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June 4, 2024
June 2024 Monthly Update
I have 228 subscribers. Recorded on 6/3/24. I have too big of an ego. I suck at YouTube. I have been learning about thumbnails and storytelling structure.
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I am an idiot and before I explain why let's talk about how many subs I have last month when I last talked I
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Had 175 I failed to reach my goal of 200 and I did not set another goal
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But this month right now I have 228 subscribers
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So that's just my sub count. I don't really care about that and
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I'll get into why that is later
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but
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The reason why I'm an idiot is because in the last monthly update one month ago
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I recorded that whole thing and
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Right after I finished recording it. I was thinking man. This is not good. I should not post this
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because I basically had an ego in that and I
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I basically exclaimed my future aspirations and
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intentions and that's not something you should do I bet I
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Spoke on my plans that I have for the future and
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I also
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Said that I was gonna accomplish something before I even did it
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And I'm not gonna say what I said you can go back and listen to that episode if you want but
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I
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Immediately after that I
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Was thinking man. I should not post this and
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So I re listened to the whole thing and it was all fine except for the end like the last
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The last bit was the bad part, but I posted it anyways and then
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immediately after that I
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Looked into ego because for the past couple years. I have been
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having a desire to
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learn about ego because I knew that I had an issue with ego and
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I don't really know what ego is even now. I still don't know what ego is
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but I
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Remember for the past couple of years. I had been thinking to myself. Oh, I can't wait until I get into ego is I'm gonna be
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It's gonna be so good once I start learning about ego and I can't really explain why it's just I kind of have this
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subtle knowing
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It's kind of similar to how before I started learning about like
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Controlling your thoughts and all of the stuff going on in your mind. I had this
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Kind of knowing this intuition that I should probably learn about your thoughts because I remember
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When I was getting into reading I was only reading books on
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physical stuff so I would read books on how to breathe properly
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Books on how to eat properly how to sleep and I was just reading all of like the physical stuff
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But intuitively I understood that oh well
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I was improving all of this stuff in the physical like my body
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But what about like in my mind and I didn't really know what I was even thinking
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I just had this kind of slight vague intuition that oh maybe I should start learning about
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Mind or learning about thought or whatever that is. I didn't even know what that was
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so I looked up on Google like books on mind or books on thoughts and
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I didn't really I looked through all like the books recommended and I didn't really wasn't really interested in any of them, but I
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Had that intuition and then later on
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Eventually I did find a book called reality trans surfing which I ended up reading three times by now and
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and that book was life-changing so I had that intuition to
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Learn about like whatever is going on in my mind to focus on that aspect and
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It was the same thing with ego and I still have no idea what ego is
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But right after I recorded that episode last month. I
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Decided to just pull the trigger and start looking into ego
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So I looked up on Google like books on ego and I found a YouTube video of a guy talking about books and there was
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Ego is the enemy. That's the book that I came across and I heard about that. I was like, okay sure so I bought it
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I read that book and
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It told me exactly what I needed to hear on
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That front on the front of your aspirations because ego is the enemy talks all about like your
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Strivings when you're in three phases of life when you're striving for something when you are successful and when you have failed
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those are like the three
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stages of life and
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That's what it focuses on and that's exactly what I needed for that video or what I'm talking about right now
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Which was how last month I?
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Spoke on something that I was gonna do that I had planning on doing on in the future
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Which I shouldn't have done should have kept that in my mind
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but
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I
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Still have this kind of other aspect to ego and I don't even know if this is ego, but it's like
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Annoyance of other people and that's something that I had been dealing with but a
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Couple months ago
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I started to like really dial in on it and I've gotten a lot better at that and I'm a lot more tolerant with people and
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I'm grateful because there's a book that I have read twice now
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Which is called law of success and 16 lessons and there's a chapter in that book
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Which is called the golden rule and it is exactly what it is
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It's if you're familiar with the golden rule most people are it's like the Christian thing
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It's or it's not even a Christian thing. It's a everything thing pretty much all religions have
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some variation of the golden rule and it's treat others how you would want to be treated and I
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grew up Christian I was familiar with that but I didn't really I
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Didn't even know like why I should do that. No one gave me an explanation. No one gave me anything like that
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so I didn't really it what I didn't really embody it as a
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a
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as a part of my identity and
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Can you really blame me because a lot of the actually I'm not even gonna get into that
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but in that book the law of success
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He basically spent the whole entire book
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Explaining all of the concepts so then in the last chapter the golden rule chapter you could basically finally understand
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What it really means to follow the golden rule and there are so many different intricacies so many different principles that I still don't even
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understand fully and I probably won't understand fully for many many many years, but
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the point is that I actually
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Have a much better perspective on tolerance and the golden rule
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And so I have been looking into ego
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But earlier in this episode I mentioned how I don't really care about
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My subscriber count and that's because I suck
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Like I actually suck. I am so bad at what I do like I actually am terrible
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one of the videos that I thought I was gonna get a
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One of my videos that was the best video I ever made I
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talked about it in last month's episode and it was a
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Video that I made on social media and I said oh this is gonna get at least 2000 views and I said that
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Humbly I said that with the thought in my mind that it was gonna get a million views
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But you know what happened?
