'm not

600
00:52:57,200 --> 00:53:01,560
posting like, yeah, I'm posting these, but I know that no one's really listening

601
00:53:01,560 --> 00:53:05,760
to these. And to be honest, I'm not really putting that much time into these. I'm

602
00:53:05,760 --> 00:53:10,240
just writing down a little bit, a couple of bullet points, relistening to the last

603
00:53:10,240 --> 00:53:17,840
episode and then talking for like an hour. I'm not trying to make it, yeah, I'm

604
00:53:17,840 --> 00:53:20,920
trying to make it better, but I'm not really focusing that much attention or

605
00:53:20,920 --> 00:53:27,080
effort on it. It's really just for me. And the reason why I'm posting that is

606
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because I know that this will be a huge asset in the future. And even if it's

607
00:53:32,920 --> 00:53:37,400
not, it's still an asset to my development. I'm learning a lot. Just

608
00:53:37,400 --> 00:53:45,600
talking, simply just talking and trying to explain new concepts. You learn a

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tremendous amount. Goodbye.