October 2024 Monthly Update

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Around two weeks ago, I was working on my next YouTube video.

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But this time it was different because this time I had this strong sense of determination

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to really get it good.

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Because there's this thing where you have your certain skill level, but then you have

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your standard of quality.

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So how bad are you willing to make the video before you post it?

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So what I mean by that is your skill level enables you to make a certain quality of video.

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But then the standard you hold yourself to is the lowest you'll go.

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So if you have a high standard but a low skill level, that's called perfectionism.

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And that's where you just fail.

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And you're never going to make a video that you're happy with, so you're probably never

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going to post.

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But if you have a high skill level but a low standard, then that's just sloppy.

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You just look trash.

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And this whole time, for the past many months, I've been steadily increasing my standard,

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but I've been drastically increasing my skills.

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And so I've gotten to this awkward position where my standard is significantly lower than

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my skill level ability.

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What I mean by that is I'm capable of producing much higher quality content than what I am

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doing.

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And for various reasons, I'm not.

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That brings me to two weeks ago.

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I had this strong sense of determination to hold myself to a high standard just because

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I wanted to see how good I can make this video.

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And this was my best idea ever.

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My best everything.

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I made my dad sit for 40 minutes, retaking the same picture over and over and over again,

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making slight adjustments to the positioning, the angle, everything.

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I wanted the thumbnail pictures perfect.

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I wanted the title perfect.

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I wanted the intro perfect.

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I worked on the idea, the title, the thumbnail, the intro.

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I rewrote everything at least a dozen times.

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The titles.

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I wrote out 100 titles.

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Usually I do 20.

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This time I did 100.

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The thumbnails.

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I came up with 12 thumbnail concepts.

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Usually I only do two or three thumbnail concepts.

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I did 12.

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And I picked the best title.

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The best three thumbnails.

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And then I worked on the intro and I rewrote that intro the first 10 seconds, probably

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over a dozen times.

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Just rewriting the same exact sentence over and over again to make it hit, to make it

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draw people in, to make up the perfect hook.

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Because the packaging and the intro is the most important part.

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And then I went and talked to my YouTube mentor and I shared him the packaging and I realized

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that it sucked.

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So I went back that night and rewrote another 20 way better titles.

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And I picked two of the best titles.

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Positive titles and negative titles.

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So what I mean by that is don't do this versus do this.

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And that's negative versus a positive title.

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And I had one of each and then I had three thumbnails per title.

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So I had a total of two packages, which a package is a title and three thumbnails.

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Or it's usually just a title and a thumbnail, but YouTube allows you to have three thumbnails

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on a video and test which one is the best performing.

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But I had these two titles opposite psychological principles and then six total of thumbnails.

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And I created those thumbnails.

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They were my best thumbnails I've ever made.

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There's a software where you can put thumbnails into it.

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And basically it shows you what your video would look like on the home screen of YouTube

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next to very high performing videos.

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And usually when I do that, I can tell that my thumbnails are sub par, sub quality.

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But this time, this time it was, it was pretty good.

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I think that I had a significant boost in my thumbnail quality in this video.

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And so I sat down and started scripting out the video coming up with all of the shots that

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I was going to make.

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This video was going to be my most intensive video in the sense that a lot of the videos

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I have this kind of rule where I don't like to go more than four seconds without changing

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the camera angle or doing a cut.

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There's a rule where my mentor told me usually don't go longer than four seconds before cutting

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to the next clip.

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And I do that, but then in recent times I started doing longer because of a reason which I identified

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and realized that it was not a good reason.

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So now I'm trying to get a lot more cuts.

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And in this shot list, usually I have this whole shot list and I have shots four seconds.

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This time it was one second shots.

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Literally shot, shot, shot, shot.

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And that means that I'm going to have to record a lot of clips.

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And I basically finished the entire shot list, which is the most difficult and tedious part

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of the video creation process in my opinion.

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I basically finished it.

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So I'm basically done with the video.

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All I had to do was record and edit because all the pre-preparation work is the hardest.

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Editing and editing is really easy because you know what you're going to do after that.

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And you know what I did?

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I needed to come up with a metaphor to explain a certain concept.

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And I actually used chat GBT to give a bunch of ideas on metaphors.