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It got less than a hundred views
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And you know what after that I didn't even realize it
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I didn't even care because the next video I made after that was gonna get 10,000 views, but it didn't and
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The point is that I suck I still suck. I have exactly what mr. Beast prescribed as
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called
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Or actually not prescribed I have exactly what mr. Beast
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Diagnosed as called the small creator mindset is basically when you're really bad when you still suck at
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Making YouTube videos that you think all of your videos should get a million views. That's exactly what I have
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but a
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couple weeks ago I
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Took a step back and I was like, okay. Yeah, I suck
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one of my videos a couple like maybe a month ago that I made it was
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something it was called like your
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Dad will thank you for watch or your kids will thank you for watching this video that video
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I genuinely thought was gonna get like a
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Million views like I actually thought that was the best video I've ever made
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I was really proud of it. We're proud of thumbnail. We're proud of everything. You know how many views a guy
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19 19 views after three weeks
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19 views that is worse than the first video I ever made
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That's terrible. So basically
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The moral of the story is that I suck and I
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Had to take some drastic measures to not suck
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and I don't think that reps is
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Is gonna cut it anymore because at a certain point you have to take a step back and realize that I am
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missing a fundamental
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key part to
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Being a youtuber and it's storytelling
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many many months ago I
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Learned actually basically a year ago when I read a book called expert secrets. I
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I learned that storytelling is everything literally all there is to selling and
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Maybe maybe not. I don't know now that I I don't even know what I don't even know anything. I don't know anything
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Seriously
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Socrates I think it was he basically said that all he knows is that he doesn't know anything and
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I'm starting to realize that the more I learned the more I learned that I that I suck and the more I learned that I don't know anything
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but
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Storytelling that is something that I
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Realize
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There is another aspect to so this whole time I've been focusing on my personal storytelling
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But there's another part to it. There's storytelling structure and
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so I realized I learned recently that
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Apparently every single story every great story every great movie every great TV show every great YouTube video every great
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Work of art that is told in a form of a story
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Follows a structure and there is an actual
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universal structure and
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I first learned about this in expert secrets a
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Year ago, but I didn't really start to realize how important it is until recently
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and so I got a book called save the cat and
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It's basically a book on screenwriting
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so that's like writing the scripts for a movie and I read that whole thing and I
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Really thought it helped a lot
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But here's the point
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There is one chapter in that book called let's beat it out and he basically explains the
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Storytelling structure. It's called Blake Snyder's beat sheet and
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I wrote that entire chapter twice like I literally wrote it down in my journal a word for word the entire chapter
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It was like 30 pages long. It took me an entire day to do one
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So it took me like four days to do it twice to write it twice
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But one one day like a week ago. I sat down in the morning started writing and
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Then I ate lunch worked out and then got back to writing literally wrote it down word for word because I
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I mean I heard that if you write things down longhand it helps like mold your subconscious or something
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It's like all great or not all great operators
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But there's a great
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Copywriting trick and it's basically if you want to learn how to copyright
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Which is basically writing
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advertisements then you take the greatest ads of all time and just write them down by hand and that basically like forms your
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Subconscious or something. I don't know but I've done that with advertisements and I've done that with an entire website before
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many times and
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it helped a lot helped me make my own website called 1% dad calm and
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So I thought I'd do it with that book too and I also do it like reality
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Transurfing and law of success. I do it a lot with a lot of different things
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and
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So I did it and I've gotten a lot more familiar with story telling structure
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But not good enough still I suck I still suck and I'm gonna suck for years
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but
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I'm getting better and that's the point
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And so
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Now that I explained why I suck I want to talk about another thing how there's this thing called resistance
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It's basically and I may be explaining something very simple that most people know about and
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And this is where I am start. I'm being very conscious of I
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Still don't know anything about the world
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So there's a thing called resistance and I have I learned about it in the past year a
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few times and
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It may be a very commonly known thing. I have no idea, but I'm gonna explain it anyways
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So resistance is basically whenever you're striving towards something your own mind
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like comes up with a bunch of
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Negative thoughts to prevent you from achieving it. So it's like, oh, I can't do it. Oh, I'm too ugly. Oh, I suck
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Oh, I'm too lazy. Oh, I don't want to do it like all I want comfort. That's all resistance and
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I
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I was pretty familiar with
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Pushing past it for the past year basically a year ago today
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Was
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Like basically a year ago. Yeah was when I decided that I was gonna go all in entrepreneurship
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Where that was like the next phase of my life that I was gonna focus on I
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Didn't even know what my purpose was. I didn't know my direction. I didn't know what anything
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I was still trying to find a pursuit to follow. I was looking into different business models
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But I kept pushing through and over the past year. I have definitely experienced
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Resistance in some form or for another pretty commonly
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But it was nothing like I have experienced in the past month because people look at my life
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They look at like my daily routine my lifestyle and they're like, whoa, how do you do that? Like that's crazy
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But to me, I should all just like autopilot. It's like I don't really
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It's kind of easy for the most part there. Yes, there are times where I'm just like suffering but
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That's not very common and
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Yes, there are times like during the day where I just have to like keep pushing through just like
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Yeah, I do get that stuff, but I never really got like the full-blown
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Suffering like oh everything is going downhill
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Until recently where
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The other day I saw a YouTube video called
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Oh, what is it called? Oh
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Trial by fire by Charlie Morgan and it's like a two hour long video and I heard my friend told me about it and
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It's like one of the greatest YouTube videos I've ever seen
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I watched that whole thing and it basically explained resistance and
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It explained how when you're trying to strive for success
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You're gonna get resistance and the only way to combat it is to do the work
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And so I was like, oh, yeah, but he mentioned this thing
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He said when you first go on your journey, you're gonna be on this high. It's gonna be like, oh, yeah all motivation
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Oh, yeah, it's all easy and I was like, oh, yeah, that's pretty it's like what I'm doing right now
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but
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Then he said yeah, that's all fake. It's all gonna go crashing down and then it's all the
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All the energy is gonna die out everything is gonna die and then it's just gonna be you and
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suffering you and pain and you're gonna have to walk through a wall of fire and
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that's how you find success and
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Immediately when he said that I kind of understood a little bit because for that past week
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I had started to make the transition into whatever that wall of fire is I think
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Yeah, and here is me again. I have no idea what I'm talking about by the way. I am 18 years old
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I have no I don't know anything about the world
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So I don't even know if I am going through the wall of fire
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I don't even know if I am gonna achieve success. I don't know anything all I know is that all the remains of the work to be done
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but
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That side note aside
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Basically when he said that I was oh shoot. I'm starting to get into that and for the past month I
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Had been getting a lot of doubts a lot of things like oh like this this successful person experienced this
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I never got that I never got that I never got that like a
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Lot of people like dropped out of college. They had to do crazy scary things and I was thinking I didn't have to do anything
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I'm getting it so easy in life like I literally am living at my house rent-free
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I get everything provided for and
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All I'm doing is working. That's it like it
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I'm not even gonna find success if I'm not going through the pain because you
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Pretty much a universal theme among successful people as they go through a season of suffering like not like
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But then my friend reminded me that but you are like you are literally waking up at three in the morning and
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Working for like six seven hours a day and then doing like this crazy kettlebell work like you are doing that
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Here's there's two kind of interpretations to this maybe I
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Am going through the wall the pain and my resistance
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Manifests differently and my resistance is making me
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Blind to the fact that I actually am going through the suffering and so I'm kind of longing for
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Real and I say this with quotes real suffering of kind of like how other people like dropped out of college
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They had to live in a car. They had to like do crazy things and
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When in reality I am going through the wall fire
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It's just my resistance is showing up as that me thinking that I'm not and I'm panicking
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I'm trying to
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Do things that's one interpretation
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And the other interpretation is maybe I just am not going through the wall fire. Maybe I am just
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Coping maybe I'm still a watchpreneur. I have no idea. I don't know. I've never made any money online
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I have made more money
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selling lemonade in my front porch
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then I have in the past year of putting my all into
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Whatever it is that I'm doing on my YouTube channel
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So that puts it into perspective. Maybe I still am a watchpreneur. Maybe I am not actually
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Doing the thing that needs to be done. I
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There are a few things that I have in mind that I should be doing
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That's basically
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That's like the the whole oh
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Yeah, one more thing
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Going back to me saying that I suck
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Another thing I suck so that means that the reps I mentioned earlier
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I mentioned that maybe it's not just the repetitions because you have to get a lot of reps to kind of figure out how to
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Do YouTube?