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And one of the ideas was to use a piano.

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And it was to explain, I don't remember exactly what the concept was.

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I think it was a concept on learning or building a skill or something.

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I don't even know.

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But I needed a piano to explain a certain concept.

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And luckily we had one sitting in the basement just collecting dust for years.

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No one ever uses it.

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So I pull it up and wipe down all the dust and bring it in my room and start inspecting

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it.

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And the next thing I know, I'm signing up for a five day free training on how to play

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the piano.

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And then I just got sucked in.

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I finished that entire free training in one day.

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I learned all the keys on the keyboard.

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I learned how to play some basic chords.

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And I learned how to play some basic chord progressions.

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Which I'll actually play, I have my, this is foreshadowing, not so much, but I actually

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have the keyboard right here.

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I'll play what a chord progression sounds like right now.

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Let me grab this.

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Alright.

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So a chord progression is basically where you, a chord is you playing three notes.

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Wait, let me turn up the volume, I don't even know if you can hear this, but that's three

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notes.

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C, E, and G.

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That's C major.

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And I was playing, I learned how to play three notes and a chord progression is just multiple

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chords.

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So.

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So that's C major, A minor, F major, and G major.

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Which you can just call C major C or F major F.

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But that is, I learned how to play that in the first day.

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And I was hooked.

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I had this extremely strong sense of determination to learn how to play the piano.

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And it's so strange because I've never even had a desire to learn how to play the piano.

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I didn't even, I forgot that we even had a keyboard until that day.

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And this day was September 20th of 2024.

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And I'm recording this on October 2nd.

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So it's not even been two weeks.

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And so I, but I still had this video to work on.

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So the next day I wake up and I finish the, or I basically finish the script.

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And all I have to do is just record and edit.

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And that's maybe two to four days of working.

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And that's like really easy, super simple.

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But I couldn't do it.

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And it wasn't that I didn't have the discipline.

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It wasn't that I didn't, it was just too hard.

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Because I know the difference between not wanting to do something because it's hard

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and not wanting to do something because your heart longs for something else.

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And in this case was the second where my heart was longing to play the piano.

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Because I had brought my piano up into my room at this point.

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And I just could not concentrate on finishing this script.

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So I'm like, okay, I'm just going to go all in.

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Just forget about YouTube.

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Just forget about it.

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I'm listening to my heart.

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That's like, that's what a lot of that's, or that's what Christian teaching is all

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about listening to your heart.

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But I prefer, or it's not listening to your heart.

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It's listening to God, which God is just like a heart is another term for God.

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I just prefer to use heart because it makes me, it not makes me feel better.

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It just feels more natural for me to say for various reasons.

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We won't get into that now.

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But basically listen to your heart, right?

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Go just, there's a Bible verse in my bathroom that says, it's something like, I read it

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every time I pee.

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It's like, who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life.

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So don't worry saying, where will we get food, water, clothes, but seek first his kingdom

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and his righteousness.

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That basically that, how I interpret that is don't worry about the money because in

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our modern society now we've evolved to equating money to food, water and all the necessities

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of life because if you have money you can just buy any of that.

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So basically don't worry about money, instead seek first his kingdom and righteousness.

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And there's another verse in the Bible that says, the kingdom of heaven is within.

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That is basically saying like, God is in your mind.

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And I also heard my dad was talking about, there's this book that he was talking about.

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It's like calling Jesus or hearing God or something like that.

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I don't even know.

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But he was talking about how this book is this guy, this pastor maybe.

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He realized that a lot of people are flawed in their thinking that God is something that

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actually talks to you.

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When in reality it's kind of this silent, inaudible voice in your own mind.

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And that's basically what the kingdom of heaven is within.

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It's that silent, inaudible voice.

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In this book called Reality Transurfing he describes it as the rustle of the morning

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stars.

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It's like the voice without words, the sound without sound.

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It's that inner knowing that it's like sense of knowing.

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It's hard to describe.

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But that, basically how I interpret that verse I said that's sitting in my bathroom is that

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don't worry about money, just listen to your heart.

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And then all these things will be provided for you.

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So my heart was calling, my heart was longing for playing the piano or learning how to play

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the piano.