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But then there's this point where maybe there's just a fundamental flaw and that's storytelling
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like the structure and
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So that's why I stopped doing daily uploads and then I went to every other day
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And then I stopped doing that and I went to every three days and now actually today
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I stopped doing every three days and I'm going back to once a week weekly uploads
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And that's because I am studying storytelling structure. There's a book called a hero
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Or the hero with a thousand faces that I'm reading right now and studying and I'm actually doing something crazy
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I'll talk about in the next month's update with it
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It's just I don't want to talk about it now because I have not actually completed it yet
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so not gonna say it until next month, but
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Just know that
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Even though I'm not actually putting as much hours into the YouTube channel like actually creating videos
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because I
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basically spent maybe
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seven hours or five hours making a video that I'm
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Gonna be posting for one week
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So I'm basically working like less than ten hours of week now on the YouTube channel starting now
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But
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Just know that I am not not working. I'm still working. It's just not really work. It's studying
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I'm in this like period of where I am just trying to learn all of the
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Principles or whatever I am trying to learn storytelling. I don't know but
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That's it. I have
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200 subscribers. I don't really care about subs though. Oh
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Here's one thing I want to talk about
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One thing I realized is that I
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Don't I know a couple minutes ago. I was just talking about how I didn't make any money yet, but
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The thing is that I don't really care. I
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Do not care that I'm didn't make any money because I'm prepared to spend three years
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I'm prepared to spend five years not making a dime
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Now obviously I don't want to spend five years living under my parents
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Like being financially dependent because that would be unfair to them, but I'm prepared to put
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Years into this without any payoff. Why?
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Because you don't have to have money humans invented money
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But you know what humans did not invent happiness and that's what I'm experiencing working on this
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But that's a like a side note the point that I'm trying to make is that
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Every time I tell someone that I what I'm working on like the YouTube or every time someone mentions my YouTube
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Video for example just recently I went back to school to graduate after six months of being gone
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I hadn't seen anyone for six months and then I graduated with all of my all of my friends and
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Everyone was asking me. Oh, how's the YouTube channel? Oh, yeah, I saw your videos because everyone saw my videos and
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the
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Common thing that people ask is did you make any money and it's not just like my friends. It's also like literally every person
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Family parents
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Literally everyone and this is not me dissing is this is just me pointing out a fact that I want people to be aware of
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Did you make money? No, I did not make money, but people
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There's there's a perspective that I want to bring to the table
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The fact that
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I'm learning okay, so
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One thing I realized of my studies of successful people is that a lot of people went through a season
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There's a guy called
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What is the name? I
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Don't know it might come to me, but there's a
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YouTuber slash twitch streamer
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he
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He recorded a video when he was 18 years old before he found success and it was basically when he was streaming
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for like 12 hours a day
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with two viewers and
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He said this is the grind mode this is every single successful person goes through something called the grind mode
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It's basically a season of like a year two years three years of
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Where they don't get any compensation
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but then there's a
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Law called the law of competition and I I learned about it from Napoleon Hill's book law of success in 16 lessons
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and he learned about it from this guy called Ralph Waldo and Emerson and
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Emerson has very famous essays and one of them is called compensation
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And it basically means that the more work you do
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The more kind of energy you're stacking up and so it like let's say you serve people for an entire year with no pay
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That is gonna stack up and the energy is gonna be so powerful
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It's kind of like a dam like the water is gonna build up and then eventually it's just gonna burst and then you're just gonna get an
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explosion of
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compensation and that's exactly what
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What is his name I get this is exactly what that twitch streamer was talking about I kind of I
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Can't believe I forgot his name. I actually used to watch him
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when I was younger like literally a couple years ago I used to watch him but on
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YouTube I would not into which but
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That's what he was talking about how basically every basically most successful people have to go through a season of literally getting nothing and
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Only giving for years
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potentially before they can actually
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Start to see some amount of success and there's one thing I realized
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This past month I really didn't put as much effort into the YouTube channel as I did the month before
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Yet, I got the same amount of growth. So the last month in my last month the update
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I was talking about how I just missed my goal of 200 subs and now and I got 175
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So I gained like 50 subscribers last month
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but
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This month I also gained 50 subscribers
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Even though I didn't put nearly as much time into actually putting like actually
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Working on the YouTube channel
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But I was still putting I was actually putting more time in it was just not
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Put towards the YouTube it was put into studying how to actually do YouTube like copying thumbnails down
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Literally, I I took I this is another thing I did this past month
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I basically took a screenshot of a bunch of mr. Beast's most popular videos and
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Also a few of his videos that I could literally make with no money for example
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surviving 24 hours in a desert a
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few of those videos too and I
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screenshot it like maybe
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20 30 40 of them and printed them all out into like flashcards basically and cut them all out and
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I have this like stack of
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Flashcards of all of the all of mr. Beast thumbnails that title and thumbnails basically video packaging and I literally just copied it
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Copy the title and then drew the thumbnail and then after I did that
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I looked at all the colors and I wrote down like the the colors and
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Then I also wrote down like the lines. There's this thing where you should have like lines pointing towards the focus of the image
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So I basically did that probably like 30 times
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and I I
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Started a journal a month ago, and it's nearly
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3 quarters of the way filled already because I've just been writing so much
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But that's what I've been doing and I'm like starting to realize that oh if I gained 50 subscribers in one month
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That is crazy because the first month that I started my YouTube channel. I
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gained his Euro I actually got
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Z I think I got zero views in the first month of YouTube
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But it took me I think like five months to get one subscriber and then he that person
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Unsubscribed like the next month or the next day or something like that
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So that's that is actually an example of compensation. It took me five months to get
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zero subscribers
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But now because I put in an nearly an entire year of work onto this YouTube channel it I got
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50 subscribers in one month, so that is an example of compensation
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Except in like the
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Larger concept in the larger grand scheme of things. It'll be a much larger
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Sum total for example, I've seen people randomly blow up after a year of posting and they got like
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10,000 subscribers in one day, so that's like a bigger example
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But then if you look at mr. Beast, he spent like 15 years
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Faithfully studying spending literally like 10 hours a day over to probably more than 10 hours a day for
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thousands of days so like for decades
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15 years and
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He has like 300 million subscribers nearly
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That is a greater example of compensation. He gained more subscribers
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Probably I don't even know what his subscriber count is but I bet that he gained more subscribers today in one day 24 hours
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Then he gained in
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His first five years. I don't know if that's true, but that's an example of compensation
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So the more work you put into it the bigger your dam becomes and then boom
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Shhh it bursts, but the thing is it doesn't just burst and all you have to start over it keeps on building
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So it's not like an actual
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Classical dam. It's like a magical dam where it never actually burst, but you get the energy
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I don't even know I I don't even know what I'm talking about. This is just my interpretation my 18 year old self
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Interpretation I still have no idea how the world works, but I'm trying to figure it out
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One day at a time
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I am an idiot and before I explain why let's talk about how many subs I have last month when I last talked I
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Had 175 I failed to reach my goal of 200 and I did not set another goal
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But this month right now I have 228 subscribers
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So that's just my sub count. I don't really care about that and
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I'll get into why that is later
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The reason why I'm an idiot is because in the last monthly update one month ago
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I recorded that whole thing and
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Right after I finished recording it. I was thinking man. This is not good. I should not post this
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because I basically had an ego in that and I
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I basically exclaimed my future aspirations and
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intentions and that's not something you should do I bet I
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Spoke on my plans that I have for the future and
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I also
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Said that I was gonna accomplish something before I even did it
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And I'm not gonna say what I said you can go back and listen to that episode if you want but
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Was thinking man. I should not post this and
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So I re listened to the whole thing and it was all fine except for the end like the last
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The last bit was the bad part, but I posted it anyways and then
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immediately after that I
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Looked into ego because for the past couple years. I have been
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having a desire to
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learn about ego because I knew that I had an issue with ego and
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I don't really know what ego is even now. I still don't know what ego is
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Remember for the past couple of years. I had been thinking to myself. Oh, I can't wait until I get into ego is I'm gonna be
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It's gonna be so good once I start learning about ego and I can't really explain why it's just I kind of have this
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subtle knowing
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It's kind of similar to how before I started learning about like
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Controlling your thoughts and all of the stuff going on in your mind. I had this
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Kind of knowing this intuition that I should probably learn about your thoughts because I remember
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When I was getting into reading I was only reading books on
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physical stuff so I would read books on how to breathe properly
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Books on how to eat properly how to sleep and I was just reading all of like the physical stuff
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I was improving all of this stuff in the physical like my body
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I just had this kind of slight vague intuition that oh maybe I should start learning about
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Mind or learning about thought or whatever that is. I didn't even know what that was
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so I looked up on Google like books on mind or books on thoughts and
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I didn't really I looked through all like the books recommended and I didn't really wasn't really interested in any of them, but I
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and that book was life-changing so I had that intuition to
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Learn about like whatever is going on in my mind to focus on that aspect and
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It was the same thing with ego and I still have no idea what ego is
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So I looked up on Google like books on ego and I found a YouTube video of a guy talking about books and there was
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Ego is the enemy. That's the book that I came across and I heard about that. I was like, okay sure so I bought it
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That front on the front of your aspirations because ego is the enemy talks all about like your
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Strivings when you're in three phases of life when you're striving for something when you are successful and when you have failed
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those are like the three
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stages of life and
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Which was how last month I?