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And that's just another way of saying that I was called to play the piano.

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And Christians use this term saying I am called into ministry.

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I have been called to preach the gospel.

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That is just, that's basically just your inner knowing.

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It's like you're the inner, the rustle of the morning stars, God.

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It's that heart.

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It's your heart saying that you have to, you should preach the gospel.

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It's the same thing that I was experiencing with the piano.

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My heart or God or the rustle morning stars was telling me to play or to learn the piano.

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So I just went all in, forget about everything, just focus on the piano for however long it

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takes.

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I don't know.

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I, because I'm basically free.

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I'm free.

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I don't have to go to school.

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I don't have to do anything.

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I'm already free.

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There is no structure holding me anymore.

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Like school used to hold me.

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Now I'm free.

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And you could argue, oh, well you're still living at your parents house.

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But it's not, that's irrelevant because I'm free.

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There's no, there's a difference between living at your parents house and having to go to school

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as a requirement.

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There's a huge difference there.

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There's the, the, going to school is like this structure restricting you.

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But living at your parents house, that's just living life.

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It's just being free.

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I'm free to do whatever I want now.

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And I was free before.

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It's, it's not the correct thing to say that you're not free when you're at school because

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you're, you are free.

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You have freedom of choice.

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But it's kind of different because there's a lot of societal pressures that are extremely

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scary and difficult to go against in that case.

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Let's not get into that.

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Basically, I spent two weeks, that's what I've been doing for the past ever since September

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20th.

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I've been playing piano, learning how to play the piano.

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And if you want to hear how good I am now, I am, this is October 2nd.

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So it's been, I don't even know.

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I'm looking at the calendar and I can't even see.

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It's like 12 days, 11 days, I don't know.

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It's been 11 days and I've been basically playing all day, like wake up.

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All I do is eat and lift weights and just play.

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That's it.

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And so there's been two or three or four days where I was busy and I wasn't able to play

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all day, but I was still able to get a couple of hours of playing in.

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But I'm going to cue a clip on so you can hear what, how good I am now.

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And by the way, I memorized this song because it's too hard to read the sheet music and

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play it.

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So I basically just memorized the whole thing.

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And I'm going to, the way that this audio thing works is I plugged in a USB into my

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computer from my keyboard and it basically just sends all the signals of all the notes

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that I played into my computer into this software.

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Or I can have it as a choir.

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Here is the song of me playing.

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This is like 11 days of piano so far.

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As you can tell, there were some pauses, some missed notes, but I think it was decent for

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And obviously it sucked.

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Obviously it sucked.

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I've only been playing 11 days.

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But I'm pretty happy with my progress so far.

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And if you're wondering what it sounds like with the choir, I tried all of the choir options

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available to me for free.

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And there are two that sound the best.

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So here's the first one.

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Now about what I talked about in last month's episode about how I was broken.

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That was like the theme of last month's episode.

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I was broken, struggling.

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I couldn't really do, or I was just not feeling it.

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And a big reason was because I was reading the book, The Ascent of Humanity, and it was

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just opened me up to a lot of truths about our world, and it hurt.

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It was painful.

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And another reason was that I hadn't read Reality Transurfing in a long time.

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I hinted last month about how my current lifestyle was not good either.

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I wasn't suffering.

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I wasn't happy either.

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I was just neutral.

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I was just kind of a neutral lifestyle.

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Before when I was just in the mediocre lifestyle, like I was just watching TV all day, playing

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video games, doing nothing, that was suffering.

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I was miserable.

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That lifestyle sucked.

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I was not happy.

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I was not neutral.

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I was not happy.

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I was just not unhappy.

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And then I started working on myself.

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And then over time, eventually, once I started reading Reality Transurfing, I started getting

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hints at this happy lifestyle.

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Instead of it being neutral, it started to be happy.

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But then once I stopped reading Transurfing, that it kind of starts to atrophy.

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What atrophy means is it's basically whenever you stop using a muscle, it loses its strength.

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So if you were jacked and then you stopped training, over time, your muscles will atrophy

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and then you'll lose your physique.

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And that is the same thing with Transurfing I found.

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Because I've read it three times now.

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And each time, maybe a month or two passes by the time I finish reading it.