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Which I shouldn't have done should have kept that in my mind
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Still have this kind of other aspect to ego and I don't even know if this is ego, but it's like
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Annoyance of other people and that's something that I had been dealing with but a
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I started to like really dial in on it and I've gotten a lot better at that and I'm a lot more tolerant with people and
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I'm grateful because there's a book that I have read twice now
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Which is called law of success and 16 lessons and there's a chapter in that book
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Which is called the golden rule and it is exactly what it is
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It's if you're familiar with the golden rule most people are it's like the Christian thing
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It's or it's not even a Christian thing. It's a everything thing pretty much all religions have
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some variation of the golden rule and it's treat others how you would want to be treated and I
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grew up Christian I was familiar with that but I didn't really I
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Didn't even know like why I should do that. No one gave me an explanation. No one gave me anything like that
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as a part of my identity and
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but in that book the law of success
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He basically spent the whole entire book
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Explaining all of the concepts so then in the last chapter the golden rule chapter you could basically finally understand
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What it really means to follow the golden rule and there are so many different intricacies so many different principles that I still don't even
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understand fully and I probably won't understand fully for many many many years, but
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the point is that I actually
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My subscriber count and that's because I suck
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one of the videos that I thought I was gonna get a
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One of my videos that was the best video I ever made I
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talked about it in last month's episode and it was a
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Video that I made on social media and I said oh this is gonna get at least 2000 views and I said that
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Humbly I said that with the thought in my mind that it was gonna get a million views
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It got less than a hundred views
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I didn't even care because the next video I made after that was gonna get 10,000 views, but it didn't and
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The point is that I suck I still suck. I have exactly what mr. Beast prescribed as
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Diagnosed as called the small creator mindset is basically when you're really bad when you still suck at
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Making YouTube videos that you think all of your videos should get a million views. That's exactly what I have
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couple weeks ago I
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Took a step back and I was like, okay. Yeah, I suck
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one of my videos a couple like maybe a month ago that I made it was
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something it was called like your
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Dad will thank you for watch or your kids will thank you for watching this video that video
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I genuinely thought was gonna get like a
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Million views like I actually thought that was the best video I've ever made
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I was really proud of it. We're proud of thumbnail. We're proud of everything. You know how many views a guy
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19 19 views after three weeks
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19 views that is worse than the first video I ever made
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That's terrible. So basically
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The moral of the story is that I suck and I
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Is gonna cut it anymore because at a certain point you have to take a step back and realize that I am
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missing a fundamental
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key part to
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Being a youtuber and it's storytelling
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I learned that storytelling is everything literally all there is to selling and
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Maybe maybe not. I don't know now that I I don't even know what I don't even know anything. I don't know anything
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Socrates I think it was he basically said that all he knows is that he doesn't know anything and
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I'm starting to realize that the more I learned the more I learned that I that I suck and the more I learned that I don't know anything
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Storytelling that is something that I
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There is another aspect to so this whole time I've been focusing on my personal storytelling
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Apparently every single story every great story every great movie every great TV show every great YouTube video every great
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universal structure and
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Year ago, but I didn't really start to realize how important it is until recently
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and so I got a book called save the cat and
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It's basically a book on screenwriting
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so that's like writing the scripts for a movie and I read that whole thing and I
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There is one chapter in that book called let's beat it out and he basically explains the
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I wrote that entire chapter twice like I literally wrote it down in my journal a word for word the entire chapter
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It was like 30 pages long. It took me an entire day to do one
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Then I ate lunch worked out and then got back to writing literally wrote it down word for word because I
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It's like all great or not all great operators
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advertisements then you take the greatest ads of all time and just write them down by hand and that basically like forms your
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Subconscious or something. I don't know but I've done that with advertisements and I've done that with an entire website before
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many times and
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it helped a lot helped me make my own website called 1% dad calm and
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Transurfing and law of success. I do it a lot with a lot of different things
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But not good enough still I suck I still suck and I'm gonna suck for years
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I'm getting better and that's the point
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Now that I explained why I suck I want to talk about another thing how there's this thing called resistance
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It's basically and I may be explaining something very simple that most people know about and
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Still don't know anything about the world
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So there's a thing called resistance and I have I learned about it in the past year a
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It may be a very commonly known thing. I have no idea, but I'm gonna explain it anyways
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like comes up with a bunch of
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Negative thoughts to prevent you from achieving it. So it's like, oh, I can't do it. Oh, I'm too ugly. Oh, I suck
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Oh, I'm too lazy. Oh, I don't want to do it like all I want comfort. That's all resistance and
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Pushing past it for the past year basically a year ago today
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Like basically a year ago. Yeah was when I decided that I was gonna go all in entrepreneurship
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Where that was like the next phase of my life that I was gonna focus on I
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Didn't even know what my purpose was. I didn't know my direction. I didn't know what anything
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I was still trying to find a pursuit to follow. I was looking into different business models
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Resistance in some form or for another pretty commonly
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But it was nothing like I have experienced in the past month because people look at my life
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They look at like my daily routine my lifestyle and they're like, whoa, how do you do that? Like that's crazy
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It's kind of easy for the most part there. Yes, there are times where I'm just like suffering but
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Trial by fire by Charlie Morgan and it's like a two hour long video and I heard my friend told me about it and
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It's like one of the greatest YouTube videos I've ever seen
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I watched that whole thing and it basically explained resistance and
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It explained how when you're trying to strive for success
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You're gonna get resistance and the only way to combat it is to do the work
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He said when you first go on your journey, you're gonna be on this high. It's gonna be like, oh, yeah all motivation
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Oh, yeah, it's all easy and I was like, oh, yeah, that's pretty it's like what I'm doing right now
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All the energy is gonna die out everything is gonna die and then it's just gonna be you and
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suffering you and pain and you're gonna have to walk through a wall of fire and
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that's how you find success and
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I had started to make the transition into whatever that wall of fire is I think
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Yeah, and here is me again. I have no idea what I'm talking about by the way. I am 18 years old
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I have no I don't know anything about the world
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I don't even know if I am gonna achieve success. I don't know anything all I know is that all the remains of the work to be done
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Basically when he said that I was oh shoot. I'm starting to get into that and for the past month I
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I never got that I never got that I never got that like a
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Lot of people like dropped out of college. They had to do crazy scary things and I was thinking I didn't have to do anything
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I'm getting it so easy in life like I literally am living at my house rent-free
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All I'm doing is working. That's it like it
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I'm not even gonna find success if I'm not going through the pain because you
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Pretty much a universal theme among successful people as they go through a season of suffering like not like
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I was thinking oh, I'm not even getting that
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Working for like six seven hours a day and then doing like this crazy kettlebell work like you are doing that
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Blind to the fact that I actually am going through the suffering and so I'm kind of longing for
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Real and I say this with quotes real suffering of kind of like how other people like dropped out of college
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They had to live in a car. They had to like do crazy things and
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When in reality I am going through the wall fire
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Do things that's one interpretation
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Coping maybe I'm still a watchpreneur. I have no idea. I don't know. I've never made any money online
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selling lemonade in my front porch
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then I have in the past year of putting my all into
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Whatever it is that I'm doing on my YouTube channel
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Doing the thing that needs to be done. I
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I stopped doing every three days and I'm going back to once a week weekly uploads
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And that's because I am studying storytelling structure. There's a book called a hero
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Or the hero with a thousand faces that I'm reading right now and studying and I'm actually doing something crazy
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I'll talk about in the next month's update with it
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so not gonna say it until next month, but
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because I
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basically spent maybe
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seven hours or five hours making a video that I'm
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Gonna be posting for one week
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So I'm basically working like less than ten hours of week now on the YouTube channel starting now
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But
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Just know that I am not not working. I'm still working. It's just not really work. It's studying
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I'm in this like period of where I am just trying to learn all of the
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Principles or whatever I am trying to learn storytelling. I don't know but
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That's it. I have
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200 subscribers. I don't really care about subs though. Oh
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Here's one thing I want to talk about
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One thing I realized is that I
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Don't I know a couple minutes ago. I was just talking about how I didn't make any money yet, but
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The thing is that I don't really care. I
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Do not care that I'm didn't make any money because I'm prepared to spend three years
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I'm prepared to spend five years not making a dime
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Now obviously I don't want to spend five years living under my parents
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Like being financially dependent because that would be unfair to them, but I'm prepared to put
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Years into this without any payoff. Why?