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And by the end of the two months, my happiness has completely atrophied.

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And then I realize, oh, time to read Transurfing again.

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So I go back to Transurfing and spend another two months reading that thing.

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And then it gets me happy again.

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Or it doesn't get me happy.

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I choose happiness.

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It reminds me how to choose happiness.

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Because that's what the book is all about.

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It's the fact that we can manage our happiness levels.

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And it's funny because there's a lot of not mystical teachings, but a lot of like manifestation,

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all kinds of stuff that I hear in maybe not the contemporary.

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Oh, that was my water bottle.

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Maybe not the contemporary.

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I don't even know what I'm saying.

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I've heard a lot of people say that they tried kind of managing their happiness levels.

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But it doesn't really work.

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This book shows really how it works.

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And it's 700 pages long.

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So it takes two months to read.

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Which shows that there must be something to it if it is that long.

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And I've read it enough to know that there is something to it.

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And it reminds me, every time I read it, it reminds me how to choose happiness and how

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to actually not let my happiness atrophy, if that makes sense.

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But it's been five months since I read that book.

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Five months.

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Usually there's only a one or two month break.

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This time it was five months.

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And so I realized, okay, it's time to sit down and just read Transurfing.

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And I started reading it and literally right away, just, it's crazy.

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That book is like magic.

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It just reminds me of so many things right away, back to normal.

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And I alluded to last month, in last month's episode that before, earlier this year, I was

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able to hum, sing, and just be happy all the time.

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Like I would literally wake up at three in the morning, three a.m.

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And just skip down the stairs.

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Just woke up, pitch blackout, skip downstairs, hum, turn on my computer and get to work.

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Like I must be a psychopath.

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But it was happy.

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I was happy.

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And then I lost that and I assumed that it was because of other things, but I actually

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realized that it's because I forgot about the Transurfing principles.

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Now I was reminded about, now I have been reminded by the Transurfing principles.

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And now I am back to that state where I'm like humming and I don't even have to try

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to hum.

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When I realized that I wasn't humming anymore, I tried humming and it just felt so forced.

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It wasn't, just was not good.

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But now I'm not even trying to hum.

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I just catch myself humming sometimes.

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And that is a big reason is because of Transurfing.

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And that is why that book is just revolutionized, the way that I perceive the world and the

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way that I exist as a human being.

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Now there is a, I want to give a rational explanation on why I have started going all

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in on learning the piano.

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And it's not like the, it's not a piano, it's a keyboard, which I think they're basically

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the same thing.

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Excuse me, because the original keyboard that I was learning on, it was this old crappy

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keyboard.

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Literally on day four, I spent 500 bucks and bought a brand new keyboard, a really nice

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keyboard.

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It's called the Elysis Recital Pro.

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And I bought that, I bought a pedal, I bought some headphones, I bought a stand, I bought

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a floor mat that I could stand on.

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I have this whole kit.

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I'm all kitted out.

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And there's this thing in marketing where people make decisions on emotions and then

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justify with logic later.

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And it's not even just a marketing thing.

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I just learned it while I was studying marketing.

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It's a psychological principle.

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But basically how that relates now is that my emotions decided to learn piano.

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Another interpretation is the Brussels in the morning stars, the heart, God, those are

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all, or the calling, those are all different ways of saying the same thing.

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I started learning piano based on my emotions and now it's time to justify that decision

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of going all into piano with logic, with my mind.

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And basically on the first day, I was all in on piano and that's what you want to get

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to in life.

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You want your heart to be all into something, but then you want your mind to agree because

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that's the big kicker.

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A lot of people, they have their heart as longing for something, but their mind just

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can't justify it.

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And so they are kind of tense, they're torn.

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And that is when you are extremely unaffected as a human being.

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But when your heart and mind are united in their decision towards doing something, that's

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when you become this powerhouse as a human being.

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And I think it's pretty evident because I've made such significant progress on piano in

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such a short amount of time.

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And that's because my heart and mind are merged and they're both in union and they're both,

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that's another way of saying that God, or that's another way of saying that your personal

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will is in alignment with God's will.

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You're following God's calling.

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That's just another way of saying that.

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But I am all into piano now.

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It's time to justify with logic.