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Because you don't have to have money humans invented money
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But you know what humans did not invent happiness and that's what I'm experiencing working on this
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But that's a like a side note the point that I'm trying to make is that
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Every time I tell someone that I what I'm working on like the YouTube or every time someone mentions my YouTube
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Video for example just recently I went back to school to graduate after six months of being gone
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I hadn't seen anyone for six months and then I graduated with all of my all of my friends and
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Everyone was asking me. Oh, how's the YouTube channel? Oh, yeah, I saw your videos because everyone saw my videos and
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the
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Common thing that people ask is did you make any money and it's not just like my friends. It's also like literally every person
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Family parents
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Strangers
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Literally everyone and this is not me dissing is this is just me pointing out a fact that I want people to be aware of
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Did you make money? No, I did not make money, but people
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There's there's a perspective that I want to bring to the table
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The fact that
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I'm learning okay, so
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One thing I realized of my studies of successful people is that a lot of people went through a season
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There's a guy called
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What is the name? I
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Don't know it might come to me, but there's a
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YouTuber slash twitch streamer
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he
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He recorded a video when he was 18 years old before he found success and it was basically when he was streaming
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for like 12 hours a day
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with two viewers and
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He said this is the grind mode this is every single successful person goes through something called the grind mode
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It's basically a season of like a year two years three years of
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Where they don't get any compensation
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but then there's a
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Law called the law of competition and I I learned about it from Napoleon Hill's book law of success in 16 lessons
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and he learned about it from this guy called Ralph Waldo and Emerson and
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Emerson has very famous essays and one of them is called compensation
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And it basically means that the more work you do
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The more kind of energy you're stacking up and so it like let's say you serve people for an entire year with no pay
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That is gonna stack up and the energy is gonna be so powerful
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It's kind of like a dam like the water is gonna build up and then eventually it's just gonna burst and then you're just gonna get an
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explosion of
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compensation and that's exactly what
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What is his name I get this is exactly what that twitch streamer was talking about I kind of I
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Can't believe I forgot his name. I actually used to watch him
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when I was younger like literally a couple years ago I used to watch him but on
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YouTube I would not into which but
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That's what he was talking about how basically every basically most successful people have to go through a season of literally getting nothing and
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Only giving for years
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potentially before they can actually
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Start to see some amount of success and there's one thing I realized
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This past month I really didn't put as much effort into the YouTube channel as I did the month before
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Yet, I got the same amount of growth. So the last month in my last month the update
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I was talking about how I just missed my goal of 200 subs and now and I got 175
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So I gained like 50 subscribers last month
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but
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This month I also gained 50 subscribers
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Even though I didn't put nearly as much time into actually putting like actually
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Working on the YouTube channel
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But I was still putting I was actually putting more time in it was just not
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Put towards the YouTube it was put into studying how to actually do YouTube like copying thumbnails down
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Literally, I I took I this is another thing I did this past month
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I basically took a screenshot of a bunch of mr. Beast's most popular videos and
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Also a few of his videos that I could literally make with no money for example
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surviving 24 hours in a desert a
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few of those videos too and I
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screenshot it like maybe
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20 30 40 of them and printed them all out into like flashcards basically and cut them all out and
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I have this like stack of
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Flashcards of all of the all of mr. Beast thumbnails that title and thumbnails basically video packaging and I literally just copied it
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Copy the title and then drew the thumbnail and then after I did that
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I looked at all the colors and I wrote down like the the colors and
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Then I also wrote down like the lines. There's this thing where you should have like lines pointing towards the focus of the image
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So I basically did that probably like 30 times
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and I I
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Started a journal a month ago, and it's nearly
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3 quarters of the way filled already because I've just been writing so much
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But that's what I've been doing and I'm like starting to realize that oh if I gained 50 subscribers in one month
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That is crazy because the first month that I started my YouTube channel. I
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gained his Euro I actually got
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Z I think I got zero views in the first month of YouTube
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But it took me I think like five months to get one subscriber and then he that person
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Unsubscribed like the next month or the next day or something like that
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So that's that is actually an example of compensation. It took me five months to get
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zero subscribers
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But now because I put in an nearly an entire year of work onto this YouTube channel it I got
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50 subscribers in one month, so that is an example of compensation
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Except in like the
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Larger concept in the larger grand scheme of things. It'll be a much larger
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Sum total for example, I've seen people randomly blow up after a year of posting and they got like
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10,000 subscribers in one day, so that's like a bigger example
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But then if you look at mr. Beast, he spent like 15 years
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Faithfully studying spending literally like 10 hours a day over to probably more than 10 hours a day for
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thousands of days so like for decades
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15 years and
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He has like 300 million subscribers nearly
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That is a greater example of compensation. He gained more subscribers
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Probably I don't even know what his subscriber count is but I bet that he gained more subscribers today in one day 24 hours
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Then he gained in
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His first five years. I don't know if that's true, but that's an example of compensation
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So the more work you put into it the bigger your dam becomes and then boom
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Shhh it bursts, but the thing is it doesn't just burst and all you have to start over it keeps on building
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So it's not like an actual
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Classical dam. It's like a magical dam where it never actually burst, but you get the energy
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I don't even know I I don't even know what I'm talking about. This is just my interpretation my 18 year old self
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Interpretation I still have no idea how the world works, but I'm trying to figure it out
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One day at a time
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All right peace
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