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I was watching this, this YouTube video the other day.

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Excuse me.

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I was watching this YouTube video on how to master the art of film.

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And this guy, he's a genius.

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He's been making films for 20 years.

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He's working with Mr. Beast, who is the most successful YouTuber on the planet.

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And he is directing Mr. Beast on his Beast Philanthropies videos.

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So if you are, if you're able to direct the most skilled YouTuber on the planet, that

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means that you must be extremely skilled.

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So now that this guy's credible.

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He is, I was watching this video and there was a part where he was shown, he was talking

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about how music is 60% of your video.

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And I was like, oh yeah, it makes sense.

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I didn't even think about piano.

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To be honest, even when I started learning piano, I didn't even think about this quote

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until well after when it was time to start logically justifying my decision.

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But let's just say that music is 60% of your video.

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That means that I've been, I spent the past year working on improving my skills that equate

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to only four tenths, less than half of my video.

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I've spent all of my time focusing on 40%.

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That's like what you should not do with the 80-20 rule.

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You should spend 80% of the results come from 20% of the actions.

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Now it's kind of different with this because it's different because it's not like an input

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output.

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It's an input input.

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But I've been focusing all of my time and energy on improving my skills on the video

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creation side of things.

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And I completely neglected music.

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Yes, I've gotten better at choosing the stock music.

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I've gotten a little bit better at that.

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But that's kind of irrelevant because there's only such a high skill ceiling.

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Actually, no, you can get way better at that.

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But it hasn't really been something that I've been really focusing on.

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It's just been kind of like, oh yeah, I'm finished my video now.

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Time to throw some music on there.

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But now I'm actually like studying music theory.

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I'm learning piano, but I'm also learning music theory.

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And right now it's simple stuff like I'm memorizing all of the notes on the grand staff, which

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is the notes on the sheet music.

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And I'm also memorizing all of the key signatures.

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But then once I'm done with that, I plan on learning, there's this thing, a document,

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a online thing, what is it called?

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It's like a blog, an online blog post explaining how to improvise on piano.

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And it shares all the tools that you need to be able to improvise on piano.

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And that's just to be able to create your own music at will, just naturally.

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And I've been working through that list.

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I'm on the first thing still, but I'm trying to figure out the music theory and then studying

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music theory.

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And that is so I can improvise my own music to have background music for my YouTube videos.

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Now this is all kind of logical justification.

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I don't even know if this is how it's actually going to turn out in action.

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But right now all I'm focusing on is making, or all I'm focusing on is just seeing how

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far I can go with piano, how good I can get with piano as quick as possible.

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I just like seeing how good I can get.

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And going back to that same video, how to master the art of filmmaking, this guy who's

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also working with Mr. Beast, he's been filming for 25 years.

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This guy, there was another part of the video where he shared a brainstorming section where

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he showed that he had this whiteboard painted onto his wall.

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So he had his wall, but then he used special paint to paint a whiteboard.

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So he didn't have to have an actual whiteboard.

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He just painted this special stuff on his wall and he was able to write on his wall

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with gyro race markers and erase it.

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And I was like, oh, that's sick.

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And it wasn't until a couple of weeks later where I actually decided to pull this trigger.

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And I bought some whiteboard paint and it arrived yesterday and I finished applying it

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this morning.

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And now I've got one big whiteboard painted onto my wall and then one medium-sized whiteboard

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on the opposite wall in my room.

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So now my room has two whiteboards, a keyboard and my bed, which is just a floor mat.

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But basically I've turned my room into this creative dojo, like this creative musical

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dojo.

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And I'm really happy with it.

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But that's my original intention for the whiteboard was just to brainstorm videos.

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And I was just going to have one massive whiteboard in the wall, taking up the entire wall.

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But then I started learning piano all of a sudden.

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So now I'm like, oh, well, I can use this whiteboard for writing stuff down for piano,

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like objectives or goals or just writing notes down or whatever I may need to write down

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at that moment.

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And then I have the other whiteboard behind it to be able to write stuff down brainstorm

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for YouTube videos.

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So that's kind of just a monthly update for this past month.

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I'm feeling a lot better.

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I just know that every time I forget how to be happy, just retransurfing.

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And it helps a lot.

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So peace.